I'd explain that in this existence so dreadful and torturous the peace of non-existence is all I wish for and is all I see as desirable, all I want is to never suffer in this evil existence ever again that has only ever tortured existing beings, for me the peace of non-existence is all that's positive, existence is a mistake to me and I find it torture every second to be conscious, no matter what I'll always prefer to not exist than suffer in this dreadful, deeply undesirable existence, only in non-existence will I be free from all suffering and there is no limit as to how much a human can suffer in this existence that just leads to decay and death anyway, I find it so terrifying and horrific how a human can suffer for so long.