What was the last suicidal thought you had?

[latte art]

I think mine was actually a gun trigger being pulled, or imagining its crossheir on the side of my head, but the last I distinctly remember was of breaking the window and jumping out of it.

 

[Ash]

Wishful thinking: about ten minutes ago looking at all the pills and potions I've got in the cupboard. And exsanguination earlier today.

Realistic: partial just a few minutes ago

 

[davidtorez]

I always look at my 2 bottles of N every night asking myself when will i grow a pair of balls and take it already

 

[QueerMelancholy]

I tend to imagine stabbing myself in the throat with a pair of scissors over and over.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm always wishing to die no matter what, especially as existence is so hellish and harmful with no limit as to how much one can suffer. For me personally wanting to die is all that makes sense to escape from the cruelty and futility of existing, I have no interest in the abomination that is human existence, instead I just wish to be permanently unaware, I find so much comfort in the thought of eternal nothingness.

 

[deadbody]

To take a gun and blew my brains out.

 

[ListlessGaren]

Probably an hour ago, was thinking of the setup I'd have to create to die with something like carbon monoxide. Or chug my prescription medications with anti nausea OTCs and alcohol and hoping I win the lottery with that. (I'd definitely be stoned also)

Second one is definitely a lot more irrational and there's a high possibility of failure if I vomit. Also, weed and alcohol? Yea, not sure if the anti nausea OTC medication would keep me from vomiting. Unlikely. Probably just wake up hating myself.

 

[Forveleth]

Me wishing I had more time to practice with my hanging setup so I can go. I'm not going to bother trying until I know it will work but finding the time and energy with my depression is hard.

 

[latte art]

Me wishing I had more time to practice with my hanging setup so I can go. I'm not going to bother trying until I know it will work but finding the time and energy with my depression is hard.

It's kinda peculiar how depression can make us suicidal but also take away the energy for it.

 

[deleteduser929132]

Last night, I had too many thoughts and voices to understand what to do.

 

[billie]

When will I have the courage and take the 500 sleeping pills?

 

[mtoro998]

I was thinking of blowing my brains out with the gun I have in here.

 

[ArgentApricot]

5 minutes ago i walked into my kitchen to make some food that i don't want to eat, saw the sun beaming down on me through my window for the first time this year. I've always hated the sun, I immediately thought i should buy a rope so i can escape the rays.
That's the last impulse thought, I've been actively planning since then as well, it's always on my mind really.

I was thinking of blowing my brains out with the gun I have in here.

God you're lucky, i'm hoping to find someone should i decide to travel there at the end of the year. would've CTB'd years ago if i had access to them.

 

[vadim]

I fantasise daily about killing myself violently such as via throat slashing or shooting myself in the head but I'm such a coward that I'd never have the courage to (also it's very difficult to get a gun here). Lately I've been feeling so fed up and tired of living that I've been imagining going to an isolated place to lie down and starve to death because I don't have the energy to be proactive about anything and wish for nothing more than to just lie down and rot.

 

[Ksmиda]

Shooting myself, one of my most common suicidal thoughts. Ironic, because guns are impossible to get where I live.

 

[evannave]

today. really fantasized about SN, which has never been my preferred method. I think I may use it now though...

 

[divinemistress87]

While waiting for the train to pass this morning. Fantasizing about getting hit by it and brains scattering everywhere

 

[clown_17]

Basically right now. Was thinking I could combine the ratchet strap method with partial. Tape two cylinders I have to the carotids and then attempt partial hanging. I really would try it now but there's people in the house with me and they'd probably hear my body thrashing as it tries to free itself

 

[Malaria]

Last night, fantasized about taking SN. Hating myself for being a BPD mess that ruins everything good in my life.

 

[grungy自殺]

Having my head blown off as i'm recording my final moments alive

 

[latte art]

Today's one was kind of surreal. When I looked in the mirror I imagined lasers circling my neck and decapitating my head, leaving me on the bathroom floor... I think it's time to try therapy again.

 

[TiredOfAllThis]

Drinking SN and blacking out

 

[TapeMachine]

Today:

What's the point of staying alive for my parents when I can't even make myself leave my house to go visit them (or anyone else)? This isn't living; this is a prison sentence created by my very own mind. Whether I live or die, I'm hurting the people who love me; so why stay alive?

 

[jbear824]

I had so many today. But I think the most prominent one was when I was walking over a bridge in my city to get my meds and I thought about just jumping off of it into the river and drowning

 

[iloverachel]

Right this second.
Don't have the means or planned anything yet.
But falling into eternal sleep has been on my mind daily for years

 

[hysterical&useless]

i want to find a lake in the mountains and drown. it would be peaceful under the cold water.

 

[permanently tired]

Plunging a machete into my chest

 

[sserafim]

NEET or rope. Live free or die

 

[chobonzi]

I think mine was actually a gun trigger being pulled, or imagining its crossheir on the side of my head, but the last I distinctly remember was of breaking the window and jumping out of it.

today. thought about doing partial and went looking for a decent spot in my house. i don't want my mom or sister finding me so i decided against it.

 

[terra.nuvo]

thought about crashing my car into a tree or pole today