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iloverachel

Enlightened
Mar 7, 2024
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My ideal age to die would have been as soon as I was born which would be 0 years old.

But I am 30 now, so 30 sounds like an ideal age to die
 
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PetrichorBirth

PetrichorBirth

Student
Mar 5, 2024
164
Really depends on quality of life for me. If i start to deteriorate towards complete dependency on others, that's the point at which i'd probably think : "Alright, this is where i should get out of here.", regardless of specific age
 
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deletedaccount30982

Illuminated
Mar 10, 2020
3,430
13 when I attempted and nearly succeeded in partial. In my early 20s now and sometimes I think about all of the suffering I could have avoided if I had just waited a bit longer before calling for help.
 
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Seele

Sayonara
Apr 25, 2024
150
The first time I was close to dying was at 19 years old, then at 22 and 26. I have the paranoia of not wanting to reach 30 years old, because in my mind I think everything will be more difficult for me after that.
 
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PetrichorBirth

PetrichorBirth

Student
Mar 5, 2024
164
13 when I attempted and nearly succeeded in partial. In my early 20s now and sometimes I think about all of the suffering I could have avoided if I had just waited a bit longer before calling for help.
Out of curiosity, what went wrong?
 
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deletedaccount30982

Illuminated
Mar 10, 2020
3,430
Out of curiosity, what went wrong?
Unconcious SI. I would pass out instantly after leaning into the rope and then wake up standing because my body was doing anything the get the pressure off. I tried about 7 times before the pain was too bad and my body wouldn't let me pass out again. I feel confident that if I passed out once more time I would have died.
 
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pilotviolin

pilotviolin

looking to the horizon
Jan 27, 2024
361
i want to stick it out until 30 and try live until then. if i end up going okay, then the next death date is when medical complications from old age become not worth waking up for.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,344
Unconcious SI. I would pass out instantly after leaning into the rope and then wake up standing because my body was doing anything the get the pressure off. I tried about 7 times before the pain was too bad and my body wouldn't let me pass out again. I feel confident that if I passed out once more time I would have died.
unconscious si. i heard it several times here with different methods . i fear it. one reason why i haven 't killed myself yet.

1 person told me here that they turned on a generator in a room but unconscoiusly got up opened the door and got out of the room. also some took off the exit bag unconsciously , hanging like you etc. heard of others calling the hospital after ingesting N and SN but i guess that was semi conscious.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,191
In my case I wouldn't have chosen to die in the first place, I would have chosen to never exist at all, only never existing is perfection to me and I find it the most terrible tragedy how humans so harmfully impose existence even know nobody can suffer from never existing at all. More than anything I wish I stayed permanently unaware of the hellish, meaningless abomination that is existence, human existence to me is the most torturous and futile burden that could never be desirable.
 
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sserafim

sserafim

they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
Sep 13, 2023
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