Discussion What ruined your life?

[Versailles]

I wanted to put other options but this is the limit, hehe. In my case, it's all options

 

[Ticket 2 Heaven]

Second vote here

 

[edu0z]

life itself.

 

[downndone2]

So many, neuro issues after ICU admission for medical illness and effexor withdrawal which cause months of mania. During the following months, I ruined my marriage, spent 6 figures, lost countless friendships, a good job, lost myself, my business, lake house/toys, rental property. Ever since, I've been stuck in anxiety/depression which led to agorophobia in a very bad way. Nothing ever gets better. Ugh!

 

[forgetme]

Trying to find a partner and getting stuck wasn't exactly what I was hoping for

 

[unworthy_]

Botched plastic surgery
Being rejected, hurted, cheated of love
No career, no skills
Broke, no savings
Being ugly
Stuck in a country I hated most

My life is a prison. Its a lifetime suffering. I'm not being overdramatic. Sometimes and something have to come to an end..

 

[LostAllHope88]

I checked almost all options, but really to sum it all up I think it was me that ruined my life. Most of the terrible things have been self-inflicted although the root of It has always been depression and self-loathing.

Got into a car accident 10 years ago leaving my left arm permanently disfigured and now I have chronic pain. The car accident actually happened because I was rejected on Halloween weekend and I was so depressed I drove to a club an hour away and drank until I blacked out and attempted to drive home. Was in the hospital for 9 days.

A few years later I contracted HIV from randomly hooking up with people unprotected while studying abroad out of loneliness. Withdrew from everything and everyone for a year and got addicted to mobile games and spent literal thousands of dollars, so I'm swimming in credit card debt over my head on top of owing $50k in student loans.

Fast forward to this past September and my mom CTB'ed which really cemented my depression. I quit my job so now I'm unemployed. My jeep just broke down on me and I live somewhere you absolutely need to have a car, and I think I have some other health issues going on but the state is threatening to take away the health insurance they just granted me because they claim I'm working a job that I don't have (because again, I'm unemployed).

I have SN on the way from Turkey and just got my antiemetics a few days ago. There is literally no hope for me if I stay so CTB is my only option.

 

[ClownMe]

life itself.

Second this

 

[Looooser]

My parents getting divorced and moving across the country from each other ruined my life. I went from a straight a student to barely passing. Suffered bad depression because I had no friends. I just stopped caring.

Later in life when I got divorced I made sure my daughter didn't go through what I went through and that she knew she was loved. She's now a college graduate and an amazing young woman that I'm very proud of.

My childhood still haunts me!

 

[Erosella]

One of my best friends, someone who'd I'd call family, passed almost 5 months ago, and that's just the thing that pushed me over the edge. She helped me so much for 5 years and I just can't do it alone.

 

[Life sucks]

Life ruins itself.

I chose all the options except addictions.

 

[headwood]

Entering into and staying in a four year toxic relationship and trauma bond with a narcissistic abuser who came with two young children and a barrel of chaos and conflict with their father and anyone else who crossed her, then finally successfully leaving after dozens of attempts in a desperate act to save my own life, only to immediately thereafter contract a Lyme infection in my brain which went misdiagnosed for nearly a year, systemically dismantled my mind, body and soul, and has left me bedridden and frozen in hell, stealing away the very autonomy that I was seeking by leaving the abusive relationship in the first place.

 

[☆AwaitingEntropy☆]

A lot, but the biggest one was my development of distressing and reoccurring intrusive thoughts. I suspect it's ocd but I'm too poor to try to get an official diagnosis or afford an ocd specialist.

Either way, it's ruined my relationships, the way I view the world, and most of all, my sense of self and stability. Even on good days, there's this looming desire for finite silence.

 

[trianglesplayhouse]

I honestly would not mind staying alive (even with mental illness and all that), however I was cursed with being trans and that in itself is a deal breaker for me. I know transitioning will never get me to the place I want to be and it prevents me from doing so many things. Plus most people don't see me as male.

 

[DarkNearDeath]

Not learning maths, it's now preventing me from graduating university.

 

[yive]

what ruined my perfect non-existence? birth!

 

[Mashedout]

Being born into this flawed experience. I was doing pretty well not existing for billions of years and didn't mind it at all. Seemed very peaceful. All the problems started once this whole temporary decaying meat thing started.

 

[FuneralCry]

For me, it is being born. I am simply not meant for this world and I have never wanted to be alive. Existence itself is the cause of all pain and suffering. My life has always been ruined, since the start. I see consciousness as being torture and simply just being alive hurts me.

 

[Natty]

I was on multiple bad paths but for me, it was putting all of my eggs in one basket with my wife.

Out of college I had a wonderful job, lots of money, but it didn't satisfy me. It was hard to reconcile that I would be working in an office until I died so I started to drink and that led to worsening of a depression that was always a risk for me.

Things deteriorated from there and I ended up irrevocably tied to a person that I don't love and is incapable of helping me with my current issues.

 

[Milianna]

Don't know.

I'm autistic for one. Have alternated between eating disorders since I was 12. (Am 19 now)

Chronically lonely. Tired of feeling like psychiatrists don't understand me. They just push pills or tell me that life is going to get better or that it's a permanent solution to temporary problems. Well my autism, loneliness, and other disorders seem to be permanent. I can take permanent solutions then?

 

[CiproKilledMe]

FDA-approved antibiotic pills.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

Puberty incurable acne skin condition and losing social skills

 

[Baemo]

Mental illness, living with bpd is a nightmare.

 

[KuriGohan&Kamehameha]

Unwanted since birth, abused, ptsd, autism, chronic illnesses with no cure or management, no family, no love, no future. Why would anyone want to live in my shoes, it's a nightmare beyond comprehension.

 

[Versailles]

Mental illness, living with bpd is a nightmare.

I have a friend with BPD, and I have seen good progress in her attempt to manage her disorder, to the point that she managed to have a peaceful life, I hope you can also improve all of this

I'm autistic for one.

Unwanted since birth, abused, ptsd, autism, chronic illnesses with no cure or management, no family, no love, no future. Why would anyone want to live in my shoes, it's a nightmare beyond comprehension.

I hate to see how society rejects autistics or treats them grudgingly, I remember that as a child I was rejected in a school for it, so I know

 

[ultrafuntimes]

several factors play into it, but ultimately, myself.

 

[S like Siren]

A shitty family,Depression,lonliness

 

[Of The Universe]

The Devil!

 

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love, the loss of it, the grief from its loss, the depression from the grief

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Loneliness and self-loathing, a deadly combination.