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reverse03

reverse03

Departing. Goodbye
Sep 11, 2022
153
What you will miss once you ctb? Something that you look forward to but not big nmebough to hold you back from ctbing.

I will miss what is the true one piece and it's ending. I will miss how they will animate the final episode of Mob Psycho 100. I will miss the new seaon of tanya the evil and no game no life(if ever there will be new season). I will miss my long and solo drives to Niagara falls or anywhere. I will miss mixing sound every Sunday. I will miss the taste of french vanilla, blueberry muffins, and apple pie. I will miss my bed. I will miss my hoodies.

I know these are just temporary things and once I ctb they don't really matter. But how I wish if there's a life after death, a place with no pain, just peace and joy, these things will be there to.

I enjoy these things but the pain of this life is much heavier and getting heavier that they cannot even nudge it even a little.
Ordered a new batch of SN, will attempt again by Thursday.
 
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SamTam33

Warlock
Oct 9, 2022
763
Of course with death, the sensation of yearning for something will no longer exist, but I know what you mean.

I'll miss boiled crab legs and spicy potatoes. That feeling when you hear an amazing, new song and stop whatever you're doing to wonder, "Who is that?"

Old songs that made you happy as a child.

Saturday mornings when you briefly wake up to hear the rain against the window. Then you bury down deep into the covers and fall back asleep.

The theme songs to my favorite TV shows.

Ice cold Pepsi and the sound of the fizzy bubbles. Funny pet videos and news bloopers.

Unwrapping the cellophane on a fresh pack of cigarettes.

I'll miss those things.
 
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watchingthewheels

Enlightened
Jan 23, 2021
1,415
Music
Autumn
Coffee
Drawing
Sunsets
 
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Mir88

Member
Oct 5, 2022
21
If it would be possible to miss something after death, I would miss the act of cooking. I understood that I wanted to ctb when that didn't give me joy anymore, but the kitchen is one of the few places where, sometimes, I feel less in pieces.
 
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byebyered

byebyered

sunshine ☀️
Mar 9, 2022
72
The beach.
 
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reverse03

reverse03

Departing. Goodbye
Sep 11, 2022
153
The beach.
I also love beach back when I am still in the Philippines. All "beaches" here in Canada are just lake. I smell the saltiness of the water and it's strong waves. Then feeling sticky after swimming for the whole day.
 
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ConstantPain

Sorry but cats are so much better than people
Jun 9, 2022
286
Of course with death, the sensation of yearning for something will no longer exist, but I know what you mean.

I'll miss boiled crab legs and spicy potatoes. That feeling when you hear an amazing, new song and stop whatever you're doing to wonder, "Who is that?"

Old songs that made you happy as a child.

Saturday mornings when you briefly wake up to hear the rain against the window. Then you bury down deep into the covers and fall back asleep.

The theme songs to my favorite TV shows.

Ice cold Pepsi and the sound of the fizzy bubbles. Funny pet videos and news bloopers.

Unwrapping the cellophane on a fresh pack of cigarettes.

I'll miss those things.
So elegantly put how you'd miss Pepsi and Cigarettes and they both make my list too! So do...
My cats
Cozy blankets and comfy recliners
Pain killers and muscle relaxants
Coffee
Flowers
Eating good food I didn't have to prepare
Boots and shoes (yes I have a problem and quite a collection)
Vintage fashion
 
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ilovemybed

Member
Dec 5, 2022
29
im gonna miss all the kdrama and netflix series that i anticipated so much. haah i love tv. its so good nowadays
 
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Minibosterita

Minibosterita

Just trying to fill the void
Mar 9, 2021
59
I'll miss my dog. But I know she won't be around forever
 
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RedPanda

RedPanda

One day we shall be free from this mortal coil.
Jul 16, 2019
237
NONE of this shit even matters, you're dead, you can't miss anything. Even the thought of missing something is completely pointless. You will be dead, in a void, devoid of consciousness. You can't process anything.
 
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ConstantPain

Sorry but cats are so much better than people
Jun 9, 2022
286
NONE of this shit even matters, you're dead, you can't miss anything. Even the thought of missing something is completely pointless. You will be dead, in a void, devoid of consciousness. You can't process anything.
I agree completely that none of this matters and we won't be aware of anything. I also just took this as an opportunity to think about the few things while alive that do still give me enjoyment.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,438
If I had the ability to miss anything after I cease to exist, then I wouldn't. I despise existing in every single way, existing is such a torturous and useless experience which serves no purpose and holds no benefits. The ability to be conscious and aware of everything is such a burden and a curse so of course every waking moment is suffering for me. The thought of being permanently free from this life and never being able to experience anything ever again is such a wonderful thought, it's the best thing possible and it's all that I wish for.
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
2,859
Strawberry ice cream
 
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spixs_macaw

waiting for a miracle
Sep 28, 2022
30
Music and the first sunshine when it's getting spring.
 
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Purin

Member
Dec 5, 2022
19
Music
 
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Aya&Dazy

Member
Nov 11, 2022
63
Depression makes it hard for me to enjoy things.
Every little thing just seem annoying and numb but I still love online shopping.
I will miss wearing these cute stuffs that bought.
My apartment has beautiful mountain view covered with snow. I will miss this too.
 
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Wannagonow

Specialist
Nov 16, 2022
376
I would definitely miss my dog. Also an old fashioned backyard cookout. I don't do cookouts anymore (no friends). But I loved the smell of burgers on the grill.
 
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Banshee

Student
Oct 25, 2021
154
Can't really think of anything I'd miss that'd trump not being alive.
 
Darkover

Darkover

Archangel
Jul 29, 2021
5,605
computer programming, maths, science,technology, music, films, sex.
 
SpiroSundae

SpiroSundae

She/Her
Dec 1, 2022
47
Hearing a good song for the first time
My gecko
Weed
Xanax
 
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maddaddam

Member
Dec 14, 2022
10
My dogs. Then ocean. Him.
 
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Mixedopinion

Member
Jan 4, 2020
6
The life I could have had if I had not been this unlucky
 
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hopelessgirl

hopelessgirl

Mage
Oct 12, 2021
512
Food and sex with the love of my life.
Also my mother, my brothers and my dog
 
Mr_House

Mr_House

Black Mesa Research Facility (B.M.R.F.)
Jul 14, 2022
196
Recently got into Alan Wake, they're going to make another one, Oh and Fallout 5, maybe some new Half life games valve will make aswell.

Different foodstuffs, Various shows like TWD

Ah, I will miss it - If only you can amputate the bad stuff out of life and keep the good, live happy. Damn
 
mateodolores

mateodolores

walking corpse
Dec 5, 2022
52
My twin, my pets, good music, good food, cigarettes, coffee, anime and manga, and the Persona/SMT series. Not like that'll matter much, even if there is an afterlife...
 
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Reallysad

Student
Nov 23, 2022
101
My 3kids,my family and friends and that's about it.want to be gone now as living is killing me Inside and killing my soul
 
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Prescott241

Member
Oct 9, 2022
44
Could you ever miss something that you've never had? I think so. I will miss the same things I've been missing for quite a while. For my entire life I've been missing wealth, having always been completely destitute of any wealth and always relying on next week's scant paycheck for income . I've always been missing a sense of community, having never been accepted into any group of people that I would recognize as "my people". I will miss ONE specific person, who I can't name, but had kindled a sense of mysticism and curiosity in me that has completely changed my life. She was much older than me, and for reasons I don't want to get into, we weren't at liberty to form any sort of bond. The way the World and Society works is cruel, and both have ways of tricking you into giving up your liberty for security. But anywho, she will be the only person I miss.
 
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wait.what

wait.what

no really, what?
Aug 14, 2020
994
My cats. I think that's it.
 
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