what’s the point in living if i can’t be healthy

[coldcoldcold]

i get migraines and bad headaches and have for several years. normally they're relatively infrequent and manageable and they don't bother me so much but lately they've been a lot more frequent and i'm just so fucking sick of it. i understand that sounds super dramatic but i've had to cancel so many classes and plans and miss out on so many things because of them. today i had to miss one of my classes therefore had to miss an important quiz because my head was hurting so bad and i couldn't see my partner after class like we planned bc of it which made me really upset, then in the morning i have a doctor's appointment so i'll be missing a presentation i'm required to do. also it's 3:53 am for me and i took 20 mg of melatonin like i always do and it's never been an issue but tonight it's just not working so i took some pm tylenol which i rly need to kick in soon bc sleep deprivation causes headaches but then so does pm tylenol so it doesn't matter what the fuck i do. i just wish i didn't have these issues to begin with and i'm so fucking sick of them i just don't understand what the point of living is if i can't bc i'm too unhealthy to do it. even if it's not worrying constantly ab getting a migraine it's joint pain or heart palpitations or things like that. i want to hang myself but i have no proper way to do it and i'm not trying to just suffocate to death there's no point if it's not quick and painless imo plus it's not that i feel alone or like no one cares i do have people that would genuinely grieve me and i can't put them through that esp my partner i just don't see the point if for my whole life i'm gonna be suffering with these migraines and there's nothing i can really do about it

 

[whywere]

Hi!

1st off, I used to get migraines, and they are the worst, so with that aspect said, I my heart bleeds for you and it also broke in a million pieces for you. Have you asked a doctor about some of the new migraine meds that came out recently?

I have 24/7 chronic pain from a very bad car crash, car crash not my fault, and I am racked with pain all the time, BUT I have all the loving and caring souls here helping and also some pain meds.

I am 66, reference point for this post, and I am guessing that you are much younger than me. My point is the fact that I have had so many great experiences through the decades, I will not lie, also some bad ones. But the good ones definitely outweigh the bad and it was good.

Sending you lots of love, caring and pm me if you would like to chat.

Walter

 

[FuneralCry]

It can be very horrible how the human body can torture us with no relief. I view this as being one of the worst things about having to exist as it can get worse at any moment. If only we lived in a society that respected the right to die and then people could exit this world in a peaceful way. To me it's unfair how people are expected to endure an existence that is just constant suffering against their wishes.

 

[Nekohime]

I'm so sorry to hear you get migraines, migraines are the worst!! And as well because it affects your head it's impossible to ignore! I got these eye massager goggles from Amazon for my migraines, they look absolutely ridiculous - like I belong on a spaceship - but it is sooo relieving. Applied heat to my forehead/eye area (even just a warm damp towel) + anti inflammatory medication is my best friend when I have a migraine. I absolutely understand how you feel about not wanting to live your life with migraines, every time I have one I legit wish I could just make the pain stop - even if that meant death - my best advice (if you haven't already) is to find your migraine triggers; certain scents (mine are; oranges, floral perfume, basil), sounds (mine are; neon signs, anything too high pitch and whispers) and touch (for me; using my hair brush too close to the nape of my neck) can trigger mine, and I do my best to eliminate or avoid these things. Unfortunately this won't eliminate them completely (they always creep up out of nowhere!) but hopefully it helps you :)