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GreenTree
Mage
- Jun 1, 2020
- 568
I've tried and been a good person all my life. I've always treated others how I'd like to be treated. Yes I've made mistakes in life like everyone else. I do feel guilt and shame at things I've done. But everyone has done regrettable things. Now I'm unemployed and barely functioning in life. My relationships are suffering too. I hate bringing other people's mood down too. I had a life I enjoyed now it's all gone. I want to die but that will cause pain for others. I cause pain and sadness being alive though. I've always tried to follow christian rules so feel disappointed in God and I can't trust him. This is bad but its how I feel. Probably gonna end up in hell too. Makes me wonder what's the point in life. I see people consciously being absolute nasty people yet they seam to fly through life with no pain. So what is the point in life.