Discussion What would need to change for you to not CTB?

[MarsProxy]

I guess there's multiple options.
Have my partner back alive with me (impossible and a violation of his autonomy).
Somehow communicate with him wherever he might be (assuming some existence beyond life, kinda ridiculous and likely impossible).
Either medically or chemically sedated and restrained (probably the most likely worldly option, not a fan and would probably still want to die).

 

[Kundalini Guy]

What happened to you? What is kundalini psychosis? I've read about kundalini and chakras but I never heard about psychosis?
For me it's hopeless. Because the things that are ruining my life are beyond my control. The only way would be going back in time.

It's basically when you mess up your awakening and once the cool liquid reaches your brain, you get brain damage and psychosis. You get the full benefits of awakening but with worse symptoms like psychosis, chronic pain and intense karmic problems.

 

[mysadstuff]

I would go back in time and prevent the thing(s) from happening. This is not possible. The damage has already been done.

Complete freedom from continued things might make me consider living. This is partially within my ability to control.

No matter what happens I hope I can be free one day

 

[leavingthesoultrap]

It's basically when you mess up your awakening and once the cool liquid reaches your brain, you get brain damage and psychosis. You get the full benefits of awakening but with worse symptoms like psychosis, chronic pain and intense karmic problems.

Wow thats crazy. I am sorry that this happened to you. :(

 

[deadtrace]

I honestly can't think of anything anymore. My future right now seems like somehow get a job I hate and live and everything I wanted to do has fallen apart beyond repair. I just wish I was able to CTB, feeling that more and more recently. But I know I'm too much of a coward as much as I want to die.

 

[RichardFirst]

Time travel. I'd go back to maybe 2017 or so and undo some of the monumental mistakes that I've made in recent years....along with buying bitcoins.

That said, if we're allowing ourselves to change the past, I'd probably just prevent my being born. IT would be better for me and both of my parents.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Nothing.

Non-existence forever is the only way to guarantee never suffering extreme pain

Also to forget bad memories

Only way To escape this evil imposition and evil world , and 1000 horrible things i hate about life like diseases old age, oppression , injustice , lies , etc

I don't see any objective purpose to life except avoiding extreme pain. I don't see a reason to live . Plus we All die anyway

To me my suicide to my non-existence forever is the ultimate expression of personal autonomy and the ultimate bliss

 

[enough of this]

Grow more confident, which would help with my severe social anxiety. Having a loving relationship again would would be great. The biggest would be to get over my past trauma though. And I don't see a way to do that really.

Ditto.