What reasons do we have for waiting?

[happylilsht]

I want to drift peacefully so waiting on method I don't think it's impossible to get i'm not sure tho if i'll be able to stick around longer to wait for it so might go for alternate route my ideal is do it sleeping in my bed while listening to someone's voice talkin to me so I don't feel alone might be a painful exit tho it all depends on timing

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

1. Shitty methods.
2. No physical pain.
3. The next few years look as shitty at the last ones but not any worse.
4. Family would suffer more from my death than I would suffer if I just stayed alive in the basedment.
5. No balls (or brains). Or willpower.

 

[Brave_heart]

I'm afraid of hurting people close to me, ruining the life of my parent and sibling

I'd also like to give myself time to change but I'm unsure how long I can hold on for. What's making me suicidal can not change but my acceptance of my circumstances potentially can

Potential spiritual growth and art projects I want to finish, places I want to travel to, wanting to leave something important behind, but doing anything feels impossible and pointless

I'm undecided whether I'd like to write a will/note or try to stage as an accident. There's lose ends I could tie up. I wish I could convey the amount of pain I feel so my death was accepted, but I'm not sure how

I'm sorry for your pain. I'm sure your parent and sibling love you dearly and I bet they would do anything to help you feel better.

What art projects? I love art, too..

 

[LenkaX]

Only SI is keeping me here, trapped in this everyday BS.

 

[Birthinjune]

I'm sorry for your pain. I'm sure your parent and sibling love you dearly and I bet they would do anything to help you feel better.

What art projects? I love art, too..

Thank you @Brave_heart .
It's true, they would but they can't help

I want to record an album, finish some paintings of important dreams/visions I've had, and maybe tape a video diary. What about you??

 

[archipelago]

Needing to tie up loose ends, but it's difficult to do. Makes it seem more real. Biggest thing holding me back before was my parents and my husband, but I don't have one of those anymore. Also lack of a reliable, accessible method in Canada.

I used to feel so bad about the people I'd leave behind, and to an extent I still do…but I can't keep holding on to life because other people want me to. That's not fair to me at all, and I've done it for far too long.

 

[TooLate2582]

1. Spite
2. Possibility I'll get to participate in the collapse of western civilization

 

[Brave_heart]

Thank you @Brave_heart .
It's true, they would but they can't help

I want to record an album, finish some paintings of important dreams/visions I've had, and maybe tape a video diary. What about you??

What's your medium? I use to love acrylic paints, but slowly started dabbling with watercolors for my abstract art. Art, music and poems are my jam. A video diary sounds intriguing. Record an album? I love your vibe! What's your preferred music genre?

 

[Birthinjune]

What's your medium? I use to love acrylic paints, but slowly started dabbling with watercolors for my abstract art. Art, music and poems are my jam. A video diary sounds intriguing. Record an album? I love your vibe! What's your preferred music genre?

Dm'd to keep the thread on topic

 

[Lost Magic]

I literally have nothing left to live for. My time on earth is, thankfully, near.

 

[Foreversad]

Havent come to a solid plan

 

[Largeletters]

Mostly because I don't have the right time or opportunity.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

Finances, have to book a hotel for 31st august or September 31st and make arrangements but I want to go mid august too. I just don't know anymore

 

[filthyrottendirty]

Curious about the next presidential election but sometimes I think it's not worth it

 

[hybridtheory]

having bipolar disorder.

only because the manic days that i experience are so fucking good, I feel on top of the world and I have so much
hope for my future and I've came up with many plans that I want to follow through with. These great days can last
so long and it actually makes me feel somewhat normal, and very happy...
but man those bad days that I can unfortunately experience is what makes me regret my decisions.
I lose all of that motivation and desire as quick as I can gain it, and it makes me feel so stupid for even having
those positive thoughts in the first place.

but I'm still sticking around to hopefully witness the manic side of me overcome the depressed side.

 

[Realman!@]

Lack of means

 

[Jumping_realms]

Waiting for a reply for the best method(in my opinion), N.

 

[LastLoveLetter]

I am trying to get as much as my affairs in order as I can. It's proving to be difficult because I am so unwell, and I may have to accept that there are certain things I just can't manage as I hoped, such as getting rid of my belongings. I just don't want all of my affairs and responsibilities to be left behind for someone else to sort out.

I feel so inadequate, useless and selfish for not being able to get through it all, but I cannot hold on for much longer. My illnesses are destroying me and I cannot hold on for much longer, not like this. I am desperately clinging on to do all I can, but I feel my autonomy, my mobility and my capacity to function slip away further and further as my health deteriorates, like a ticking time bomb.

 

[losteverthing]

for me i'm still waiting to see if i can make my dream come true.
but if i fail then it's over for me