What will do you do this Christmas?

[アホペンギン]

Nothing

 

[MyChoiceAlone]

i don't understand why some people set a a date. x-mas? b-day. so if you fail, you won't try again for a year?

 

[jackrussell023]

Well last year I didn't think I would live to Xmas, but managed to. Did self admit to hospital a couple of times l, but they were more interested in getting me out after a couple of days. Ended up spending Xmas day by myself.

This year hasn't been as bad but my kids have decided to spend Xmas with my ex's family for the 2nd year in a row which really sucks big time - she's a master manipulator and I have 20yrs of her controlling and abusive actions to me that are still controlling me.

Not sure what I will do this Xmas, but I do have a feeling of cbt time in some way. Perhaps going out bush camping and bring some cbt tools. What do you think would be a good way to cbt out bush?

 

[Raindancer]

This used to be one of my favorite times. The whole month was filled with holiday festivities. This year it's just my father and myself. He will drive to his sisters, my aunts where our family now gathers. I will cook a nice dinner before he goes, then it's just me and my dog watching old Christmas movies.

 

[deadtrace]

I don't want to get there. Honestly want to be gone by the end of the year. But I don't think I will be because of timing. Don't want to destroy christmas for family and the one friend I have, so probably just stall through it and feel terrible like always.

 

[Orbitc]

Be lonely and sad.

Sorry for promising to wish you a Merry Christmas, but most likely I will leave earlier, although I haven't decided for sure yet, but I really don't want to become a liar. I wish you a good Christmas right now. I wish you that all your dreams come true! Merry Christmas all

 

[DeadHead]

Wishing my parents were still alive as I spend another (roughly the 28th) Christmas alone wishing I was dead, dealing with worsening brain tumour symptoms. Not having the courage to end it yet.

 

[baabbaabbaab]

Wishing my parents were still alive as I spend another (roughly the 28th) Christmas alone wishing I was dead, dealing with worsening brain tumour symptoms. Not having the courage to end it yet.

Sorry to hear that...

I'll be alone and sad.

 

[until death]

I'll be playing Minecraft all day

 

[Ash’Girl]

I was convinced I wouldn't see last Christmas and I'm still here

I had some plans to CTB over the "festive" period this year as I am off work and have proper time to enact, but then I got super worried about my pets. If I CTB and don't show up for work then they would raise the flag to my next of kin that I'm AWOL, so therefore my furry babies wouldn't potentially end up without food for days and they're about the only creatures who's well-being I give a shit about anymore bar my mother. I don't want to schedule an email that I can't then cancel if I fail as if I fail I don't want anyone to know.

I think if I actually died at home nobody would notice for ages unless work raised the flag because I live alone. Which has its pros and cons I suppose.

Anyway, likely I will just take enough sleeping tablets to make me unconscious for 24 hours (not as a ctb method, I have nowhere near enough for that, more as a "switch off from the world and ignore the day" method). Alternatively mindlessly immerse myself in binge watching something or playing a video game. Any way to escape reality really whilst many are enjoying "the most wonderful time of the year"

 

[BlackMoon]

I'll just watch stupid Xmas TV specials and eat shitty food.

 

[CTB Fella]

I just might kill myself.

 

[outrider567]

Nothing, holidays are days of dreadful sadness now

 

[ouf]

i'll spend it with my family and do my best to pretend i'm ok enough that i don't ruin their holiday

 

[MelancholyDolly]

I was looking forward to the holidays but thanks to medical shit I've been feeling pretty depressed recently.

Still I'm hoping to spend a nice time with the very small and close family that I have and try to indulge myself in my hobbies like baking, looking forward to making christmas cookies.

 

[Unattainable666]

What will you do this Christmas? I decided that I would try to make my last month as good as possible and pamper myself. Usually I watch my figure quite strictly so that my 90/60/90 is so sometimes this month I will buy myself something tasty. Do you have any ideas about how you want to have fun at the end?

I will be busy packing to move from the god forsaken state I live in to move to the south where there are normal people

 

[dinosavr]

What will you do this Christmas? I decided that I would try to make my last month as good as possible and pamper myself. Usually I watch my figure quite strictly so that my 90/60/90 is so sometimes this month I will buy myself something tasty. Do you have any ideas about how you want to have fun at the end?

Christmas is quite a big deal in my culture, so I'm definitely spending it at home with my family. And since there's basically no way out of it, I hope I will be able to enjoy it as much as possible. The more that I believe it's going to be my last christmas so what the hell

 

[hungariancorpse]

psychiatry.... I don't like being with family... I don't have friends.. 2 more months.. my birthday is here. everything is great, just someone bring weed

 

[lifewasawillowtv]

Cry

 

[bessops1976]

I was convinced I wouldn't see last Christmas and I'm still here

I had some plans to CTB over the "festive" period this year as I am off work and have proper time to enact, but then I got super worried about my pets. If I CTB and don't show up for work then they would raise the flag to my next of kin that I'm AWOL, so therefore my furry babies wouldn't potentially end up without food for days and they're about the only creatures who's well-being I give a shit about anymore bar my mother. I don't want to schedule an email that I can't then cancel if I fail as if I fail I don't want anyone to know.

I think if I actually died at home nobody would notice for ages unless work raised the flag because I live alone. Which has its pros and cons I suppose.

Anyway, likely I will just take enough sleeping tablets to make me unconscious for 24 hours (not as a ctb method, I have nowhere near enough for that, more as a "switch off from the world and ignore the day" method). Alternatively mindlessly immerse myself in binge watching something or playing a video game. Any way to escape reality really whilst many are enjoying "the most wonderful time of the year"

Your story sounds just like mine

 

[Immensevoid]

I won't do anything this Christmas too, I will be at home as always in the company of my problems like the other years but this time in a worse state..

 

[RichardFirst]

To quite the great Bill Hicks:

"bear with me while I plaster on a fake smile and plough through this shit one more time."