Discussion What will it take for you to not be suicidal anymore?

[reticulator]

If my bipolar disorder and major depression were miraculously cured it would probably help a bit. But I'd still be stuck with the choices I made while I had these mental diseases so maybe not

 

[ReadyToLeave]

Winning the lottery. I know it brings a ton of headaches with it also, but l rather be miserable and rich then miserable and poor. I would finally be able to escape manufacturing machine and have an actual life again.

 

[unloveable27]

A girlfriend

 

[xBrialesana]

Lobotomy maybe if it didn't go wrong lol

 

[YourLocalEdgelord]

Humanity version 2

 

[Cyc]

No sexual trauma and parents who actually know how to raise their child

I genuinely don't think anything else could make me want to live. It's unlikely I'll get any help anytime soon (thank you NHS for taking me off the CBT waiting list for no reason after 6 months), and most people are unable to empathise with what I've been through. No matter how good my life gets I always either feel this sense of emptiness or I get flashbacks/nightmares to my trauma

 

[yotaka]

Humanity version 2

Hear me out: What if we just get rid of humanity altogether and let dogs have the planet?

 

[YourLocalEdgelord]

Hear me out: What if we just get rid of humanity altogether and let dogs have the planet?

Deal.

 

[Terrible_Life]

Another chance. I want a reset completely from the beginning but this time I want a functioning peaceful family, parents who are worth it to have a child who do things to help his child to make him able to have a life one day not bastards who destroy him and then wonder why he suffers so much and act like idiots who can't accept the obvious thing: their failure .

 

[flowerbomb]

completely erase my past and an new situation for my present ---- not possible.

 

[reticulator]

completely erase my past and an new situation for my present ---- not possible.

Agree, we can't escape the choices we make even if we have excuses for them.

 

[camusfan_ig]

Finding inner peace I suppose. I know that's a very vague term lol, but I truly mean it. One of the main reasons I'm still holding on is the chance to achieve this some day

 

[anonymousperson]

100 million would do it.

 

[awfullymorbid]

I honestly don't want anything other than death, which is why its so difficult to help myself.

 

[bwerner]

$$$$$$

 

[Tired_birth_1967]

I think I've already gone through all the phases. I don't want to be alive because I simply don't see any meaning in life. I've experienced a little bit of everything life has to offer, from pain to pleasure, and I think we romanticize being alive too much. Nothing convinces me that I'm different from other species. There's no meaning, no purpose, nothing. It's just something mechanical that I've been doing for years for no reason at all. It's too exhausting. My mind can't find anything to alleviate this tiredness. And now, in old age, physical exhaustion only worsens my mental state. Expecting life to annihilate me is terrible. I get irritated mainly because I'm sure life came about by chance and that I can stop it, but, as I usually say, I'm just an insect dragged by the water that doesn't give up. The insect just follows the programming, it has no consciousness, but I do, and I know I should interrupt this useless process. However, I remain just a damned insect. There's nothing in life, just repeating, repeating, and dying. Maybe I'll calm down a bit when I can retire. That would make the wait easier for me. I can't stand doing the same things everyone else does, the things I've been doing all these years, simply because it's pointless. Living is foolish. Meaningless. It's just waiting for life to annihilate us anyway. That's pathetic.

 

[witchcraft]

I'm wondering, what will take for you guys to not be suicidal, to not be depressed or perhaps anxious, what will it take for you to say goodbye to SaSu not cus you are ending things, but rather cus you're starting them.

Feel free to share your thoughts. Also share whether you're doing anything in regards to fixing things, like literally anything, doesn't have to be major stuff, could be eating healthy, or 30 minutes of exercising...etc.

I personally don't know for sure, I keep going back and forth on what that looks like, but I would say my mental health becoming stable and as normal as possible is at the top of the list, cus without that I won't be able to stop being suicidal ig.

I'm currently in therapy and on meds, stimulants to be specific since I have ADHD, taking Vyvanse for those wondering, did try concerta before, but the crash it gave me was absolutely horrible. That's what I'm focusing on right now.

Diet wise, I eat one meal a day, it's a very healthy one, mostly chicken breast with a bit of rice, and a bit of veggies. Need to change that but I recently stopped an extreme diet and also started on stimulants shortly after, so I can't push myself to increase my calories intake, since my stomach can't handle it.

A small loan of a million dollars.

Seriously, if I have to work a 9-5 for the rest of my life and deal with other people, I'd much rather CTB.

The likelihood of receiving such a large sum of cash, even from a person worth tens of billions of dollars (it'd be like me giving somebody $20...), is basically zero.

So, I'll be CTBing.

 

[Drogon]

A hot tub time machine to fix my screw ups

 

[shadyjdz]

1. No more Mast Cell Activation Syndrome (MCAS) flares
2. No more excessive surgeries
3. No more chronic hypothyroidism
4. No more chronic fatigue
5. No more stabbing stomach pain
6. One person who both knows that I'm suicidal and also still loves me (other than God because He doesn't count)

 

[yotaka]

A small loan of a million dollars.

Seriously, if I have to work a 9-5 for the rest of my life and deal with other people, I'd much rather CTB.

The likelihood of receiving such a large sum of cash, even from a person worth tens of billions of dollars (it'd be like me giving somebody $20...), is basically zero.

So, I'll be CTBing.

Isn't it absurd? We live in the most materially prosperous era the world has ever seen—wealth that would be unimaginable to our ancestors even 200 years ago—yet everyone is still expected to spend at least 40 hours every week doing the most inane, soul-crushing bullshit just to have access to the basics: food, healthcare, a place to sleep...

 

[ireallywasnttogopls]

not a damn thimg

I've thought about it for a long time,

we were born to die, a control suicide seems better than the other infinite ways u could die

 

[glitterpvppy]

My boyfriend loving me

 

[MicahBell]

Capitalism would have to be destroyed lol. Theres no way I could work for like, 4 more decades, i'm only 19 and already completely burnt out from capitalism. To live in a community where people take care of each other with no profit incentive, and to feel love. Those things just aren't gonna happen in my lifetime sadly

 

[FadingSnowFake]

There is only one person who could fill the emptiness inside. And he is on the other side of the planet. But still a reason to hope.

 

[GirlOfThought06]

I'm wondering, what will take for you guys to not be suicidal, to not be depressed or perhaps anxious, what will it take for you to say goodbye to SaSu not cus you are ending things, but rather cus you're starting them.

Feel free to share your thoughts. Also share whether you're doing anything in regards to fixing things, like literally anything, doesn't have to be major stuff, could be eating healthy, or 30 minutes of exercising...etc.

I personally don't know for sure, I keep going back and forth on what that looks like, but I would say my mental health becoming stable and as normal as possible is at the top of the list, cus without that I won't be able to stop being suicidal ig.

I'm currently in therapy and on meds, stimulants to be specific since I have ADHD, taking Vyvanse for those wondering, did try concerta before, but the crash it gave me was absolutely horrible. That's what I'm focusing on right now.

Diet wise, I eat one meal a day, it's a very healthy one, mostly chicken breast with a bit of rice, and a bit of veggies. Need to change that but I recently stopped an extreme diet and also started on stimulants shortly after, so I can't push myself to increase my calories intake, since my stomach can't handle it.

It's nice to hear you're doing well, it's all you can wish for, yknow

At least in my experience, nothing will ever make me not suicidal. I don't remember moments where I wasn't. It's always there, it doesn't matter if my life is amazing or absolutely horrific— the voice remains. It makes me wonder what the point is.
I know it's not uncommon for suicidality to be chronic, but it's an unfortunate reality for some of us

 

[DeadManLiving]

Resources ("Means and Ways" / money).

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

DEATH ...

 

[liza]

For my online harasser abuser
and doxxer to die.
His name is Sean.

 

[blvck]

need my problems to disappear
regain my happiness
move away
have hope