Discussion What will your final thought be as you CTB?

[wait-bus-stop]

"I did it!" with a smile.

 

[LinusWittich]

I'll probably think of my parents as they are the only ones it might affect emotionally

 

[tams]

Tears of joy, because I know I'll be free. Perhaps more metaphorically speaking, but I don't doubt everyone here feels that way too.

 

[TooTiredToSleep]

I'm hoping to just zone out and not really think, although I will probably spend my last moments thinking about my family/friends.

 

[wait-bus-stop]

Tears of joy, because I know I'll be free. Perhaps more metaphorically speaking, but I don't doubt everyone here feels that way too.

When I tried to hang myself as a teenager as I started to lose consciousness, I can remember saying to myself, "Fuck, I just killed myself" I blacked out and work up looking up at the towel/cloth that failed to hold me.

I'm hoping to just zone out and not really think, although I will probably spend my last moments thinking about my family/friends.

Sometimes I wonder if I will just feel regret and not relief.

 

[LongWayAlone]

I think i will be happy for the first time, happy to know that i will leave this horrible world. All my life was pain and finally i will find peace.

 

[Danielwc]

I'd think 'hope I'd made a statement'. How many does it take, really? How many of us have to die? How many tortured souls does it take to change the way we do things? When can life be fun and truly 'a gift'? Fuck the lot of you, you never listened. I hope it fucking hurts.
Not my choice of mindset but what I have.

 

[Gonnerr]

If im in pain , i will curse of course something like fuck the world , fuck this life.

If its peaceful, probably think about the good moment i had in this world , family , friends and maybe try the invent where i will land when im dead if its possible. I would like to land in a peaceful world like in 1 million year, where people wont even consider suicide because there is no crime , no scammers ,no murderer, only kind and honest people , and a wonderful society where you always feels good , no pain , no disease , how about that.

Maybe it will happen if i think hard enough , maybe our mind can go wherever we want to when we die as long as we wish to.

 

[Danielwc]

If im in pain , i will curse of course something like fuck the world , fuck this life.

If its peaceful, probably think about the good moment i had in this world , family , friends and maybe try the invent where i will land when im dead if its possible. I would like to land in a peaceful world like in 1 million year, where people wont even consider suicide because there is no crime , no scammers ,no murderer, only kind and honest people , and a wonderful society where you always feels good , no pain , no disease , how about that.

Maybe it will happen if i think hard enough , maybe our mind can go wherever we want to when we die as long as we wish to.

How about we die and death is not the end. We are up there with the assholes that planned this world and perhaps even think it's going well? Perhaps we are living in one of the better worlds available. We may get reincarnated in a worse position. I don't even trust death at the moment.

 

[TooTiredToSleep]

Sometimes I wonder if I will just feel regret and not relief.

So do I, so I'm planning on getting very high before I CTB to hopefully drown out those feelings if they come up.

 

[FuneralCry]

I would just be hoping that the method succeeds so that I can finally peacefully not exist for all eternity.

 

[wait-bus-stop]

So do I, so I'm planning on getting very high before I CTB to hopefully drown out those feelings if they come up.

Can I ask you your preferred method - mine in hanging.

 

[FacePALM]

My final thoughts will be of my baby sister and how sorry i am to leave her. Sometimes you gotta do something for yourself even if that means dying.

 

[TooTiredToSleep]

Can I ask you your preferred method - mine in hanging.

Right now I'm leaning towards SN, although I haven't found a source yet an my account is too new for pms so it's gonna be a little bit before I actually get the chance to do anything. I would do hanging but I want to be able to move around before I go and it seems too restricting for my liking.

 

[wait-bus-stop]

I would do hanging but I want to be able to move around before I go and it seems too restricting for my liking.

I have chosen to hang because of the speed of unconsciousness and the simplicity of the technology. Good luck

 

[TooTiredToSleep]

I have chosen to hang because of the speed of unconsciousness and the simplicity of the technology. Good luck

That's fair, I can definitely understand the appeal, and good luck to you too.

 

[outrider567]

Patti, I will see you soon

 

[Gonnerr]

How about we die and death is not the end. We are up there with the assholes that planned this world and perhaps even think it's going well? Perhaps we are living in one of the better worlds available. We may get reincarnated in a worse position. I don't even trust death at the moment.

That would be bad , because if they plan this shit show called earth , i dont want to meet them and they wont care about us.

 

[Toy]

Most likely about my significant other and about how I will see them soon enough when it is their time too.
Also about those I've already lost, I'll finally be able to reunite with them like I've been longing to.

 

[Borgrot]

Finally you're all free

 

[TheBroken]

Finally it's over - sorry family but I had to go ......

 

[marudekinoumitai]

Probably something dumb tbh. Like I'll have a song stuck in my head and it'll be like "wait who sang that-" and then I'll die. Knowing my brain I'd like to think it'll be relief, or something profound, but realistically I don't think so lol

 

[sadjenny]

I'm coming, mom

 

[Alfarooq]

Fuck my gay existence. I have finally decided to make the decision to CTB. I would much appreciate if anyone would give me an assisted suicide method in the UK. I have let people down so much, I keep making mistakes, I am too dumb for this world, everyone around me is succeeding in life except for me, I will not make it in this world at all. I will never succeed or be able to do what I always wished to do. So what's the point of living? Life is for those who are able to make use of themselves. Those who have a good future in their life. Those people deserve to live. I don't. I have no motivation and no chance of success. It's not like I deserve to live anyway. This 6 months lasting depression is all my fault.

 

[broken_wings]

i'd think about how all i can do is hurt the people around me who were stupid enough to invest themselves in my life.

have you ever read that john green book, the fault in our stars? the main character talks about being like a hand grenade, in the sense that her death will harm everyone around her with its explosiveness, and the other main character tells her that people choose who they are hurt by, and are almost glad to have been hurt by them.

these people were so stupid to have chosen me. i was so stupid to have goaded them into liking me because it means their pain is heavy and significant and most of all, real when i inflict myself upon them.

but they won't let go even after it's clear i won't be here long. i want them to leave, to hate me, to wish me dead, only because it means that it will hurt them less when i go.

so i will think about them when i go, and wish they never had to suffer my existence in the first place.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

"What a waste. I should/could have done better."

 

[Sparr0w]

probably "fuck, that hurts..." in regards to my burning throat from SN lol.

 

[sorella santini]

Hopefully I wont be thinking of anything and just saying goodbye to this cruel world.

 

[melancholyc418]

Regret

 

[nepeta]

honestly i've been an overthinker my entire life, i'd want my last moments to not be taken over by thoughts if that makes sense i'd just zone out if i could