Short of a sudden, premature death, my only options are:
-Coma
-Severely brain-injuried to the extent that all higher brain function is gone
-In a persistent vegetative state
-Lobotomy
-Amnesia
-"Soma," a drug from the novel "Brave New World" which dispels all unhappiness (if they ever managed to manufacture it IRL)
In other words, I will always think about CTB for the rest of my life.