What scares you the most about dying?

[FutureHanger]

Yeah, I kind of know what you mean about all our previous relatives working hard so we could live. Still- I think that tends to be a guilt trip they like to try and saddle us with. When- ultimately- we didn't ask them to do all of that. We didn't ask to be born into this. I expect a lot of them did it with good intentions but ultimately- is it all that fair to bring a sentient being into this world and then expect it to behave in a certain way? To be grateful for its life and prosper? I'm sure most parents hope for that but- is it reasonable to expect and demand it? Personally- I'm hugely grateful for everything all my care providers did for me but it isn't enough to make me love or even particularly like life or the fact that they made this decision for me and now I'm stuck with trying to deal with the consequences.

For me, there are lots of aspects of the process of death that frighten me. I'm probably equally scared of both the fear and pain it may induce mostly. A possible afterlife bothers me although- if that's real, ultimately- that's going to happen however I die. I'm sure I've already pissed God off enough to send me to hell- if there is one. God doesn't seem to like people challenging their views and I have a lot of complaints and questions! I don't think I'm subservient enough for the Gods I've heard about. So- that's likely coming either way. But yeah- all the unknowns around death are so scary.

yh I really hate how children are the ones expected to do stuff for the parents and excuse when their parents do them wrong because really it should be the opposite way round since the choice was theirs

 

[dysthymia]

Pain and survival instinct. I've watched too many suicide videos to count, and many ppl who hanged themselves would panic and grab the rope. People who jumped from buildings would flail around in the air as SI kicked in. People who blew their face off by shotgun and still alive. People who flinched while shooting and ended up faceless. I refuse to kms with shotgun. I dont want to shoot myself at all bc I know i'll end up flinching. SN, opiates, benzos + alc, hanging, blood choking & falling are my top choices though

 

[until death]

I'm not scared

 

[oddetoad]

Same here, two seconds fucked everything up.

My chosen method is inert gas, which is supposed to be a peaceful and relatively quick one. The process of dying scares me the most. You are supposed to be unconscious, but I still keep wondering if I really will be unconscious, really will feel nothing or if I will experience my mind shutting down over the course of minutes. I am really terrified of it the more I think about it.

Of course I also think about my family and friends, but these worries seem small to me compared to the experience of the process of dying. I know it will cause them a lot of pain, but since I won't exist any more, I won't experience their pain.

Sorry for being a little off-topic but what did you do in 2 seconds that fucked it up?

Pain and survival instinct. I've watched too many suicide videos to count, and many ppl who hanged themselves would panic and grab the rope. People who jumped from buildings would flail around in the air as SI kicked in. People who blew their face off by shotgun and still alive. People who flinched while shooting and ended up faceless. I refuse to kms with shotgun. I dont want to shoot myself at all bc I know i'll end up flinching. SN, opiates, benzos + alc, hanging, blood choking & falling are my top choices though

yeah i regret watching any gore videos at all to be honest with you

 

[devoidvessel]

I'm atheist but I want it to have some kind of afterlife out there. The prospect of not existing forever and all life and existence being meaningless is what scares me

If there's no afterlife, then I'll not be here to care about it, but as I'm conscious I fear this prospect. Probably I'll kill myself in the next two weeks and this is what i have been thinking about mostly

 

[DesperateOne]

I'm honestly terrified of death and I feel like anyone who has truly been on the verge and looked at death in the eye is afraid as well. Just the concept of non existing sends me into a panic attack, but then I remember that I have no place in real life as well and that my brain is beyond recovery so I keep bouncing between these two things and start to panic.

But hey it's in our nature after all... Everyones brain is used to some sort of continuity all the time, but just stopping existing like pulling some sort of a plug on a computer is very scary to me. Like it just stops and your story ends. No afterlife, nothing. Just pure void, well not even void just nothingness.

It's also kinda sad that I never really got the chance to properly live due to neglectful parents who for some weird reason didn't see that I was suffering even though the signs were so obvious that even a baby could recognize it. I think about what my life could've been all the time without all this isolation and mental illnesses.

At the end of the day I guess one just has to not think about all of that in order to CTB or impulsively do it with a bit of alcohol or something that lowers inhibition. Maybe even trick the brain that after CTB I go into the afterlife where everything will be beautiful...

 

[sylvey]

They say it's like the time before you were born. You don't remember anything passed a certain age.
That's what death is like. I hope that's the case. Keeping your conscious would suck.

You unlocked a new fear...
The reason we have memory is so that when we're in the darkness for all eternity when can play back our lives.
That's why you were supposed to live life to the fullest so you have something to look back on in the infinite void.

I don't know how I'm supposed to live. And that sounds incredibly cringe now that I've typed it out. :|
How does one live life to the fullest when it already appears to be the best it'll ever get?

 

[N33dT0D13]

Perception & failed goals, too many things I wanna do for my own satisfaction & my legacy before I die, once those are achieved I'm fine dropping dead.