Discussion What's stopping you from going through with ctb?

[ThatSnakeParent]

I have a method that will work but I'm scared of what happens after we die. I don't want to be alive, the pain of everything that's happened is too much but I can't get over the fear.

 

[First loss]

I am attempting to fix things.

 

[Just do it]

I'm afraid as well I have a gun but not sure where to aim it I have the rope and hanging pole but not sure if its going to work

 

[ThatSnakeParent]

I am attempting to fix things.

But what it it can't be fixed? Like what if the emotional pain of memories and physical pain can't be fixed?

 

[ThatSnakeParent]

I want it to be like sleeping and I just dream but I'm scared

 

[First loss]

But what it it can't be fixed? Like what if the emotional pain of memories and physical pain can't be fixed?

I'll go trough with it then. I need to finish some things in life first.

 

[felix]

I have a method that will work but I'm scared of what happens after we die. I don't want to be alive, the pain of everything that's happened is too much but I can't get over the fear.

I'm scared of hell

 

[Minudah]

I haven't been able to pull off carotid compression, I've been trying to ctb with it for a month. The past few days I've been too weak from not eating (wasn't really eating while I tried to ctb), so I've been trying to recover my energy before trying again. I finally feel a little better today, can't stop eating but I think I'll give it another shot tonight

 

[Jake.123]

Tbh im not really 100% sure probably how my family would react.

 

[First loss]

I'm scared of hell

You have a darkthrone avi yet you are scared of hell?

 

[felix]

You have a darkthrone avi yet you are scared of hell?

Yeah. Still enjoy the music even so

 

[Nitromask]

Only the fear of messing it up

 

[311]

Logistics

 

[Steapa Snotor]

Money

 

[DepressionsAHo]

I have a method that will work but I'm scared of what happens after we die. I don't want to be alive, the pain of everything that's happened is too much but I can't get over the fear.

My stuff isn't here.

 

[Roadkill]

Fear of failure.. I'm afraid of messing it up and becoming blind, paralyzed, or a vegetable

 

[Thisisme373]

Fear of failure.. I'm afraid of messing it up and becoming blind, paralyzed, or a vegetable

This

 

[Kyrok]

In short, obligations to others.

 

[Thisisme373]

In short, obligations to others.

Also this

 

[TAW122]

I'm attempting to fix some things and I will find out late next month if I manage to fix my life, if not, then I'll just muster the courage to go through with suicide.

If next month, things goes well, then I'll likely continue living. If things turn to shit, then I'll be dead before the end of May.

 

[Lettam]

The slow shipping of eBay sellers.

 

[Andthesunsank]

High caliber bullet waiting for the mind to be ready. I've become apathetic to even offing myself. Though the fear of the abyss is always there.

Gonna be a spur of the moment thing for me, wrote 4 letters over 4 years but never followed through.

 

[WhiteRabbit]

My family : (

 

[Taylored]

Delusions

 

[Raggas]

Survival instinct and lack of current pain due to the medication I'm on.

 

[123monday123]

I am afraid of my burial

 

[couragetodie]

Conscious: haven't determined the best method

Subconscious: scared / deep down don't want to die*

* But I know my future is going to complete shit so I need to overcome the fear and sadness that the game is over

 

[Fenty(nal)]

Waiting for better weather and it's actually pretty hard to track down that yellow Fentanyl I saw on the local news. ‍

 

[dandan]

to keep it short....
my mom , killing myself would be like stabbing her
killing myself is plain hard thing to do, I have the nitrogen tank and sodium cyanide, but I dont know if its real or pure
I want to go out looking to buy N

I actually do feel awful making my family suffer much, they have suffered enough with me and my problems, but they have endured, and they are still there for me, loving me, so catching the bus, killing my self, would be like stabbing my mom, even though when I've told her i wanna kill myself, and even ask for her permission, she once told me she respects my decision, thats even harder for me, I dont want her to suffer the loss of her child, even though im no longer a baby, im 36, independent but scared as hell, as if I loose the job I have, nobody else would hire me because my knowledge is not that great plus my memory sucks, so im like blessed I still have a job, but if I loose this job, im doomed, i dunno what to do, ...

 

[21Neberg]

I don't want to hurt my parents who have given me everything I could have ever wished for. That's why I've started therapy this week, to give life another chance.