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NumbForLife

NumbForLife

I was born numb and I will die numb.
Jan 29, 2026
185
I thought maybe I could keep myself alive by distracting myself with a new interest until I die. But I can't feel anything my whole life (pleasure or emotion), and I have an incurable autoimmune-like illness, plus I can't date, and have like no dopamine or human desires, so it's like what the hell is the point? I just exist as this numb observer basically waiting to die.

So what if, in the unlikely scenario, things work out for me and I become financially successful? It's not going to evoke any emotion out of me, and I have no desire for anything or to accumulate things like other people (I wish I did though). It would only enable me to have an assistant, kind of like a caretaker assistant, and maybe buy a car I really like.
 
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soon4good

soon4good

unfinalized
Dec 2, 2024
114
Point is to pointlessly go from the starting point to the end point with no reason or purpose to pinpoint.
 
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NumbForLife

NumbForLife

I was born numb and I will die numb.
Jan 29, 2026
185
Same. There is no point for us
I'm sorry you're also in a similar position. You can feel free to DM me if you want someone to talk to who can relate. I don't know how long I'll be around though.
 
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