Immediately I'm able to tell if I'm motivated or just in the bed for another night. 75% of the time I basically rot in bed. The other 25% it's almost like I'm happy.
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The anhedonic one, yyytry, Lostsoul333 and 2 others
V.tired not rly wanting to get out of bed. Hopefully just because my sleep scheduall was no-good recently, otherwise there's basically nothing I could do.
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The anhedonic one, Red Desert and not-2-b-the-answer
The urge to fall back asleep. If I have work or something else to do I force myself up. If not I usually sleep at least half the day away and then regret all the wasted time when I wake up. Then I tell myself that I'll do more with myself the next day, I never do.
Everytime I wakeup, I feel really blissfully weightless for a split second, then I remember who I am, where I am, what my life is, and those realizations slam into me all at once and I just want to go back to sleeping again.
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The anhedonic one, apple2myeye!, Lostsoul333 and 3 others
I wake up, make my coffee and stare out the window before realising "Oh fuck" work in 2 hours..
Then i sit with my coffee staring at the floor wishing i could just rest and not feel dread anymore, like a kid waking up for school i wish i could just sleep.
It's hard to be positive when your company has rich bastards who never feel the dread of being paid peanuts.
If i had a quick method like a pill, man I'd be tempted to clean house
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The anhedonic one, Forever Sleep and Caramelized
I just feel disappointed that I'm still trapped here and I also feel dread for what lies ahead as after all we exist in this hellish world where there is unlimited potential to suffer. Having the ability to exist here truly is such a dreadful thing, I find it awful how we cannot just choose to permanently leave in our sleep.
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The anhedonic one, CentreMid and myusername890
I feel a profound sadness and emptiness. I usually begin my day crying that I'm still alive.
I wish I could transfer my health to a terminally ill person that wants to live because I'm wasting my life.
I flew across the country to be with my family because I thought it would help me feel less depressed but I think it's made it worse. I feel so lonely even though I'm not alone.
I'm planning on going back to my apartment across the country in the next few weeks to ctb. I don't want to traumatize my parents by having them find my body. It makes me sad there doesn't seem to be anything anyone can do to help. :(
every time i wake up its like a blast of noise to my head i hate it a loit. sometimes my brain also likes to show horrible images in my head just as i wake up and i cant get my mind off it for the rest of the day
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