I have no reason to stay any longer, I've ruined my life with the choices I've made, my mental health has caused me to make foolish mistakes, ones that I feel I cannot fix.
I know that leaving will hurt some people, I don't want to hurt anyone by leaving, but I think I'll hurt them more by staying.
The bit that's hard to reconcile is the question of what happens after death, do our souls/ minds/ conscious live on do you think, or are we divided as per religion based on the life's we have lived/ the good and bad that we have done, or, as I hope, that we simply are dead dead, nothing more?
I know no one knows, and that religious beliefs somewhat dictate peoples thinking on the possibility of an after life or re-incarnation, some people believe in the Big Bang theory, which to me dictates that there's nothing after death but for blankness. Others believe we are all part of a big experiment like in the Matrix, or that we are all just the play thing of another life form ( I actually think this is plausible ), and others think that we moved from realm to realm.
What do you all think happens, and hope happens after death?
As someone who wavers between genuinely hoping that there is nothing after death, that our brains just turn off and that's it and hoping that a beautiful new life and indescribable unconditional love awaits us I hope I'm not doing more harm than good by sharing the single most compelling "near death experience" story, which includes an after death communication that was verified by three different independent parties and individuals, story with you.
It takes about an hour to listen to this but it is worth it.
Fascinating story and the synchronicities are important.
I honestly don't know if near death experiences are proof of a beautiful, peaceful existence after death where we are reunited with loved ones, can even visit our favorite deceased celebrities or not.
Many of these experiences offer what I, as a still living mere mortal, feel is a logical chain of events.
Leaving your body is an incredibly freeing experience, going down the tunnel, being embraced by an indescribably beautiful light and being enveloped by its equally indescribable sense of pure, unconditional, healing love and then having to get through what is known as a life review where we go over all that is wonderful about us as well all of the wrongs we committed, not an easy to get through but necessary if you want to enjoy all the other side has to offer.
Sounds fair and perfectly reasonable.
According to those who have had near death experiences, or "experience-ers", you get to visit a place where you truly feel that you've come home, that you've come to your true home. A home everyone is accepted.
Humans, animals, pets, plant life. Everything that has a life force is accepted into what we think of as Heaven.
Even the worst of us are accepted. Even the worst of the worst. And their life review process is going to be much harder to get through than the average person's. Again, sounds fair.
Those who die by suicide are not condemned or punished. Their passing is treated like any other passing (the story link I'm giving you includes a person who died of a drug overdose and who is in Heaven and doing just fine).
Every living being is profoundly understood and profoundly loved unconditionally by the "source" or the "creator", no, there is no vengeful God who sits up in the clouds keeping track of all of your misdeeds, there is no one true religion and we realize how connected we all are and how we're all connected and in this together.
And there is no hell, just a sense of being held accountable for your Earthly, mortal actions.
Healthy, happy people with happy, healthy lives have these experiences and plead not to be sent "back there" and are often sad, disappointed and very angry when they have to come back and have a hard time readjusting to their Earth lives.
And then...there are those "experience-ers" who describe what they honestly feel is a positive, Heavenly experience and their Heaven doesn't sound all that great to me. There are times when I'm listening to what is supposed to be an uplifting near death experience and I'm thinking, "Say it ain't so!"
Here's the story if you're interested in listening to it.
While skeptics like to explain near death experiences away as being mere hallucinations - and some of them obviously are hallucinations - this story and these events are difficult to explain away.
But sometimes there are days or moments where I don't know if I feel this is a good thing or a bad thing.
But, that's just me.
Mr. Randy Schiefer's Near Death and After Death Communication Experience: