What would need to be fixed in your life so you’d want to live?

[Hopeindeath!]

I've wanted to die ever since I was a little girl. There is nothing that can change that.

 

[killmejacee]

My own thinking, I guess. I've been suicidal while wealthy and while poor. Single and in relationship. Living with friends or living alone. Etc. Nothing ever changes, I just want to ctb

 

[virginiawoolf86]

My brain. I suffer from Cotard's Delusion. I wake up every day feeling as though I'm physically dead on the inside. It's torture. Before this happened, life was okay. I wish I had enjoyed it more while I had it.

 

[sadgirl2002]

I want the love of my life to come back to me.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I want the love of my life to come back to me.

This.

 

[FatalSystemError591]

A divorce, financial freedom, and a redo of my body and mind. I'm too far gone at this point to legitimately be anything worthwhile.

 

[deleted]

a family that loves me maybe it would be good, mental problems i would try to cure for them

 

[ADruinedmylife]

My sexuality and anhedonia would have to come back

 

[Dizzy_Dreams]

-A cure for my bipolarity
-Money
-Be in shape physically
-Visit many doctors such as the dentist.
-Cure for my mother's mental illness


And with that, I think I could manage to live till I die as an old grey man which of course, won't probably happen so I'll CTB sooner or later.

are you considering suicide soon?

 

[Jellyfish42]

Frankly too much needs to change that it's not worth the effort. I'd rather my death.

 

[WornOutLife]

are you considering suicide soon?

I tried to catch the bus for real last August but failed.
Now, I'm living with my parents again and have no freedom at all so I can't kill myself like this. Maybe in some months when I live alone again (hopefully), I'll do it. In other words, I should be dead by 2021.

 

[BPD Barbie]

Firstly I guess I'd need to want to live. Like actually have a desire to be alive. Then I'd want some sort of cure or at least really good management for my BPD and Bipolar. I would need a well paying job to be able to afford my own place to live, I'd need courage to leave my current situation. In fact I'd need so many things it doesn't seem worth listing them all, it just feels like some far off fantasy.

 

[Rue89]

My anxiety would have to be gone, and I'd have to be able to function like a normal person. I'd need to have the ability to do all the simple things that I should be able to do.

 

[ATownSerenity]

My urges to CTB are coming from a point of hopelessness around the world itself.
The only paths are for the world to magically transition into some utopia, exploitation as a whole to be wiped out, or for me become a god. None of these are possible.

 

[DeathNoot]

Money or a mental health cure. Or both. I would take both

 

[ronigail9]

The fact that I'm a conscious being

 

[TheQ22]

Finances and a job.

 

[SipSop]

Death of my ex. And if I am at the wishing department I would take her whole family with her and the guys who touched her and their families also.
Is doable.
With adequate resources.
Politicians do it all the time, cops do it all the time.
Law is only for poor people without connections. Wich I do not have but I could make if I would be patiente enough, wich I'm not.

Am I cruel? Their death is a act of mercy. I could be more inventive with their deaths, like I coult make her watch while I torture and and maim her loved ones while I ask questions and make her say the things that are not true just to break her spirit first. And each "wrong answer" would punish them, not her and make her see them. Live or on screen? Hmm. Live and 10 meters distance to feel the helplessnes I felt for being unable to change the situation.
And then, I give her hope when the last member of her family(the most loved one), her father is left alive that she could just save him if she agrees to sale her soul to me. After she loses herself I will kill him anyway...
And then she will feel true despair and loneliness. As I felt.

But I do not have the polical connections or money to pull this off. I mean I need some man power and tools, the rest is "hard work".

So this sweet fictive scenario is of the table...

But we are talking about wishful thinking so yeah.

But that would give me some peace of mind and god given fortitude to go on with my life.

 

[AJ95]

My brain.

The world is a shit place anyway but I'd be able to deal with it if my own brain wasn't a dumpster fire of mental illness and trauma.

 

[Infinite Conscious]

My brain.

The world is a shit place anyway but I'd be able to deal with it if my own brain wasn't a dumpster fire of mental illness and trauma.

Whenever I see this gif, I am blown away.
I don't know how you look in person, but this is a great choice for your avatar.
No wonder you have 1,400 likes on less than 200 posts.

Death of my ex. And if I am at the wishing department I would take her whole family with her and the guys who touched her and their families also.
Is doable.
With adequate resources.
Politicians do it all the time, cops do it all the time.
Law is only for poor people without connections. Wich I do not have but I could make if I would be patiente enough, wich I'm not.

Am I cruel? Their death is a act of mercy.

Really?
You know what's that called?
A sociopath on his way to becoming a psychopath.
Now I understand better.

 

[SipSop]

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Whenever I see this gif, I am blown away.
I don't know how you look in person, but this is a great choice for your avatar.
No wonder you have 1,400 likes on less than 200 posts.



Really?
You know what's that called?
A sociopath on his way to becoming a psychopath.
Now I understand better.

Not really.
Psychopaths are born. Sociopaths are made.

I was just flexing my imagination.
I didn't do any of that.

Is JRR Martin a sociopath for writing those gruesome stories?
Of course not!

So you can chill.

 

[UterEntonaur]

The usual cliché.... money

I have health problems too, but nothing as bad as the above (it could be solved given enough time), but with debts and rent-arrears (and no work) time is something that I don't have

 

[illbeinthegarage]

no more bpd, id have to completely change my appearance and personality. be able to get and keep a job. not just be mediocre, i want to be good at something. i want to be loveable and enough. all things that will never happen.