Whats the end game here

[finish.me]

Can't think of a single reason that makes any of this worth it. Why and how do people push on so fucking long? living with my boyfriend and his family atm and I'm kind of forced to participate in the housework and everything and I mainly help his mom with things and all i can think about every day waking up at 6 am is how the fuck is she tolerating it all? cleaning every day going to work everyday and being constantly stressed out and sad and doing nothing about it.. why. How. Like unironically how have you not killed yourself yet. How have /I/ not killed myself yet. I know it's just because I'm scared and I like some things here still, i find pleasure in eating and sex and laughing and i still have a few more things to try out but if I haven't gotten around to it by 40 I literally wouldn't see a point in struggling with this world anymore

 

[motel rooms]

I like some things here still, i find pleasure in eating and sex and laughing and i still have a few more things to try out but if I haven't gotten around to it by 40 I literally wouldn't see a point in struggling with this world anymore

You can have sex, laugh & even eat even in your 40s, you know.

 

[Julgran]

What can I say....? LIfe is a temorary illusion that seems permanent for the observer - namely us humans.

Life ends eventually - whether you do it yourself, or if you let time do it for you.

In the meantime, know that everything that we do in life is ultimately pointless - even if we like what we do, or not.

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

I came across this one the other day . I agreed very much
With what he said about life

 

[finish.me]

You can have sex, laugh & even eat even in your 40s, you know.

lolll you got me there

 

[NotSureToEndure]

Can't think of a single reason that makes any of this worth it. Why and how do people push on so fucking long? living with my boyfriend and his family atm and I'm kind of forced to participate in the housework and everything and I mainly help his mom with things and all i can think about every day waking up at 6 am is how the fuck is she tolerating it all? cleaning every day going to work everyday and being constantly stressed out and sad and doing nothing about it.. why. How. Like unironically how have you not killed yourself yet. How have /I/ not killed myself yet. I know it's just because I'm scared and I like some things here still, i find pleasure in eating and sex and laughing and i still have a few more things to try out but if I haven't gotten around to it by 40 I literally wouldn't see a point in struggling with this world anymore

We all have different thresholds, and there's a lot of people in the world who would never consider suicide as an option. Maybe it's her sense of duty to her family that keeps her going? It's hard to know what people are thinking deep down, but you've mentioned it's hard to find a reason to make anything worth it, yet you do say you find pleasure in some things..

So maybe those things are your reason to carry on , at least for now :)

 

[finish.me]

We all have different thresholds, and there's a lot of people in the world who would never consider suicide as an option. Maybe it's her sense of duty to her family that keeps her going? It's hard to know what people are thinking deep down, but you've mentioned it's hard to find a reason to make anything worth it, yet you do say you find pleasure in some things..

So maybe those things are your reason to carry on , at least for now :)

i guess. lately its mostly been just trying to figure out if those things that make me feel okay outweigh the bad and i truly can't tell right now.

 

[eternalmelancholy]

Well I think most people realize this way too late after they get married and have kids. So they are kind of stuck and just waiting for death.

A lot of us here are younger and due to unfortunate life circumstances realized the meaningless of life a few decades too early. Yeah food, sex and drugs is nice and all but sleep is better than all of them combined. Death is even better since you never have to wake up in the morning. Still it is really hard to overcome SI even knowing all of this.

 

[motel rooms]

lolll you got me there

All you need for sex, laughing & eating in your 40s are good dentures.

 

[CrossroadsCurious]

You only need dentures for eating bro. The others... not so much. ;)

 

[NotSureToEndure]

i guess. lately its mostly been just trying to figure out if those things that make me feel okay outweigh the bad and i truly can't tell right now.

Fair enough, it is a struggle for sure. I think some people are just wired to survive, or perhaps they're just good at hiding the pain! I do like to think some people are enjoying life though, even when I'm struggling to myself.

 

[eternalmelancholy]

I think some people are just wired to survive, or perhaps they're just good at hiding the pain!

I don't know how the homeless manage to hold on day after day under dehumanizing conditions. There are some fates that are far worse than death. Could you imagine being locked up in a pysch ward for the rest of your life?

Life can always get worse. I read stories on here about people who had good lives and one day due to an accident or infection, they lose control of their body and organs. Over night they become a prisoner in their own bodies. Life is horrifying and I don't plan on waiting around to see what else it has in store.

 

[ikadasui]

I don't know how the homeless manage to hold on day after day under dehumanizing conditions. There are some fates that are far worse than death. Could you imagine being locked up in a pysch ward for the rest of your life?

Life can always get worse. I read stories on here about people who had good lives and one day due to an accident or infection, they lose control of their body and organs. Over night they become a prisoner in their own bodies. Life is horrifying and I don't plan on waiting around to see what else it has in store.

Sometimes I think about what ti'd be like getting in an accident and ending up paralyzed from the neck down. Can you even begin to comprehend that nightmare? Stuck now with solely your cursed mind, in a body unable to do anything, as you suffer the humiliation of having someone feed you, wipe your ass, dress you. You'd be a living doll unable to end it and your pleas for death would still ofc fall on deaf ears. It truly terrifies me to the fucking core

 

[stellabelle]

Can't think of a single reason that makes any of this worth it. Why and how do people push on so fucking long? living with my boyfriend and his family atm and I'm kind of forced to participate in the housework and everything and I mainly help his mom with things and all i can think about every day waking up at 6 am is how the fuck is she tolerating it all? cleaning every day going to work everyday and being constantly stressed out and sad and doing nothing about it.. why. How. Like unironically how have you not killed yourself yet. How have /I/ not killed myself yet. I know it's just because I'm scared and I like some things here still, i find pleasure in eating and sex and laughing and i still have a few more things to try out but if I haven't gotten around to it by 40 I literally wouldn't see a point in struggling with this world anymore

Some people enjoy the mundane.
There's nothing wrong with that. Living and doing all of those basic things and feeling accomplished.
I would love to be "functional" again. It's either too little, too much, too late, whatever. It's sad. And it's frustrating. People just blame one another for shit, triangles of phones and trouble and stupid shit. Little fucking games. Stupid little fuckfaces.

 

[eternalmelancholy]

Sometimes I think about what ti'd be like getting in an accident and ending up paralyzed from the neck down. Can you even begin to comprehend that nightmare? Stuck now with solely your cursed mind, in a body unable to do anything, as you suffer the humiliation of having someone feed you, wipe your ass, dress you. You'd be a living doll unable to end it and your pleas for death would still ofc fall on deaf ears. It truly terrifies me to the fucking core

Your description is so vivid it is terrifying. I am very claustrophobic and even being trapped under the blankets makes me feel uneasy. Becoming paralyzed would be the most suffocating experience imaginable.

That is one reason why I could never jump. Just the fear of surviving and ending up like that. It takes real guts to jump. Just the desperation they must feel to do that. I have no words.

 

[FuneralCry]

Life is just a pointless experience that we go through for the sake of it. Many of us are brought into this world just to suffer. I do not understand how people can put up with this life for many decades, I believe that many are still here because suicide is difficult, we are programmed to survive and for me there is a lack of a peaceful and reliable way to exit. I know that it is hard to carry on when you are suffering so much. More than anything I wish I was never born in the first place, as then I would not have to deal with this life.