I thought maybe I could keep myself alive by distracting myself with a new interest until I die. But I can't feel anything my whole life (pleasure or emotion), and I have an incurable autoimmune-like illness, plus I can't date, and have like no dopamine or human desires, so it's like what the hell is the point? I just exist as this numb observer basically waiting to die.
So what if, in the unlikely scenario, things work out for me and I become financially successful? It's not going to evoke any emotion out of me, and I have no desire for anything or to accumulate things like other people (I wish I did though). It would only enable me to have an assistant, kind of like a caretaker assistant, and maybe buy a car I really like.
So what if, in the unlikely scenario, things work out for me and I become financially successful? It's not going to evoke any emotion out of me, and I have no desire for anything or to accumulate things like other people (I wish I did though). It would only enable me to have an assistant, kind of like a caretaker assistant, and maybe buy a car I really like.
