Venting What’s weighing you down

[koalaty]

I'm struggling with my family, my relationships, and this crushing feeling that my life is over.

I'm not a native English speaker, so it might sound a bit unnatural.

 

[idfwlnh]

I struggle with everything except my family, educational problems, work problems, society problems,...eventually ended with me being the weight

 

[Wojaczek]

failed at everything for most of my life so it's kinda hard to go on with a positive mindset.

i mean, life just sucks tbh, even if things go well it's annoying. there are very little pros to being alive imo, just so much suffering and anxiety for a couple days of happiness once in a while, idk, it's a sham tbh.

 

[MMOSTHATED]

I struggle with everything except my family, educational problems, work problems, society problems,...eventually ended with me being the weight

Same but atleast ur family isn't giving u problems. Mine aren't the worst but they pressure me a lot sometimes.

 

[koalaty]

failed at everything for most of my life so it's kinda hard to go on with a positive mindset.

i mean, life just sucks tbh, even if things go well it's annoying. there are very little pros to being alive imo, just so much suffering and anxiety for a couple days of happiness once in a while, idk, it's a sham tbh.

I agree with you

 

[idfwlnh]

Same but atleast ur family isn't giving u problems. Mine aren't the worst but they pressure me a lot sometimes.

I find myself really lucky to have them as my family! Though I kinda feel bad when they're not giving me much pressure but it's me and myself all along haha

 

[bl33ding_heart]

Being in love. :p

 

[Forever Sleep]

All the unavoidable crap in life. Working, chores, expectations from family. Also- worry about the future. Whether more will be expected of me. If my parents fall ill. If I fall ill. All the ways in which life is likely to get worse as I age. All of it is something I want to escape from.

There's also the weird pressure of feeling ready to go but then, feeling unable to- so as not to hurt loved ones. That generates a huge amount of resentment that then takes a huge amount of energy to mask.

 

[FuneralCry]

For me it's being trapped in this dreadful, torturous and cruel existence that I just always saw as the most terrible mistake that just causes all this harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, it truly is always an abomination to exist and I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence.

All I want is to erase this existence, I just want it to be like I never suffered at all in this painful, cruel existence and there's just so much cruelty and so much suffering in existing, I just want peace from this existence that should never had been imposed, there's just so much evil in existing with existing beings tortured every second and the suffering and torture of existing is endless. I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to cease existing peacefully with no more torture and no more suffering, to me denying the option of peaceful, guaranteed death is such a terrible crime, I always suffer as a result of the imposistion of existence, to suffer in this existence is just the most dreadful, undeserved punishment to me.

 

[tomame]

a spirit attached to me

 

[starrypandabear]

Probably myself, I keep making terrible decisions and not letting myself get better. I feel like no matter what I do I am destined for failure. I recently had to get help, not particularly by choice, and it made me feel like I really can't do anything. I feel like I'm searching for a purpose that doesn't exist. I guess hopelessness is the best word for it. I can't get myself out of this rut that I created for myself. Embarrassingly I also am sad because I am lonely and feel as I might be unlovable. Everyone I have ever been with gave up on loving me and told me it was too hard. I think I am just a leech to the people around me and anyone who could ever love me. But beyond that I just have no goals or aspirations everything I wanted fell flat before I even became and adult and now that I am an adult absolutely nothing has gotten better. I am angry too angry at this world. I just can't get over any of it. I think that weighs me down the most. I am so angry and I have no one to blame but myself.