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hellispink

hellispink

poisonous
May 26, 2022
1,229
Nothing. I don't have nothing here worth of anything.
 
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matthew00057

Member
Dec 15, 2022
8
my bunnies, i worry about them
 
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MideonNViscera

Student
Nov 26, 2021
146
Honestly, I already miss all of the things I would miss. Dying won't really change that.
 
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bestbefore053121

Member
Oct 26, 2021
12
My dog. That's it. I've lost all interest in everything I used to enjoy, except my dog.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
12,180
-The sea, trees, nature in general.
-That smell after it rains.
-Watching garden birds.
-Seeing a really good film for the first time.
-Listening to a piece of music a few times and realising I REALLY like it... A few more times and I will have overlistened to it though.
-Finding something funny.
-Going back to sleep (when I should be getting up.)
-Having a crush on someone (before I realise it's probably limerance again and that they'll never love me back anyway.)
-Chocolate and biscuits.
 
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Next-to-Nil

Next-to-Nil

Begrudgingly Everlasting
Mar 2, 2023
237
I'm gonna miss having sex.
 
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AJwantsToGo

AJwantsToGo

♡ Your Average Bad Person ♡
Feb 24, 2023
40
The feeling of injecting morphine and my cats.
 
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sorrowed_ender

sorrowed_ender

You should never trust the Pantaloon
Mar 3, 2023
40
I'll miss so many things. I really dont want to ctb at all. I just want to be happy and be okay.
 
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Mr. Incapable

Mr. Incapable

Also inadequate, incompetent, weak & powerless
Jun 21, 2022
175
My sister and her cats, mostly.. I'll miss plants and nature. Netflix.
 
TapeMachine

TapeMachine

perpetually confused
Jan 12, 2023
411
My favorite songs and the way it feels to sing them.

All of my cozy house robes, my favorite Mother jeans, the smell of Baccarat Rouge 540 on my skin. 🤷‍♀️ This is all I have, just stuff; how could I miss something more substantial if I don't have it in the first place?

I won't really miss any of this shit anyway, not when I'm really gone; but my brain likes to wax nostalgic over insignificant things when ctb enters my mind..
 
thelastdaffodil

thelastdaffodil

New Member
Jun 13, 2022
4
I'll miss listening to music and discovering new music. Going "holy shit that's a really good song" then rushing to find it on Spotify and playing it on repeat for the rest of the day. I'll miss food. Everything from chicken to pizza to cereal to a good ol sandwich cause who doesn't love good food. I'll miss watching movies/shows and making it my entire personality for a week. I'll miss feeling comforted by some random content creator or person on the internet. I'll miss laughing. At silly cat videos or stupid tiktoks/reels, dumb jokes and videos on the internet. I'll miss the things I won't get to do/ experience. Still, I don't wanna be here. Can't miss anything if you're dead
 
charlotte_

charlotte_

Arcanist
Mar 12, 2023
435
I'll definitely miss my cat. She's adorable, and had been there with me through hard times
My friends too. Despite the fact that I'm not considered a best friend to any of them, just the fact that they took their precious time to be with me is good enough
I'll miss the knowledge I've managed to obtained. I'm a sucker for philosophy and fine arts, they are some of my biggest interests
Not really a miss, but it'll be a pity that I'll never managed to finish my book. Not like I expect anyone to like it, but still. I want to at least accomplish something before I get to that point. I'm not considering CTB rn, but if I do get there, I will surely miss those.
 
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cryinnq

New Member
Mar 11, 2023
2
What you will miss once you ctb? Something that you look forward to but not big nmebough to hold you back from ctbing.

I will miss what is the true one piece and it's ending. I will miss how they will animate the final episode of Mob Psycho 100. I will miss the new seaon of tanya the evil and no game no life(if ever there will be new season). I will miss my long and solo drives to Niagara falls or anywhere. I will miss mixing sound every Sunday. I will miss the taste of french vanilla, blueberry muffins, and apple pie. I will miss my bed. I will miss my hoodies.

I know these are just temporary things and once I ctb they don't really matter. But how I wish if there's a life after death, a place with no pain, just peace and joy, these things will be there to.

I enjoy these things but the pain of this life is much heavier and getting heavier that they cannot even nudge it even a little.
Ordered a new batch of SN, will attempt again by Thursday.
my cats
 
LateForTheBus

LateForTheBus

Experienced
Feb 7, 2023
228
I watched the TV show "Smallville" when it came out in 2001. I loved it and watched the first 6 seasons. I recently started rewatching it with the hope of finishing all 10 seasons, but I know I won't make it that long. It sucks I won't finish the series, but it's not enough to keep/prolong me from ctb.
 
aubrey!

aubrey!

internet angel
Mar 11, 2023
149
dreaming.
i don't have pets, i don't have many friends, and most of them are probably better off without me.
but i find a fascination with my dreams. i almost wish there was really a such thing as "sleeping forever."
 
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Sparr0w

Sparr0w

please feed my pfp crumbs they are begging u
Jan 24, 2023
300
a really good fanfiction i read a few months back had a sequel where they published two chapters and then life got in the way.
i'll miss not being able to read it when it's finished in probably 6 months, or never.

i own some plants, and i have a few little guys. i won't see what they look like when they flower in a year or two.

if i start the process to go on HRT now, it'll be around 6 months to actually get it, and another 6 for all the effects to start up. i'll miss not being able to see what i'd look like after i would've fully (or partially) transitioned.
 

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