Help What to do with family

[DamnDahm]

Hey so this is kind of dark, i know that is the point of this site and all but alas i still feel the need to warn but what do i do about family? especially when one of them is extremely attached to me, I don't want to live and have not since I was a child but for my father I stick around

My dad rescued me from an extremely bad place where I was regularly abused both sexually and mentally, and he took care of me properly for the first time in my entire life once he got custody, he loves me dearly and I love him aswell, I am the favorite of his sons and this is well known.

the issue with this is the fact that depression runs in my family, my father is almost as depressed as I am and I am painfully aware that if I were to leave he would eventually aswell, and because I am not his only son, this would lead into a spiral of deaths in the family.

I don't know what to do, I have nothing left for me and I am more than ready to leave, but I can't let my father feel the pain I know he will.

I don't know how much longer I can stand living for him and not myself.

 

[bl33ding_heart]

The best you could is try to make it as known as possible to your father that it's not his fault, and you love and care about him deeply. Beyond leaving behind words, I don't really think there is anything else you could do. Humans are bound to feel pain when someone they love passes away, and it's very unfortunately inevitable. If you do decide to ctb, I wish the best for your family and hope that they are able to cope well. And if you don't then I really hope that life treats you well, much love.