What should I write in my suicide note?

[SuicidalSheep]

I used to be very emotional, creatuve and good at expressing my thoughts but ever since getting pssd from antidipressants that isn't really the case, and I feel cognitively worse. I've been wanting to commit suicide since because it has made me feel consistently numb and disconnected. I had some attempts but right after all the docs did was tell me pssd is impossible and the third time Nobody even noticed. After each nothing changes nobody really gives a shit I still don't have any more support. Anyways, I haven't really been able to leave a proper suicide note.

it's like Everytime I write it my mind is a complete blank. There is no sadness anymore when I feel suicidal and no sense of caring like there was before pssd, so it's really hard to put anything to words and things don't really come to mind. So like, I know pre pssd me would have definitely wanted to leave a suicide note but I have a hard time coming up with what I would have wanted to put in there. What would/did you put in your suicide note?

 

[September Salt]

I wrote a note and I asked the recipients to forgive me for the hurt I was causing them and to tell them it wasn't their fault. I also told them where things are, like the assets some of them will inherit, and I asked them to take care of my dogs. I also asked them to tell others about my passing.

I hope I don't have to use it but that's what I have.

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that personally, I would write down anything that comes to mind that I would like to include in my note. I would choose to keep my note quite straightforward, and maybe say things like 'there is nothing that you could have done to prevent this' and 'now I am free from my suffering' and maybe give an explanation as to why I have chosen to do this. The whole point of a note would be to give those left behind some closure and would mean that they are not left with unanswered questions.

 

[FallingGrace]

In my notes, I have reassured everybody that there was absolutely nothing anybody could have done to prevent my suicide/euthanasia. That it was a fully pre-planned, intentional act, and not that of impulse from alcohol or drugs or a bad day. I've put what I want doing with my body and any assets I have like money and property. I've debated writing an abridged autobiography detailing every event and medical diagnosis that sealed my eventual fate but I'm still kind of toying with this idea. I'm not sure how much comfort it would bring vs blame assignment. But I'd like people to know how happy and content I was with my decision.

 

[hellispink]

Consider asking yourself wheter a letter must be written. Not all the time a letter has to be given. Sometimes the words are just not there. Sometimes the pain is too much to even explain it. After all it is very difficult that anyone could understand one decision. Mostly they still be angry or hurt at us. I personally doubt I will write one. But if I did it would be straight to the point, no more than a paragraph. I think that if one comes to this point, there is no much left to say (at least for me).

 

[SuicidalSheep]

Consider asking yourself wheter a letter must be written. Not all the time a letter has to be given. Sometimes the words are just not there. Sometimes the pain is too much to even explain it. After all it is very difficult that anyone could understand one decision. Mostly they still be angry or hurt at us. I personally doubt I will write one. But if I did it would be straight to the point, no more than a paragraph. I think that if one comes to this point, there is no much left to say (at least for me).

I feel like I have to write one at this point because ssri permanently damaged me despite having stopped for years in a way in which I have now logically concluded I should commit suicide. People need to know that PSSD is no joke. Even if I can reach a few people that's still more than 0 like right now. Nobody wants to take it seriously even though it's permanent and way worse than my depression ever was. Maybe if more deaths follow at some point they will care. I can at least try.

 

[outatime_85]

Even though my family does not hold me in high regard, being that I am seen as a failure.

I would still let them know the following.

Whatever happened to me was not caused by them.

My early demise was inevitable.

How I want my body to be disposed of

I would still let them know I loved them even though I never felt like I belonged in my family.

I would also give them limited access to devices, and make sure any sites I don't want them to see are deleted and no log-in details for those are left.

The remainder of my thoughts are in my journals.

 

[Sakura94]

you won't exist anymore so you need imagine what the other minds will think of it who discover it.
considering how other people view suicide I realized there is nothing I could write which would ever justify it. The only real thing I can think of is placing directions, passwords to access anything you need them to get their hands on, maybe some instructions to follow.

 

[The Abyss]

How you feel, things you gotta get off your chest, why it went down & what feels worth being said at the end of the day.

 

[Never Alive]

I feel like I have to write one at this point because ssri permanently damaged me despite having stopped for years in a way in which I have now logically concluded I should commit suicide. People need to know that PSSD is no joke. Even if I can reach a few people that's still more than 0 like right now. Nobody wants to take it seriously even though it's permanent and way worse than my depression ever was. Maybe if more deaths follow at some point they will care. I can at least try.

well even with pssd, you are still here. I dont know how long you've had it but I hope it got better.. somewhat...