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deadbidaylight

deadbidaylight

And the sun will set for you
Feb 27, 2025
535
Shadow of the day- Linkin Park

Honestly probably 40 of their songs. But that one is my favourite atm.
 
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amyuwu

amyuwu

Member
Apr 3, 2025
83
when I was 14, I always wanted to ctb to this song

 
22yearsbroken

22yearsbroken

Lost in the dark... with no sign of light
Feb 15, 2025
419
Wow i have ti many but i have put a playlist on a usb in my ctb chest...here is just one ..

 
ThroughTheLight

ThroughTheLight

Member
May 8, 2023
33
To be this song (including the lyrics) is the prefect representation of misery, self loathing, and finally killing yourself.
 
F

F@#$

Freedom seeker
Nov 8, 2023
1,061
When I die
GG Allin and the murder junkies
 
Pale_Rider

Pale_Rider

Enlightened
Apr 21, 2025
1,458


This one right now.
 
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hang in there

hang in there

get it, har har
Apr 17, 2025
200
Not one to CTB to but related....
Back in the darkest point of my life I was more alone than I ever thought was possible. Absolute chest crushing despair every time I managed to wake up. It was really the end of a terrible life and I knew no one was going to miss me. All I was waiting for was the opportunity to take my life.
And this song... it so perfectly encapsulates that feeling, I don't have any idea how. But no matter where I am in life, no matter my happiest days, the second I play this song I just break down sobbing.
It hurts so bad but I want to listen to it over and over until I've cried myself to sleep. Maybe that's all I wanted, was to sleep...

 
Luv (sic)

Luv (sic)

It's funny how the music put times in perspective,
Apr 14, 2025
37
I love this song. You have goated music taste.
Thanks lol Nujabes has been a staple in my life for so many years now❤️. If you like him youd prob also like ppl like Shing02, Substantial, Cise star, Nitsua, Marcus D, Nomak, Re;plus etc
 
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SNastablesalt

SNastablesalt

she longs for freedom
Oct 6, 2023
179
My suicide playlist is just this song on repeat, banned from BBC at the time for being too depressing 🙃 But good songs match your mood, so I guess that's why I can't get enough of it.


"i dont care if it hurts, i wanna have control" MOST RELATABLE SONG EVER
 
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eggsausagerice

eggsausagerice

last chance for cake!
Apr 21, 2025
1,081
for me,
A Deer Mistaking Candles for Headlights "I am docile and lazy, I show no respect / You can call me a coward and you'd be correct"

Unassimilated Normie "Oh convention, how I bend at the very mention / Just keep me safe, save some face, I'll mask all intention and desire"

It Was a Swift Not A Swallow (I Never Listen) "Don't tell me I'm the one / I wouldn't wanna be the one / I wouldn't want to know"

If you like maretu you should listen to Kikuo
i'm a HOUND for kikuo. by far my favorite vocaloid producer when i was younger and now. i don't think i liked maretu that much besides a couple songs. here's a maretu cover i used to listen to back in quarantine: しう (SUCK IT UP) \ 姫騎士リヨナ

this is also something that came up in my recommended that i've been listening to lol Me, me, off I go~!
There Is a Light That Never Goes Out

i remember one night i was listening to some smiths songs for the first time i started crying when i listened to You've Got Everything Now by The Smiths because i really related to it. the smiths' debut album is really whiny, but that's what i like about it. unrelated, but i was also listening to lesley gore at the same time, and Just Let Me Cry was one of my favorite songs. i think it's a curling up and sulking album.
 
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