What will they say about you?

[GeorgeJL]

They will say "well we knew for years he was going to end life on his own terms in a dignified manner. But we had no idea that he had a euthanasia drug this whole time. Apparent on the suicide forums they call it N." LOL

 

[Mbound]

Probably that I was funny and kind. At least my family and the few friends I have. I think I am funny and kind honestly, just also worthless and a massive failure and a ticking time bomb.

The group of people I spend the most time with are my coworkers really. Most of them will be blindsided but a few will probably say there were definite warning signs. I hope I can make it clear in my final note, video, or whatever I do that this wasn't preventable, at least not on anyone else's part.

I can't think too much about what my parents will say...it makes me too sad.

 

[Chalken]

They will probably say that I was very quiet and reserved. Also, people that I'm no longer friends with (I have no friends anymore) would probably use my death as a way to get attention for themselves. Either that, or I will be mourned for a few days then be forgotten. I wish I could just be erased from existence.

 

[Dun Emeritus]

My passive enabling mother would still be the way she is.

My emotionally abusive stepfather would have the best day of his life.

My girlfriend would plunge further down depression and feel angry over everyone who caused me pain (maybe including herself because insecurities).

 

[LastFlowers]

Hopefully nothing because my family and relatives don't even really know me. Their view of me actually makes me feel even worse about myself. And even more pathetic.
Only my mom knows some of who I really am but maybe not because she chooses not to listen when I talk to her.
I just hope there's not a god damn open casket. I've said a million times I don't want that and how it would be worse than spitting in my ashes.

 

[Dun Emeritus]

Hopefully nothing because my family and relatives don't even really know me. Their view of me actually makes me feel even worse about myself. And even more pathetic.
Only my mom knows some of who I really am but maybe not because she chooses not to listen when I talk to her.
I just hope there's not a god damn open casket. I've said a million times I don't want that and how it would be worse than spitting in my ashes.

I never understood open caskets. Even if it was someone I love, I still wouldn't want an open casket because I personally think that's just... sick. Why would someone in emotional agony over the loss of a loved one want to see their loved one looking lifeless? It makes zero sense.

 

[Roger]

At first people will say, sympathetically, that they sort of understand why I did it, given what happened to me, in the last year of my life, but that will change when they come to realize that I was fleeing a chaotic financial and administrative mess behind me. Then I will be despised.

 

[throwaway123]

I do not care.

 

[Sailfisher]

He had it all and let it slip away.

 

[maka]

I had two sisters who passed, one from suicide and another in the military. My parents talk endless shit about them to this day and there's no doubt they'll do the same to me when I die.

 

[RedSalvation15]

"What an egoistic asshole."

 

[NOT]

Son of a bitch!
He made it out!
You got off easy, you prick.

 

[Halo13]

I had two sisters who passed, one from suicide and another in the military. My parents talk endless shit about them to this day and there's no doubt they'll do the same to me when I die.

Exactly. I would bet my last dollar this will happen to me:

"Such a kind, caring soul! What a tragedy people were so cruel!" said by the very people who have been cruel and horrible. My death will be gossip fuel for the smack talking while those morons that tormented me act like they care.

The EXACT same thing happened when my best friend blew her brains out. It's disgusting behavior.

 

[lostangel]

Just been thinking about when I die and what people will say about me.

I am a good person, i dont cause trouble, but my family members know what ive been through yet choose to ignore it and wont talk about it.

Lets all be honest about this as you will see from my example.

When im gone through unnatural causes the majority will say, what a shame, he had a horrible life, i hope hes at peace now, none of them can say I had something to live for or something to look forward too. I am not a happy go lucky person and I push everyone away so my social life has done a 180 compared to what it used to be. So, they wont even be able to say I put a smile on peoples faces, because i dont, my presence might make people happy, but my humour does not if that makes sense.

Would i like them to say i had it all, that my life was worth living, well they could say that but they would be lying.

So in conclusion, they would say, i dont blame him for commiting suicide. Wow, some legacy that i must say.

So what would people say about you when you end your life?

''He had his whole life ahead of him
he was such a good kid
nobody saw this coming
why would he end his life''

 

[RodgerThat]

People like winners.
So even if you CBT sucessfully you will be respected.

But aren't we losing our lives >_>

 

[NOT]

Only if you think you gained something when you were born.

 

[bluesky1972-2019]

I guess it doesn't really matter what people think. Yes they'd probably say why didn't he speak to us. We would of helped etc.. Some call it the cowards way out...but I actually believe you need to be extremely brave to ctb and I have such respect for anyone who does. I hope I have the guts to go through with it. It's always been in my mind for years now. Like it's calling me. I don't know if anyone else relates to this?

 

[Deleted member 1768]

Just been thinking about when I die and what people will say about me.

I am a good person, i dont cause trouble, but my family members know what ive been through yet choose to ignore it and wont talk about it.

Lets all be honest about this as you will see from my example.

When im gone through unnatural causes the majority will say, what a shame, he had a horrible life, i hope hes at peace now, none of them can say I had something to live for or something to look forward too. I am not a happy go lucky person and I push everyone away so my social life has done a 180 compared to what it used to be. So, they wont even be able to say I put a smile on peoples faces, because i dont, my presence might make people happy, but my humour does not if that makes sense.

Would i like them to say i had it all, that my life was worth living, well they could say that but they would be lying.

So in conclusion, they would say, i dont blame him for commiting suicide. Wow, some legacy that i must say.

So what would people say about you when you end your life?

I honestly do not care what anyone says about me. People believe whatever they want. Why should I care?

 

[CursedForDisaster]

Nothing. At least nothing that I currently identify with.. it'll be a story around the mystery of who I am

 

[Deleted member 1768]

Well put...

 

[ExitTheDay]

I don't really care what my family would say since they really have nothing good to say about me in the moment, and only focus on the bad shit in my life and only get mad at me when I'm in the wrong, but if I'm ever achieving something they just brush it off their shoulders and never congratulate me about it so you know what, fuck what they say

 

[Fadinglife]

Not concerned about what will others say anymore. I don't care, i'd be free. That is what matters. Even the thought of it so calming and peaceful. Yet, i may have a long wait. Atleast i can fantasize and find peace in the thought that someday i'd be free of all the suffering and pain and it is worth it.

 

[Quinlor]

I told a friend that intend to ctb and he only said: well I don't want to you do this but I probably will understand. He knows me for years and knows that I have depression. So, not bad at all.

 

[dreamsofdestruction]

There's hardly anyone left to say something, really. The few people in my family that can will probably comment on my isolated, lonely existence and say it's a pity he never got professional help.

 

[ScorpiusDragon]

My mother would probably say, "If she listened to me and went to medical school and became a doctor, she wouldn't have been depressed."

 

[Empty Smile]

 

[ZixivaldYrxes]

It was because of XYZ factors that actually had little to nothing to do with it.
Everything is a lie, especially posthumously.

 

[beatenghost]

Depends on who you ask. Some will say "this was bound to happen", so will say "I had no idea!" and some will say "what a drama queen"

 

[reapandsow918]

Like most, "he had a bright future ahead of him". I love the fact that people ignore the reason WHY you decide to CTB. Like oh let's not talk about the reasons WHY he/she did it but instead let's talk about how we feel emotionally about his death. "How are you holding up hun? Are you doing ok?" Fucking joke