Help What should i do from here?

[worthlessChimefan]

Guys, what should i do?

I feel like a burden to my friends, and i believe that ctb will make them happier and not have to deal with me anymore.

however I'm afraid of them finding out I'll do it, and I'm also afraid that they'll be affected by my death

any advice is needed, thanks.

 

[sensitiveguy]

If you can abandon them, then it's the best option in my opinion.

 

[LostinTime24]

I don't have friends anymore I'd say if you can have a chat with them let them know how you feel. My biggest regret and one of the main reasons I landed here is I did not handle my relationships with others very well this last year and they are gone forever. I imagine you are going through a lot and I do not know everything. I do think the worst thing you can do right now is isolate yourself as once you do that it's final. If chatting fails this forum will still be here. Not trying to come across as rude or anything. I wish you the best

 

[lemonbunny]

i dont think there is any way for your ctb to make people happy, unless they absolutely hate your guts or something. unfortunately our death will always affect those closest to us. the question is, do you want to hold on for them or not? either way, i'm sorry you're suffering and i wish the best for you. <3

 

[worthlessChimefan]

i dont think there is any way for your ctb to make people happy, unless they absolutely hate your guts or something. unfortunately our death will always affect those closest to us. the question is, do you want to hold on for them or not? either way, i'm sorry you're suffering and i wish the best for you. <3

I do, problem is, i don't know if they want me to, i don't know if my existence is just some burden to them, and that me dissappearing is a good thing.

I do, problem is, i don't know if they want me to, i don't know if my existence is just some burden to them, and that me dissappearing is a good thing.

I just love them very much, but now it seems they love each other more than me.

they're inseparable, a part of me, however i feel like another background character in theirs.

 

[RemainingDubious]

I feel like a burden to my friends

Is there a reason you feel like that? Is there any evidence to suggest they see you as a burden too?

Everyone is different so i can't know your friends individual thoughts about you. i do know i've personally never viewed a friend as a burden.

 

[worthlessChimefan]

I just feel it, my best friends outright told me to my face that I'm the problem and that I'm selfish despite me asking them how they feel and telling them i love them a few dayd prior, i don't know what happened, but that argument of me being a problem to them had lead me to this point.

 

[RemainingDubious]

I just feel it, my best friends outright told me to my face that I'm the problem and that I'm selfish despite me asking them how they feel and telling them i love them a few dayd prior, i don't know what happened, but that argument of me being a problem to them had lead me to this point.

Sorry to hear that. People tend to say things they don't really mean in the heat of an argument.

i assume your best friend told you your the problem and being selfish in regards to some kind of situation and not in general as a whole. Since they wouldn't be best friends with you if they truly felt that way.

Is it possible to ask for clarification? Maybe explain your upset at what they said and let them know your struggling to understand what they ment.

i'm often brutally honest which often pisses people off. If i thought someone was being problematic and their behaviour was selfish i'd say it. Calling out behaviours, etc doesn't mean i think the person as a whole is like that. Maybe it wasn't your friend's intention to make you feel bad. It may have been them expressing their views on a certain scenario or something.

 

[worthlessChimefan]

Sorry to hear that. People tend to say things they don't really mean in the heat of an argument.

i assume your best friend told you your the problem and being selfish in regards to some kind of situation and not in general as a whole. Since they wouldn't be best friends with you if they truly felt that way.

Is it possible to ask for clarification? Maybe explain your upset at what they said and let them know your struggling to understand what they ment.

i'm often brutally honest which often pisses people off. If i thought someone was being problematic and their behaviour was selfish i'd say it. Calling out behaviours, etc doesn't mean i think the person as a whole is like that. Maybe it wasn't your friend's intention to make you feel bad. It may have been them expressing their views on a certain scenario or something.

one of my friends was going through a hard time, so i told them that i cared and that I'm there and they should know that even if they won't share it, and yet they just.. turned on me, and think I'm manipulating them.

and when i told one of my friends that i don't think they trust me anymore and that they think i don't care, they just.. agreed? and told me I'm the problem and that not everything revolves around me despite me telling everyone that I'm open and that i care the day prior,

i believe them, i apologized yet they don't believe it, i told them that i cared and that they can come to me whether they're not okay and they laughed it off, I'm hopeless, and i believe I'm just pushing them down further, maybe thats why they just want to talk to each other

 

[RemainingDubious]

one of my friends was going through a hard time, so i told them that i cared and that I'm there and they should know that even if they won't share it, and yet they just.. turned on me, and think I'm manipulating them.

and when i told one of my friends that i don't think they trust me anymore and that they think i don't care, they just.. agreed? and told me I'm the problem and that not everything revolves around me despite me telling everyone that I'm open and that i care the day prior,

i believe them, i apologized yet they don't believe it, i told them that i cared and that they can come to me whether they're not okay and they laughed it off, I'm hopeless, and i believe I'm just pushing them down further, maybe thats why they just want to talk to each other

That sounds like they're very bitchy. It sounds likely at least one of them is envious of your friendships and is pushing you out so they can be included more.

Real friends will see through what's going on soon enough. Those that don't were sadly never real friends.

Understandably you're going to hurt. It's sad when people don't live up to the the title you gave them, but you can't make people appreciate you, like you and want you to be a part of their lives.

They aren't worth your life. The best thing you can do is to just let them get on with it. What others eat doesn't make you shit and what others drink doesn't make you piss. If they don't want a real friend that's their choice. That's entirely on them.

"A friend is nothing but a known enemy." - Kurt Cobain