Orbitc

Orbitc

Sorry for my English
Jul 2, 2023
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What will you do this Christmas? I decided that I would try to make my last month as good as possible and pamper myself. Usually I watch my figure quite strictly so that my 90/60/90 is so sometimes this month I will buy myself something tasty. Do you have any ideas about how you want to have fun at the end?
 
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Kit1

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Oct 24, 2023
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Spending it with family and will enjoy watching them have fun - though I find any get togethers exhausting but just don't tell anyone.
 
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kunikuzushi

kunikuzushi

sause
Jan 24, 2023
295
I really wasn't supposed to be alive by Christmas, but it looks like I might be. I'll be alone and also hopefully eating something tasty.
 
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greebo6

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Sep 11, 2020
1,627
Be lonely and sad.
 
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Orbitc

Orbitc

Sorry for my English
Jul 2, 2023
277
I really wasn't supposed to be alive by Christmas, but it looks like I might be. I'll be alone and also hopefully eating something tasty.
Please try to spend at least the last your days well. I will try too It's difficult, of course, to abstract ourselves from all the problems and pain, but I think it's worth trying - there are a lot of good things in the world, but we devalue them because we are focused on our pain
 
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kunikuzushi

kunikuzushi

sause
Jan 24, 2023
295
Please try to spend at least the last your days well. I will try too It's difficult, of course, to abstract ourselves from all the problems and pain, but I think it's worth trying - there are a lot of good things in the world, but we devalue them because we are focused on our pain
Thank you, I'm going to indulge in my favorite things for the last of my days. And I really hope you can find comfort and some good things too.
 
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Orbitc

Orbitc

Sorry for my English
Jul 2, 2023
277
Be lonely and sad.
I will try to stop you)) I will send you a postcard and write a congratulation so that you don't feel so lonely.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
11,536
Where I live we don't really celebrate Xmas so most likely the days are almost the same like all others and that's good. So from this point of view I'm planning nothing. I also didn't want to be here anymore by the end of the year bc I'm dreading the next year already but I'm still stuck here and I have no terminal date set currently.
 
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Orbitc

Orbitc

Sorry for my English
Jul 2, 2023
277
Where I live we don't really celebrate Xmas so most likely the days are almost the same like all others and that's good. So from this point of view I'm planning nothing. I also didn't want to be here anymore by the end of the year bc I'm dreading the next year already but I'm still stuck here and I have no terminal date set currently.
In my country, we also don't celebrate Catholic Christmas, but even though I'm an atheist, I have to admit that I like this holiday. Although I mostly know about it from American and European films, I really like the spirit of Christmas.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
11,536
In my country, we also don't celebrate Catholic Christmas, but even though I'm an atheist, I have to admit that I like this holiday. Although I mostly know about it from American and European films, I really like the spirit of Christmas.
When I was a kid this was the best time of the year (I grew up in another country than where I live now) and I still liked the Xmas season and the new year celebrations. But since a few year since every year is just decline and ends lower than my last year I started to dislike it.
 
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Photographer Fizzle

Member
Nov 18, 2023
57
i will be gone long before unless i cowered out again.
 
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Mongoose

Mongoose

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Apr 26, 2023
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I won't get there. I plan on not being here two weeks before Christmas.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
38,920
It's just another day for me.
 
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WAITING TO DIE

WAITING TO DIE

TORMENTED
Sep 30, 2023
1,539
I shall be hibernating this Xmas.
No wearing silly hats and having to deal with obnoxious drunken relatives thank you very much.
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,202
Nothing really. My day would just be the same as any other day. Just because it's christmas doesn't mean that anything different would happen. Besides, I don't even celebrate it anyway
 
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Gonnerr

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Mar 12, 2023
1,322
Just one more day rotting in my body alone.
 
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ringo99

Arcanist
Apr 18, 2023
424
Probably gonna start on my will. Dot the i's and cross the t's on paperwork. Trying to make sure my parents won't have difficulties related to property transfer or my finances once I'm gone
 
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MatrixPrisoner

MatrixPrisoner

Enlightened
Jul 8, 2023
1,632
Decomposing for at least 2 weeks by that day I hope.
 
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hi-okbye

hi-okbye

7.7.2023<3
May 5, 2023
656
i'm hoping to ctb by Christmas, but if i don't i'll probably just spend it with family. i really don't want to be around by then though.
 
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hermestrimegistus

hermestrimegistus

Specialist
Sep 16, 2023
341
What will I do this christmas? Probably sit at home, daydrink, feel bad for myself, and then hate myself for pitying myself. Repeat the cycle until I fall asleep
 
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Ashu

Ashu

novelist, sanskritist, Canadian living in India
Nov 13, 2021
726
Go to work. I live in India.
 
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dreamingofrest

dreamingofrest

so, so tired
Nov 7, 2023
122
Spend it with the two people I care about and try to make sure at least they're enjoying themselves.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
2,748
Another day my SN gets another day older tick tick tick time flies
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
2,591
Nothing--will just be another sad pointless day
 
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Orbitc

Orbitc

Sorry for my English
Jul 2, 2023
277
Decomposing for at least 2 weeks by that day I hope.
This sounds so exaggeratedly gloomy that I don't even know whether it's sad or funny - damn it sounds terrible even for this forum, but lol I just thought that about the same "gift" would be waiting for my landlord))) Nevertheless - it's a pity that so many people here are so caught up in their depression and many will never be able to get out of it. I wish everyone your Christmas wishes come true - no matter how dark those dreams may be.
I shall be hibernating this Xmas.
No wearing silly hats and having to deal with obnoxious drunken relatives thank you very much.
Yes, sometimes there is nothing worse than drunken relatives)) Alcohol makes disgusting animals out of people. I don't drink, but one day I was in a bad mood and got drunk with my client in restaurant - then I vomited all over his room and left with $300 just for nothing - now he'll probably never use the services of escort girls)))
Just one more day rotting in my body alone.
I will also be lonely on Christmas, but not completely - I will buy something tasty for our stray cats that I feed - unfortunately they are wild and will never be able to find a loving family. I feed them every day but it's special cat food so they have strong teeth, but for Christmas I'm planning to buy them some good meat. You can also do something like this to not feel too lonely. I usually don't have good relationships with people, but cats are just angels - unfortunately, sometimes these angels also need help. Although I am a psychopath with a low level of empathy, the fact that I feed stray cats makes me a little kinder and brings a little joy not only to me but also to these cats. Before I started doing this, I didn't know that sharing something with someone could bring joy.
 
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TrigSpook

TrigSpook

Meow
Jun 2, 2023
6
For Christmas I'll probably go to my aunts house. She makes really good cookies and loves to share them with everyone. I like sitting on her couch and watching my baby cousins play with their toys.

I've recently lost the feeling of wanting a magical Christmas. I'm too sad and numb all the time. Now I do my best to make sure my baby cousins feel as if Christmas is magical.
For Christmas I'll probably go to my aunts house. She makes really good cookies and loves to share them with everyone. I like sitting on her couch and watching my baby cousins play with their toys.

I've recently lost the feeling of wanting a magical Christmas. I'm too sad and numb all the time. Now I do my best to make sure my baby cousins feel as if Christmas is magical.
 
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Orbitc

Orbitc

Sorry for my English
Jul 2, 2023
277
Another day my SN gets another day older tick tick tick time flies
Today I published a photo of my bag of sodium nitrite in one of my topics, but mods deleted it - on my bag of technical nitrite it is written that "guaranteed if the packaging is not damaged is 6 months" - now I also have a headache on this topic(( although I won't wait long and plan ctb in a month at most, nevertheless it makes me nervous. I read here on the forum that the shelf life is at least three years. I hope that my nitrite will be effective. I didn't do the aq tests - the bag is tight sealed and I don't want to break its integrity until I'm ready to drink
 
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vanilladust

vanilladust

Member
Nov 22, 2023
46
May or may not still be here. Watching others love and have fun while I feel like shit. At least there's fucking food. I'll dry my tears with whatever Christmas money I get.
 
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That's if I make it...
 
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