Hey. I know everyone recommends protocol and I will be discouraged. However, I simply don't have the ability nor means to get anything but the SN, and certainly not antiemetics (unless OTC).
I will likely end my life via this method, however, I am still not completely sure if I will go through on this. I'd like not to get into detail because this is a site full of strangers that I am skeptical of, but I have been suicidal for years and years and have both reasons to live (generally more philosophical) and to die (generally more material). I don't want to spend any more then I have to, but I want to have SN on me. Mainly even as a means to harm reduction. I have attempted suicide by hanging before which caused very severe and likely lifelong health affects (which, ironically, is one of my reasons to CTB). So I'd rather that if I do end up attempting again I do so in a way that will not lead to more incapacitation if I survive. I know that I would likely not survive as well as the fact that every lethal suicide attempt will most likely have destructive affects if survived, but my understanding of SN is that said effects are likely less bad then for hanging.
I know I will likely suffer a more painful death (especially if I'm not say extremely high or unconscious on benzos at the time) if I do not do the protocol. Will I still die? I'm assuming the puking wouldn't be enough to stop the poisoning that would happen.
And would doing something like getting high on weed help at all with comfort or as a mild antiemetic? Its really the only drug I can access. I've never done it before though so there's of course a bit of risk there but I'm assuming it would be fine on that front.
I will likely end my life via this method, however, I am still not completely sure if I will go through on this. I'd like not to get into detail because this is a site full of strangers that I am skeptical of, but I have been suicidal for years and years and have both reasons to live (generally more philosophical) and to die (generally more material). I don't want to spend any more then I have to, but I want to have SN on me. Mainly even as a means to harm reduction. I have attempted suicide by hanging before which caused very severe and likely lifelong health affects (which, ironically, is one of my reasons to CTB). So I'd rather that if I do end up attempting again I do so in a way that will not lead to more incapacitation if I survive. I know that I would likely not survive as well as the fact that every lethal suicide attempt will most likely have destructive affects if survived, but my understanding of SN is that said effects are likely less bad then for hanging.
I know I will likely suffer a more painful death (especially if I'm not say extremely high or unconscious on benzos at the time) if I do not do the protocol. Will I still die? I'm assuming the puking wouldn't be enough to stop the poisoning that would happen.
And would doing something like getting high on weed help at all with comfort or as a mild antiemetic? Its really the only drug I can access. I've never done it before though so there's of course a bit of risk there but I'm assuming it would be fine on that front.
