what will make you ctb instantly?

[Bobert_Beniro]

Maybe it will be cancer, disability or the loss of a loved one? For me, this is probably the loss of the house, I am financially dependent on my parents and if they kick me out, it will be 100% ctb, it's good that I already bought sn

 

[sick.faery]

becoming homeless, being disfigured, having something amputated

 

[NoLoveNoHope]

My friends CTBing, any terminal illness, permanent damage, discriminatory laws against me, tighter restrictions on CTB methods and loss of financial stability.

 

[Unknown21]

Having any type of chronic pain.

 

[I wish I were a cat]

Financial issues and you know those people who have babies but didn't even know they were even pregnant to begin with??! Yeah that's a fucking nightmare for me..I'd ctb asap.

 

[Forever Sleep]

There's one person from my childhood that- if I have to see them again- I'll be VERY tempted to CTB to avoid it. There's a big part of me that would rather chance punishment in hell rather than see them again. (If there is a place.) Of course- if there is a hell- I fully expect a version of them to be there to greet me...

Other than that- any sort of debhilitating pain, homelessness, nuclear war- if we get any warning.

 

[FuneralCry]

Having a method as peaceful as Nembutal, I think that if I had that method I would have no problem finally leaving this world. Having the option of Nembutal would be the most ideal thing for me, I see so much beauty in the thought of permanently falling asleep and being completely unaware of the hell that is existing. There is too much suffering in being trapped here, I think that those who have the resources to just ctb instantly and reliably right now truly are fortunate. To me the worst thing is feeling trapped here with no way out, a prisoner to the burden that is existing.

 

[SilentSadness]

I would ctb if I had a method. I do not need any special motivation to do so. Life itself, and all of the suffering, are easily enough to want to die. Sadly, not having a method means I'm trapped here indefinitely.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Any terminal illness or serious health condition that arises will entirely change my calculus as to the when of CTB for me.

 

[Pollenallergy]

Maybe it will be cancer, disability or the loss of a loved one? For me, this is probably the loss of the house, I am financially dependent on my parents and if they kick me out, it will be 100% ctb, it's good that I already bought sn

Loss of my friend, be it death or an end to our relationship, or having to resort to a career I just don't wish to be in

 

[StolenLife]

If I fail my exams, then it's time.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Seeing my triggers always makes me want to.

 

[Little_Suzy]

POW or trapped in a burning building with no way out safely.

 

[Hollowman]

When the last person that loves me dies.

 

[SoftWorries]

Being held captive

 

[LigottiSchopenhauer]

If the physical health problems from my alcoholism become too severe for me to hold down a job.

 

[Unwr!tten]

Homelessness
I already have SN and Zofran so if I ever end up homeless, I'm going straight to the bus stop.
Mainly it's because I'm disabled and I would not survive homelessness.

 

[chococat]

Being homeless again, being sexually assaulted again, losing my job.

Even another ticket for not having a WOF for my car. I have $415 to pay off when I only make $130 p/week, pay $80 p/week for board. Lol.

 

[ringo99]

Losing my job, being permanently disabled, going broke

 

[unnormal9]

I'm already there.

 

[tiny_dancer]

I'm already there.

Same. I have already passed the threshold for everything that would make me do it now. Just SI…

 

[The_End_Is_Comfort]

If any of my loved ones suddenly hated my guts. Or if I i have cancer or a terminal illness. Or maybe if my past mistakes gets me basically shunned from society if it ever comes to light.

 

[gizzreid]

my partner dying, losing my job… as soon as my concert in june is over honestly anything could make me snap. just wanna make it to the concert and then it's free reign

 

[loopdaloop]

homelessness, prison sentence (or any other captivity), disabilities, or gaining access to a painless way to ctb that doesn't require any determination or courage to pursuit

 

[loyalskateboard]

1. Homelessness
2. Mother dying
3. Losing welfare payment

If any of those happen I could push through and ctb within 24 hours despite concerns about pain

 

[mitsuko.055]

Becoming homeless or making any really bad mistake

 

[Marcus Wright]

Pet's death. Once they are gone, so am I

 

[sheleftme1]

A method that i can complete without fear

 

[affinity]

I'm here right now

Veterans Affairs has told me that they cannot help me and I need to give up my cats and stay in a shelter. I told them I would rather be dead. Didn't phase them.

The feeling I'm having right now…I haven't had it before. I'm just so numb, I'm not even feeling any anxiety anymore. I've been having awful panic attacks (to the point I thought it was something truly health related) and in a way, it's a relief. The scary thing is that I just don't care anymore and I'm perfectly fine to leave this mess for everyone else to clean up. I don't feel any guilt anymore. I just want peace. I think I'm finally ready.

 

[Unending]

Apparently not the things that I would of once thought. No matter how disgusting and horrific it becomes, I'm trapped here as if I liked the suffering. I am so absolutely disgusted with life, its beyond all words and comprehension. Good god, I hate life so fucking much and resent it as a whole. I really just wish this would end but as my post points out, all the things I would have once thought may lead me to do it have not actually ended up with that outcome. Can't eat, can't sleep, no joy, just abject misery. Oh, wait it is not actually abject, I only think it is, just like i thought before.