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eternalmelancholy

eternalmelancholy

waiting for the bus
Mar 24, 2021
1,169
My method used to be partial suspension. But after a few failures I have decided to go with N. It should arrive pretty soon.

I hope I can ctb once I get my hands on it. I know the longer I wait, the harder it will be. I still have 2 months of living expenses saved. So I don't feel rushed but I should probably do it fairly quickly.
 
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Starryeyes

Starryeyes

Experienced
Sep 22, 2021
237
Waiting 12 weeks for my CBT therapy. I'm hoping it helps me feel less angry at the world. I have SN if not.
 
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HeckingHecked

HeckingHecked

Student
Nov 9, 2021
182
I'm conflicted. I know things are likely not to improve, especially being an adult, soon to be out of school, but I can't help but wonder what life would be like if I had friends. Right now I have a few, but I'm bound to lose them within a couple days. For now, they are convincing me to stay alive for them. When they abandon me, though, is when I'm going to partial hang myself. Might do it, sooner.
 
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willitpass

willitpass

Don’t try to offer me help, I’ve tried everything
Mar 10, 2020
3,219
my method will most likely be full suspension in a forest, however i am curious about the night-night method where you use a long straight object and twist a strip of fabric. also want to find a way to obtain sleeping pills so i can put a trash bag over my head and suffocate while asleep.

currently my SI is still high after going into recovery a few months ago for the first time in years. that will go down, i'm just waiting it out, no need to rush it. i also want to spend the holidays with my family as i was in a psych hospital for all of the holidays last year. and i need time to work through the methods, i don't want to hurry to one and it not be the right one. i am currently in no hurry, the time will come when it is right
my method will most likely be full suspension in a forest, however i am curious about the night-night method where you use a long straight object and twist a strip of fabric. also want to find a way to obtain sleeping pills so i can put a trash bag over my head and suffocate while asleep.

currently my SI is still high after going into recovery a few months ago for the first time in years. that will go down, i'm just waiting it out, no need to rush it. i also want to spend the holidays with my family as i was in a psych hospital for all of the holidays last year. and i need time to work through the methods, i don't want to hurry to one and it not be the right one. i am currently in no hurry, the time will come when it is right
 
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WrongPlaceWrongTime

WrongPlaceWrongTime

Better never to have been
Jul 4, 2021
695
Still living for certain family member(s). My method is partial or full suspension. My first rope was taken away when I was caught practicing, so I only have one more left and have to be careful.
 
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Dear Agony

Dear Agony

The Void
Jan 24, 2020
296
Family is the only thing stopping me, and my method is full suspension as well.
 
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DemonicAngel

DemonicAngel

Another brick in the wall.
Jan 21, 2021
78
I have N, but I love my cats too much to leave them. I need to find how long N lasts.
 
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9kevinngannou

9kevinngannou

Member
Oct 28, 2021
48
Waiting for both my SN and meto.
 
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Silenos

Silenos

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Jul 25, 2020
1,056
I was stopped by the fact that I have perfectionist tendencies. I wanted to do it in another country which I couldn't get to due to the lockdowns. In that waiting period I sort of gave up on my urgency to die and figured I'll try to do as many things on my bucket list as I can. So that's what I'm working on right now.

When it's time, I'll jump from a special place. Probably get my 5 minutes of fame after death.
 
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JinZhin

JinZhin

we are in hell
Nov 2, 2021
187
I will give one reason. This is actually ridiculous, but If I were to leave, my family wouldn't even be able to afford a casket, they are often as 1.5times as an mid tier salary here so...I wouldn't mind being buried in a trash can but as they are going through some hard times now, I'd wait for them to become more clear headed, as hypocritical that sounds
 
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waterstrider

waterstrider

cold
Nov 29, 2020
400
Fear & not finding the sweet spot.
 
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SamuelClemens400

SamuelClemens400

Member
Nov 13, 2021
28
CO poisoning, and I dont have any money to buy some charcoal
 
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Talvikki

Talvikki

Elementalist
Nov 18, 2021
846
I'm afraid to wake up after drinking n
 
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