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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,409
I'm about to walk right into it later today if all goes as planned. 😎
 
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EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
5,158
Eating those shitty unseasoned chicken tenders yesterday. 😔
 
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F@#$

Freedom seeker
Nov 8, 2023
1,077
Seeing my friends 7 year old son find his dad dead in bed.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,344
This is the main thing I regret not doing in my whole miserable life

I missed out on ordering 3 bottles nembutal from D when it was available 2 plus years ago . Was scared of law enforcement but should have taken the risk.

Many were ordering nembutal from D in winter of 2021. I could have had a painless quick dying and I wouldn't be suffering now

I lost the opportunity of all Lifetimes , all of them....

Every sentient being will suffer and most will suffer long excruciatingly painful natural deaths , yes even the billionaires and domestic cats get blocked Colons with cancer which is torture

Me a measly small animal who been brainwashed beaten down all its life had the opportunity to surpass all sentient beings. To have the opportunity of a painless certain dying. To do one rational act in a lobotomized life.But the brainwashing won out and I procrastinated

The facts :nothing is objectively important. And you don't have to do anything. Life is meaningless suffering, constant work chores and problems for no reason.The only reasons I and many humans do any thing is to prevent even worse suffering as in becoming homeless. I don't want to work a job. I have to or become homeless . I don't want to even live but I'm scared of a suicide attempt leaving me in a worse condition . I don't want to go to the damn grocery store again but I can't take the hunger. I don't want to wash clothes and take out trash brush teeth work a job etc but I have to or suffer worse as in homelessness.

They all want to grow old and take the risks of life for no objective purpose no reason . They are all constantly working and risking extreme pain torture for no reason

They don't realize youtb social media , media, tv news etc are not important or fun but addictions as is the addiction to life

They are all brainwashed sheep because they don't realize what i wrote above. And there's much more

I wasn't physically lobotomized but though mass media. For one thing brainwashed into thinking watching YouTube tv social media news all media all day was ok or fun or important
 
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iloverachel

Enlightened
Mar 7, 2024
1,217
Being born
 
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Ash’Girl

Ash’Girl

Girl, Interrupted
Apr 29, 2022
386
The moment my fiancés mother said the words "he didn't make it".

My whole world just crashed around me and I've never come back from it. Over two years now and it's still me just existing in the ruins. I still don't understand how someone could be here, joking, laughing, talking about the future, and two hours later be dead. He had the biggest, kindest and most loving heart and it just decided to stop.
 
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Little_Suzy

Little_Suzy

Amphibious
May 1, 2023
939
Eating worthless calories has been the saddest moment of my life.
 
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divinemistress87

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,919
When I was Assaulted and it caused a stroke
 
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Hellish Ore

Hellish Ore

Mould on bread
Nov 5, 2023
82
Watching everyone I ever wanted to stay leave.
 
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SovietSuicide

SovietSuicide

Student
Jan 8, 2022
141
Diagnosed with a chronic health condition that's going to ruin my life just after things started to go okay after 12 years of suffering. Life is a fucking joke.
 
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DEATH IS FREEDOM

DEATH IS FREEDOM

Death is the solution to unsolvable problems.
Sep 13, 2023
606
To have ended up on Sanctioned Suicide.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,192
The fact that I was forced into this cruel and undesirable existence in the first place when there were no disadvantages to never existing at all, procreation is the most terrible tragedy that causes nothing but harm and I just find it so sad how I had to exist in the first place. I just wish I stayed permanently unaware of the abomination that is existence more than anything, only never existing is perfection to me.
 
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Meteora

Ignorance is bliss
Jun 27, 2023
2,001
There is not the sadest moment. My whole life is very sad and a tragedy, basically.
 
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fleshgarden

fleshgarden

Student
Mar 15, 2023
133
maybe when I was young, and my dad for some reason thought I was beating my newly born brother because he got into accidents a lot. one time he accused me of hitting him and said "get away from my son". probably followed by a physical assault I don't remember. .. because that's when I realized I was not important to him at all and I was seen as a threat. from not doing anything .. he just thought I was insufferable.. but since then I've developed severe anxiety and it leaves me writhing and hating myself so much because I feel like everyone sees me the same way as he did. just today I'm spiraling and contemplating whether I should block and avoid everyone I know.
 
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Not Today Satan

Not Today Satan

I’ll survive even if it kills me
May 9, 2024
911
When the only guy who actually loved me left me because my mental health issues were too much for him.

No one loves me after they truly get to know me, but I can't blame them at all because I'm a piece of shit.
 
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sserafim

sserafim

they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
Sep 13, 2023
9,013
The facts :nothing is objectively important. And you don't have to do anything. Life is meaningless suffering, constant work chores and problems for no reason.The only reasons I and many humans do any thing is to prevent even worse suffering as in becoming homeless. I don't want to work a job. I have to or become homeless . I don't want to even live but I'm scared of a suicide attempt leaving me in a worse condition . I don't want to go to the damn grocery store again but I can't take the hunger. I don't want to wash clothes and take out trash brush teeth work a job etc but I have to or suffer worse as in homelessness.

They all want to grow old and take the risks of life for no objective purpose no reason . They are all constantly working and risking extreme pain torture for no reason

They don't realize youtb social media , media, tv news etc are not important or fun but addictions as is the addiction to life

They are all brainwashed sheep because they don't realize what i wrote above. And there's much more

I wasn't physically lobotomized but though mass media. For one thing brainwashed into thinking watching YouTube tv social media news all media all day was ok or fun or important
Literally
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
15,360
When my Dad told me my Nana had died. She was also my major last link to my Mum who died when I was 3.
 
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EyesOfNight

EyesOfNight

the night will be eternal
Feb 2, 2024
370
Probably when I was invited to go to the movies with a few people from my school. One person invited me and stopped updating me on where and when it was. I already had permission from my parents and the cash for a bus and movie ticket. I then decided to just go to the cinema and meet them there even tho I didn't know the exact location. I took the bus arrived at a random cinema and obviously didn't find anyone there so I just bought a ticket to a random movie which I left after 30min and went back home.
 
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lostinwoe

lostinwoe

woefully bound to death.
Mar 1, 2024
154
trying to hang myself while listening to dsbm in a very cramped spot
 
piddincir

piddincir

Student
Nov 6, 2023
182
When I can home from work and found my wife had taken her own life.

Desperately trying to resuscitate her with cpr knowing full well she was dead , but every breath I breathed into her she made the sound she she used to make when she was sleeping and I was snuggled up next to her .

This haunts me every night in my dreams and with my waking eyes and will do for the short time I have left on this earth without my soulmate and the love of my life
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,795
The saddest moment of my life was when it all started... when I was born
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,409
I'm about to walk right into it later today if all goes as planned. 😎
Actually the saddest moment for me is that I couldn't even commit to walking into my saddest moment. 🙃
 
ForgottenAgain

ForgottenAgain

On the rollercoaster of sadness
Oct 17, 2023
1,139
The day my mother died when I was 13. Coming home and hearing her blood curdling scream, hours later hearing my dad say "mommy didn't make it". Felt the world fall on my shoulders and I was never the same person since.
 
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neverLoved

neverLoved

Member
May 4, 2024
46
The night where I got woken up by my screaming sibling to see my dad threatening to kill my mom. Week later, getting picked up from school by police and leaving home with my mom and sibling to a shelter.
 
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