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latte art

latte art

simple heart
Apr 6, 2024
77
I think mine was actually a gun trigger being pulled, or imagining its crossheir on the side of my head, but the last I distinctly remember was of breaking the window and jumping out of it.
 
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another_user

Member
Apr 16, 2024
35
When I was throwing up yesterday (just because of nausea) I tried to imagine I had taken something to ctb and was vomiting bc of it to see if I could stay calm in that situation but I couldn't and immediately had intense fear and regret.
 
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NullSz00

NullSz00

Full-Swing Sayonara
Feb 22, 2024
217
Saw myself in the mirror and then wanted to self harm again.
 
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Ash

Ash

What dreams may come?
Oct 4, 2021
1,736
Yesterday. Another example of how you don't get sectioned in the UK but sent home even if you're in A&E after a sort of attempt but admit that you don't know if you can keep yourself safe when you get home. Obvs, I'm still here and grateful for not being on a ward but it says a lot about the state of things at the moment.
 
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FakeSmileGuy

FakeSmileGuy

hate myself lol
Apr 16, 2024
58
Right this second.
Don't have the means or planned anything yet.
But falling into eternal sleep has been on my mind daily for years
Sometimes I wish I could fall asleep and never wake up. I don't want my heart to keep beating.
 
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Pacosay

Member
May 18, 2021
11
Just now, I was looking at my sn bag and wondering if I should take it right now
 
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astonishedturnip

astonishedturnip

Like Christine Chubbuck, but sadder
Jan 16, 2024
264
Imagined booking a room at a high floor of a hotel (if that's even possible) and pretending to fall to my death by accident by leaning over the balcony too far or climbing onto it. Or as I say the SOPHIE method.
 
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eternaldeath

eternaldeath

sleepy
Apr 14, 2024
37
i usually think about hanging myself but i dont want to die that way because i'd look weird if my body was recovered
 
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Promised Heaven

Promised Heaven

Eternally atoning
Feb 1, 2024
716
When I was at work earlier this week and fighting an emotional overwhelm. I work in one of the few spots without security cameras and I'm often alone in the later part of my shift. I work in a storage area where there are steel braces (the bar that makes a triangle to hold up stuff above) and I often think of tying a slipknot there and CTB in the middle of my shift. I can reach that height because I have a stool.

Main thing stopping me is the rare visit from employees from other departments, the risk is too high to do realistically.
 
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Dark Moon

Dark Moon

Elementalist
Sep 21, 2022
826
Just now I thought about hanging myself.
 
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bipbapbop

Experienced
Mar 7, 2024
276
I would prefer to go peacefully, but I can't help but think about pulling an Elliott Smith and stabbing myself in the chest all the time.
 
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moshimoshi

Apr 6, 2024
743
Shooting my brain stem with a gun for the 1000th time this month
 
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strangelife

strangelife

Specialist
Feb 16, 2024
364
I often think about how I would shoot myself, but I remember that I have SN, but no weapon, then I immediately imagine 3 prepared glasses.
 
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Meteora

Ignorance is bliss
Jun 27, 2023
2,001
Getting familiar with the SN-method
 
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sserafim

sserafim

they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
Sep 13, 2023
9,012
My head hurts. I have a tension headache right now, probably from sleep deprivation as well as not having enough caffeine, and it hurts so bad. I'd rather die than endure this pain. I hate how we have biological bodies that can feel pain and other negative feelings and emotions. I wish that I could just sleep forever and never feel anything ever again. It would be so nice to be non-existent and be in an eternal slumber
 
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Felodese

Felodese

Experienced
Mar 31, 2024
295
A few minutes ago, googling stats about my mental illness and thinking "yeah, I should just kill myself"...
 
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MatrixPrisoner

MatrixPrisoner

Enlightened
Jul 8, 2023
1,832
I think about wanting to jump into a volcano at least 3 times per minute.
 
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OCDsufferer

OCDsufferer

no longer human
Apr 17, 2024
57
Currently thinking of desperately running to a bridge and jumping or stabbing myself.
 
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broth0100

broth0100

i’m not in the tide i be under it, Jaws
Oct 23, 2023
170
I imagine dismembering myself a lot, but my most recent thought was abt partial hanging
 
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