Discussion what will your regrets be?

[interna]

what regrets will you leave behind once you ctb? my date is due in a month, and ive been thinking about all of the things i regret doing, not doing, etc. heres a short list, not including too much because its too personal for my tastes.

Spoiler: regrets

- i regret never having good sex
- i regret leaving my pets behind
- i regret constantly breaking promises
- i regret being a liar
- i regret never getting better

 

[Macedonian1987]

I regret hurting my parents with my CTB, but they will not mourn for me for very long time as they are both 77 and 75 years old. I also regret never ever having a real relationship with a kind hearted woman. The only relationship I ever had was with a sadistic woman who never truly loved me.

 

[Forever Sleep]

- I regret not being a better grand daughter/ God daughter and friend to three people who did so much for me. Too late now- they're all dead.

- I regret not working harder to overcome my social anxiety and lack of confidence.

- I regret not trying to climb higher in my career- connected to not overcoming my social anxiety and confidence.

- I regret not making more effort to be fit and healthy.

Overall though, I'm not big on regret really. Most of the choices I made in life I think made sense at the time. Or, they had reasons behind them. I feel like I did pursue enough things in life to know it wasn't ultimately worth it! So- I doubt I'll leave feeling like I majorly missed out or failed. More, that I gave it a reasonably good shot but now I'm tired.

 

[FuneralCry]

All I regret is existing at all, to suffer in this existence is the most terrible, dreadful and painful burden and I find it so tragic how this torturous existence was imposed at all when never suffering at all was perfection, all that existence does is cause harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured.

I'd only be so relieved to never be conscious of any of this ever again, in this existence I just always saw as a mistake non-existence is all I see as desirable, it's truly so horrifiying how a human can exist for decades longer in this evil world filled with endless suffering just to be tortured in agony from old age, non-existence is all that's positive for me, non-existence is the only solution for me, I wish to erase this existence.

 

[BlueberryDeer]

- I regret not publishing any of my planned books.
- I regret never get a girlfriend or boyfriend.

 

[kuroshimi]

- I regret not leaving behind any kind of artwork
- I regret not really take care of my physical health
- I regret to leave experiencing things behind

 

[thefarter]

- hurting everyone i hurt
- lying
- sinning so much
- not being strong enough to stay alive
- letting people walk all over me

 

[SeaGlass]

- hurting my brothers, they have experienced suicide before and our sibling being murdered. I promised to always be there for them
- my cat that has bonded strongly with me. I don't want to hurt her
- disrupting my family's lives, I don't want to be a bother,I don't want them to think that there was anything they could've done to stop it
- this is a stupid one, but all the movies,books and fanfics I won't witness. This one is actually why I stayed alive so long. My bandages for my soul. Then real life comes knocking,and yeah. Tick tock

 

[bananaolympus]

Wasting my youth i pushed my friends and opportunities of a fruitful life away, lived a reclusive life of my choice exchanged real life experiences for quick dopamine boosters (games, junk food, xxx, etc) had lot of chances to turn my life for the better, but refused to turn down my hedonistic lifestyle until it was to late, i reap what i sow now and now i see my younger siblings and family members doing the opposite of me a bittersweet feeling, really happy for them but a daily reminder of what a failure i am, nobody to blame i just chose to lose.

 

[zdeweilx]

Meeting my wife

Lol why

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

what regrets will you leave behind once you ctb?

nothing in this evil world. everything i see as part of the same evil

i don't consciously want to do anything in this evil world and evil life.

i can't separate the meaningless time wasting pleasurable addictions from the worst pain the most horrible things . they are all inextricably intertwined and pleasurable addictions lead to the falling in a trap of the worst torture

i only regret not killing these 30 trillion cells they call a human body i;m trapped in sooner.

 

[littlecutecorpse]

the only thing i will regret is letting my boyfriend and my friend down. i really wish i got to see them, and i genuinely hope they'll be okay once i'm gone from this world.

everyone else however, can go fuck themselves. this society is beyond cucked

 

[gunmetalblue]

I'll regret being a waste of talent, and never creating anything that's meant anything or be remembered.

 

[ef99]

- I regret not getting treatment for my schizophrenia sooner, I hurt a lot of people and ruined a lot of friendships
- I regret not sticking up to my abusive ex-girlfriend
- I regret catching feelings when I wasn't fully healed
- I regret wasting the opportunity for life i've been given

 

[Pluto]

 

[clarity]

I regret spending my life miserable and depressed.

I regret not killing myself at the end of high school.

I regret not sticking up for myself, being a people pleaser and letting people walk all over me.

I regret how empty my life has been.

I regret staying alive for this long.

 

[TwistedNightmares]

I regret not being able to get proper treatment for my mental illnesses.

I regret not getting the help I needed to be removed from my abusive family.

I regret being born.

 

[indianachrome]

I regret going to physical therapy.

I regret doing that stretch that ruined my life.

Now I must face the consequences.

 

[anhedonic_moron]

i regret wasting my childhood

i regret not socializing more

i regret seeking out help since now there are more people that would be affected

i regret not killing myself earlier

 

[kouna]

I regret trusting the wrong people both in my personal and professional life

I regret being careless with money and bureaucracy

 

[Reishi]

I regret not successfully killing myself earlier

 

[Unlucky777]

I regret everything I've said and done.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

I regret the choices that ruined my life (of course). I became a vicious, weak, cowardly man. Every time I withdrew into my head instead of acting in the real world, I damaged my soul. I failed to fulfill obligations. I told myself I was somehow a better, higher kind of person who would leave everyone behind as I grew up and up. What childish, narcissistic delusion. I saw my moral failings as my greatest moments because they took "courage," i.e. overriding conscience. What they took was a hard willful push into cowardice that my better nature resisted. I regret my bizarre pseudointellectual utterances, of which there have been many, sometimes veering into psychosis. I regret my vices: weed, coffee and vaping (I'm utterly addicted), porn and masturbation. My choices imprisoned me in my head instead of making me strong for free movement in the world. I once knew a little bit about inner strength as an athlete. Making no excuses, doing what was necessary despite how I felt so I could feel good later. There was good in me and I killed it.

 

[interna]

I'll regret being a waste of talent, and never creating anything that's meant anything or be remembered.

i know i said i wasn't gonna divulge any more of my regrets because of privacy, but yes, this is an important regret i have as well. knowing i have potential and yet not being able to do anything about it

 

[sashashutup]

listening to my favorite music. stuff i've always wanted to do but were always pipe dreams. watching tv shows in place of the lack of a life I have. getting drunk. eating food

 

[WeDontKnowTheFuture]

i regret to not have the opportunity to start a new life because of this unknow illness who tore everything apart.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I regret not dying in the womb. This wasn't my choice.
I regret not ending it as a teen.
I regret not ending it 5 years ago when I had a good shot. Life just spirals down further.

 

[UglyLife82]

That I was born as me, and so never got to experience all the beauty I know life has to offer. Maybe in another life

 

[LonelyPrince]

Not killing myself sooner probably.

 

[Liebestod]

Not going to school dances, not doing much of anything, and not ending myself sooner.