Discussion What will be your last thought?

[Nay Everlasting]

In all honesty I would be thinking about the possibility of reincarnation and what I'd like to do in my next life. If not ill probably just think about the song I am currently listening to, just singing with a blank mind as I no longer have to worry about anything

 

[Darkhaven]

I will be so nervous and anxious that i will, most likely, be trying to think in 1000 different things at the same time without actually being able to focus on one of them!

 

[LifeCutOpen]

The thought of the pain it'll cause my loved ones is the only reason I'm still here. Though I can't quite fathom why anyone would care if I'm alive or dead, I know some will be upset. I guess I just I just have this subhuman view of myself.

That's the reason that's always held me back before attempts, and it's an awful feeling to feel stuck here just to avoid hurting others. It's a different kind of hell.

 

[Crushed_Innocence]

I will be thinking of the man whom I am killing myself over..... I want my last thought to be "....I wish I could have seen you one last time...I love you _____ ...."

 

[new life]

The thought of the pain it'll cause my loved ones is the only reason I'm still here. Though I can't quite fathom why anyone would care if I'm alive or dead, I know some will be upset. I guess I just I just have this subhuman view of myself.

I always said i was subhuman

 

[GlazedDonuts]

That I hope it doesn't hurt. Or at least not too much.

 

[alicediaseis]

That I did get some fun, have no regret, and love my friends and family.

 

[bpdandme]

Why did it have to be like this

 

[I’mDone]

My last conscious thought will probably be "I hope this works as planned". If I have a final moment of clarity as the sn works, it'll be "Thank fuck it's over"

 

[LastRide]

I don't really want to have any thoughts at that moment....I am thinking way too much the whole time anyway, and this is what has fucked up my life. I don't want too much thinking fuck up my death too. I just want to concentrate to get the angle right and pull the trigger. I will probably be feeling immensely relieved and even quite exstatic !

 

[tom90]

I can't say for sure, but probably "I'm finally done with this POS life".
But for sure I will be thinking of all the time I heard from other people shit like "life is beatiful and too short" or similiar crap.

 

[tothemoon]

My ex-wife. Totally used me for a Visa but it will be of her. Now or 40 years from now.

 

[porfin1234]

That I really did love life and people and have some goodness inside, but the darkness won.

or maybe..shit that was confusing. maybe I'll do better next time.

 

[hershberger]

I'm not planning to ctb soon, but my final thoughts will be of my wonderful daughter. If I do decide to go, all my thoughts will be of her.

 

[a lonely slob]

i wish i could think of something nice but ill probably just be panicking uncontrollably

 

[tryingtoescape]

I hope it will be "I'm finally free. It's all over. It's all going to be okay." I'm afraid it'll be "what if I wake up in the hospital?" and "what if I fail?"

 

[Poptart]

Last suicide attempt was partial hanging. My last thought was, "hm, everything's going black."

 

[disabledandhopeless]

Can't think of exact last words but they are definitely words of regret...

 

[departing]

I'll be listening to music so I suspect the lyrics will creep into my thoughts... and then things will fade to black.

 

[cutter18]

love you mom...

 

[k75]

I don't think it's possible to know ahead of time. I'm sure there will be sadness, though.

 

[HadEnough1974]

Mine is "Oh my god, what have I done?!!

My last thought will be "I really can't fuck this up."

Am I dead yet?

Fuck I'm still alive.

Oh shit no, I'm actually dead but I'm a ghost wondering the earth.

What if when we die, we stick around?

What if we get trapped for eternity on this planet, even after we die. Living people can't see us, nor hear us. But we're still around and can see and hear them. That would be cruel.

 

[Kikoo Loool]

What a spoil, better never have existed.

 

[whereispeace]

I'd imagine I'll be relieved that the pain is finally ending, and that I can be at peace forever.

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

I have no idea
But my brain is so stuck on mistakes I made that maybe I will be thinking about them while dying. Sadly