What will you miss about living? Does it make you question if you should stay?

[anon789]

I am teetering back and forth on what to do about life or death. But I wanted to share my list of things that I'd miss and may be worth sticking around for and I wanted to hear yours too.

• Shopping for snacks at night
• Drinking coffee or tea
• Getting my own dog
• Hugging or holding hands
• Laughing so hard it hurts
• Giving/receiving gifts
• Dressing up for events
• Breathing fresh air
• Feeling the sun on my skin
• Wearing comfy clothes
• Listening to rain on the roof
• Looking at stars and the moon
• Improving other people's lives
• Smelling good smells (candles, soup, fresh laundry)
• Listening or telling a good story
• Discovering new favourite songs

In the end though, are these worth it? :/

 

[bigfishlittlefish]

I don't have any of those things left in my life any more. After four decades of fighting to only end up losing more and more, I can very easily say that I will miss absolutely fucking nothing

 

[SoulofSteel]

Honestly I don't think it will ever matter what we'll miss because we won't have to.

 

[MrShino]

Same here, it's the small things. A good talk with a friend, music, something good to drink. Some nice food, family.

 

[anon789]

Honestly I don't think it will ever matter what we'll miss because we won't have to.

Do you mean like the instant we are gone we won't have the ability to miss anything?

 

[SoulofSteel]

Do you mean like the instant we are gone we won't have the ability to miss anything?

yes

 

[anon789]

yes

I think I have the same belief with you there, so I guess it kinda makes my post invalid. If we do have the ability to experience some sort of existence after death, I think I will miss these sort of things.

Same here, it's the small things. A good talk with a friend, music, something good to drink. Some nice food, family.

Yes! All the things that feel cozy inside when you think of them.

 

[CloudyNightSky]

Ig I'd miss the feeling of being happy. Rn I'm also rarely happy but can still feel it sometimes and that feeling is justgood af. And my sister. That are the main ones ig. also these small things but if it's enough for you to keep going depends on how much you like doing those things. Sorry, but I don't think anyone can really help you with that decision

 

[hi-okbye]

i think there's a lot of things, too many too list. just all the beautiful good small things of life.
i definitely won't miss the pain though.

 

[BlazingBob]

Not a damn thing. No.

 

[dreamingofrest]

I am teetering back and forth on what to do about life or death. But I wanted to share my list of things that I'd miss and may be worth sticking around for and I wanted to hear yours too.

• Shopping for snacks at night
• Drinking coffee or tea
• Getting my own dog
• Hugging or holding hands
• Laughing so hard it hurts
• Giving/receiving gifts
• Dressing up for events
• Breathing fresh air
• Feeling the sun on my skin
• Wearing comfy clothes
• Listening to rain on the roof
• Looking at stars and the moon
• Improving other people's lives
• Smelling good smells (candles, soup, fresh laundry)
• Listening or telling a good story
• Discovering new favourite songs

In the end though, are these worth it? :/

Hi! I just wanted to drop by here and say that you seem like such a wonderful, kind, empathetic person and this is such a beautiful list. I think that if you're having doubts like this then maybe these things are worth it for you to keep living, or they can be, at least. The world needs more people like you. Is there anyone that you can reach out to?

 

[asian.neet]

Electronics, and going back to my old university.

Both logically tho have no substantial meaning to my life though even though I am passionate about technology and have hope by going to my old uni.

I need a new beginning at a different uni to move on from my childhood.

Both don't contribute to that

i think there's a lot of things, too many too list. just all the beautiful good small things of life.
i definitely won't miss the pain though.

Basically tldr this

 

[hermestrimegistus]

In the end, these are what make it worth it. New sense, touching/feeling. New music. Etc. Sensing. Feeling. Its only when these things stop meaning anything to you, that existence stops mattering. I understand. Its like you stop being human

 

[Deleted member 65988]

Honestly I don't think it will ever matter what we'll miss because we won't have to.

Precisely, we won't have any need of these things at all.

Do you mean like the instant we are gone we won't have the ability to miss anything?

I mean, at that point, what will be left of us to actually miss any of these we don't need anymore. Those small things just serve as distractions.

 

[anon789]

Hi! I just wanted to drop by here and say that you seem like such a wonderful, kind, empathetic person and this is such a beautiful list. I think that if you're having doubts like this then maybe these things are worth it for you to keep living, or they can be, at least. The world needs more people like you. Is there anyone that you can reach out to?

You're really sweet... thank you. I have people I talk to and a really kind psychiatrist and psychologist. I'm trying to get help first before I resort to ctb. The suffering is just very intense and seemingly endless but I do recognize this is depression brain.

 

[hi-okbye]

Hi! I just wanted to drop by here and say that you seem like such a wonderful, kind, empathetic person and this is such a beautiful list. I think that if you're having doubts like this then maybe these things are worth it for you to keep living, or they can be, at least. The world needs more people like you. Is there anyone that you can reach out to?

they didn't come here just to be lectured into living. they just want to share some stuff since they might ctb soon. they have everything so they probably made up their mind.

 

[anon789]

In the end, these are what make it worth it. New sense, touching/feeling. New music. Etc. Sensing. Feeling. Its only when these things stop meaning anything to you, that existence stops mattering. I understand. Its like you stop being human

That's actually a really good way to measure it. Once I stop finding meaning in any of these things I will probably know in my heart it's time.

they didn't come here just to be lectured into living. they just want to share some stuff since they might ctb soon. they have everything so they probably made up their mind.

I truly appreciate you trying to defend me here, but I really do value their input too. Like I said in my post I am teetering but of course, it comes off as confusing because I do have everything ready.

 

[hi-okbye]

Basically tldr this

i read the whole list. i've made my own before, i have it in an old post. i could probably list 100 things but no body's going to read that.

 

[anon789]

i think there's a lot of things, too many too list. just all the beautiful good small things of life.
i definitely won't miss the pain though.

Leaving the pain behind yea, that about sums it all up :(

Ig I'd miss the feeling of being happy. Rn I'm also rarely happy but can still feel it sometimes and that feeling is justgood af. And my sister. That are the main ones ig. also these small things but if it's enough for you to keep going depends on how much you like doing those things. Sorry, but I don't think anyone can really help you with that decision

Happiness is such a beautiful feeling, even though it is fleeting. I always wished I had a sister. Those seem like things worth missing. And yeah good point about how much I like doing those small things and also how often they are available to me. I try measuring them against each other and that's why I go back and forth like a teeter-totter, so unstable lol.

 

[dreamingofrest]

You're really sweet... thank you. I have people I talk to and a really kind psychiatrist and psychologist. I'm trying to get help first before I resort to ctb. The suffering is just very intense and seemingly endless but I do recognize this is depression brain.

I'm really glad you have people you can talk to. I know it's really difficult to do, but I'm so glad you're comfortable telling either your doctors or your loved ones.

 

[anon789]

Electronics, and going back to my old university.

Both logically tho have no substantial meaning to my life though even though I am passionate about technology and have hope by going to my old uni.

I need a new beginning at a different uni to move on from my childhood.

Both don't contribute to that



Basically tldr this

How does it have no substantial meaning if it involves passion and hope?

 

[FuneralCry]

I won't, I'd be glad to permanently cease existing, it comforts me the thought of no longer being able to suffer in this cruel and futile existence. I only wish for nothingness, no matter what I will always see it as preferable to not exist where all is forgotten about. I hate how I was so harmfully burdened with the ability to exist in the first place, to me existence is a curse and death means peace.

 

[anon789]

i read the whole list. i've made my own before, i have it in an old post. i could probably list 100 things but no body's going to read that.

I'd like to read it

I won't, I'd be glad to permanently cease existing, it comforts me the thought of no longer being able to suffer in this cruel and futile existence. I only wish for nothingness, no matter what I will always see it as preferable to not exist where all is forgotten about. I hate how I was so harmfully burdened with the ability to exist in the first place, to me existence is a curse and death means peace.

I often find myself screaming this to the empty sky, but at times the rage quiets and I can see small things that I appreciate. But I always end up back at rage, so I really understand where you're coming from here.

 

[hi-okbye]

I'd like to read it

(things i'm grateful for from my post "love for life")
- waking up knowing you have more time to sleep/get to sleep in
- watermelon
- raspberries
- morning grass + dew
- baby animals
- opening new mascara
- elementary lunches (talking with friends)
- those tiny fake cars that could be peddled around that you rode in as kids

- my pets
- doll houses/toys
- making good new friends
- biking
- hugs
- sweets
- favirote meals
- good books
- swimming
- getting high..
- naps
- music
- sleeping in your bed for the first time after going somewhere
- plants
- doing different sports (surfing, skiing, rollerblading, skateboarding, etc.)
- drawing
- playing with animals
- dumb crushes
- falling in love
- sunsets

 

[kilowatt]

I'm gonna miss my cat. I'm gonna miss my girlfriend. I'm gonna miss travelling and seeing nice views. I'm gonna miss SH. I'm gonna miss my favourite drinks.
One of the most important ones, I'm gonna miss money. Spending them, making them, receiving them, it's all a guilty pleasure.

 

[wanttodie]

I wont miss any thing

 

[ropearoundatree]

My guitar, my cat... (obv. not in that-order!)

 

[NeedAnEscape]

I would miss the love and warmth of my family members' hugs, my friend's smile, and my boyfriend's kiss. I would miss the thrill of writing -- the art of sharing ideas with the world. Yet, as soon as I am absent from my loved ones and hobbies, all I am left with is an empty feeling inside me. Death will be a relief, and I hope that my loved ones will be able to move on from my death and resume with their lives.

 

[BlockHammer]

I think im going to miss playing games and going to anime convention with my friend, although i doubt that i had the ability to miss those thing cause a lot of people believe that you didn't feel anything after you die

 

[Forever Sleep]

There are definitely things I still enjoy in life. I love nature. Anything to do with water- the sea, waterfalls, lakes, rivers. I'd like to go and visit some before I go. I love food. I love a good movie or music. I get fulfillment out of my creative job most of the time.

Overall though- life just seems too difficult. The bad outweighs the good. Plus, I don't think personally I can shape it into something that would seem worthwhile. I have tried. Personally, I'm more comforted now at the thought of it being over. To not have to try anymore. Even doing the nicer things takes effort! Unless you're rich, you have to earn the money to afford all that.

Sometimes I get really excited about ending it. Even though the process frightens me. I also believe that- when we're gone- that's likely it for us. No conscious thought to be able to regret. If that's wrong- if there is an afterlife- then- we'll likely be concentrating on and be distracted by that. Really- I'm not a big one for regret anyway. I probably haven't always made the best decisions in life but I think I made the best decision I could at the time. I rarely do things flippantly. I've been thinking about suicide for 33 years! If I ever do it- it won't be an impulsive decision. For me, it feels like it's been a long time coming.