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Hunter

Hunter

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Sep 14, 2018
260
Lying (down), dying, crying, sighing
 
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IRIYAMA

IRIYAMA

Student
Apr 10, 2018
146
Reducing my belongings, giving a heap away on Pay it Forward sites on FB, less shit to leave behind
 
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Dead_Inside

Dead_Inside

Wizard
Jul 2, 2018
622
Writing and re-writing a text to a "friend" who decided to start a serious conversation with me and then took a Valium to go to sleep.
I wish I was dead ....
 
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blood orange

Member
Sep 14, 2018
81
Lying around watching Emilia Fart videos on YouTube.

Bracing myself for when I go back to work.
 
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stellabelle

stellabelle

ethereal
Dec 14, 2018
3,919
Finishing a bowl of Mac & cheese, reading through old threads, listening to ghost adventures in the background, and contemplating texting someone that I was in a disagreement went days ago.
 
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BeyondtheVeil

BeyondtheVeil

Member
Nov 25, 2018
39
Drinking a nice glass of Pinot. Listening to music. Reading recent threads. Waiting on a friend to arrive.
 
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Dead Meat

Dead Meat

DOOMED
Oct 10, 2018
18,395
Suffering
 
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Floraknife

Floraknife

Tired
Dec 29, 2018
158
Waiting for my roommate to finish gaming so I can go upstairs and get something to eat... Social anxiety is really fun
 
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Hunter

Hunter

Experienced
Sep 14, 2018
260
Shivering in a sleeping bag. Wishing I'd never existed.... wishing the torment had never started. Missing someone but knowing they're better off without me.
 
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sif

sif

You deserve love
Dec 28, 2018
373
Just crying a bit and staring at the clock nervously
 
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littlelady774

littlelady774

running on empty
Dec 20, 2018
708
Was trying to sleep but couldn't because I couldn't stop crying.
 
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SamK

SamK

Cloud Surfing
Aug 21, 2018
280
In bed unable to sleep. Crying, hating myself and missing someone. :/
 
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GhostedToast

GhostedToast

Wants to disappear
Sep 25, 2018
144
browsing this forum, listening to music and trying to think what to do next
 
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Miss clefable

Enlightened
Aug 23, 2018
1,577
I really don't know
 
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daikon

daikon

trash golem
Dec 26, 2018
142
In bed convincing myself to get up, be productive, and go to work. (One nice thing about death: no more fucking errands!)
 
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therhydler

therhydler

Enlightened
Dec 7, 2018
1,196
Shivering in a sleeping bag. Wishing I'd never existed.... wishing the torment had never started. Missing someone but knowing they're better off without me.

Same :(
 
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Dead Meat

Dead Meat

DOOMED
Oct 10, 2018
18,395
Staring at the wall.
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
Staring at the wall.
I just got done grocery shopping, ate some leftover Chinese, now I'm just sitting here, wondering what I'm goin to do now. Lol
 
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KitKat

Body Dysmorphic
Dec 8, 2018
33
Just woke up from a nightmare again, gonna sleep with the lights on now.
 
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therhydler

Enlightened
Dec 7, 2018
1,196
Freaking out
 
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DeadlyLiving

DeadlyLiving

I can't fix it, is this where I give in?
Jan 1, 2019
152
I wrote my ex boyfriend whom I haven't talked to in over 8 months a letter but since I am not friends with him on discord anymore I can't write with him, so I sent him a friend request. Not even sure if he has a new discord account now but he hasn't accepted me yet, so I sent him the letter via e-mail and I don't know if he even uses or reads his email.. I have his steam and see that he is online there but I am too anxious to send him a friend request there. So I am just waiting for an answer or to be accepted in discord.
Why I wrote him in the first place? I miss him terribly .. damn I wish I could have forgotten him by now.
 
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Misanthrope

Misanthrope

Mage
Oct 23, 2018
557
Staring at my steam library unable to decide what to play or if I can even be bothered. But thinking right now just feels awful so I may force myself to play something and hope I get absorbed.
 
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Dead Meat

Dead Meat

DOOMED
Oct 10, 2018
18,395
Sitting here alone as usual in pain.
 
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MsM3talGamer

Voluntary deletion
Nov 28, 2018
1,504
Waiting for the benzos and painkillers to kick in so I can get some sleep.
 
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DeadlyLiving

I can't fix it, is this where I give in?
Jan 1, 2019
152
Staring at my steam library unable to decide what to play or if I can even be bothered. But thinking right now just feels awful so I may force myself to play something and hope I get absorbed.
I know that feeling. I'd recommend a game where you have to use your brain so that you are concentrated on it instead of getting lost in your thoughts.
 
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Redt2go

Redt2go

flower child
Jan 5, 2019
1,643
Drinking mentally preparing to interact
 
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Midnight

Midnight

Beyond solace
Jun 30, 2018
624
Just now since i glanced past this thread i wonder what happened to OP (if he ctb'ed on his journey through te UK or just left). It was nice of him to start a conversation with me and just talk about stuff. Hope you got whatever you where looking for Raptorhavx.
 
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Aesthler

Aesthler

Death is the only God who comes when you call
Sep 25, 2018
416
Getting ready to fall asleep, which will happen hours later.
 
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LastDay

LastDay

Soon, my dear big sister
Dec 29, 2018
103
Contemplating CTB, uh duh.

Other than that, I'm about to listen to my therapy session again. My therapist allows me to record them and I really enjoy hearing them. It s o o t h e s me.
 
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