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And, do they relate to your intentions?

I often have: 'Let it all go' from Basement Jaxx: 'Romeo' running through my head. I guess I'm telling myself to 'let it all go'. I feel such relief when I think about it. I also picture the scene in Hellboy II where he lets himself fall from the window. Are there lyrics or scenes you think of when thinking about CTB?

If I'm feeling overwhelmed with work, I tend to both listen to and conjure up the lyrics from Diana Ross: 'If We Hold On Together'. There are some beautiful lyrics in that:

'Don't lose your way
With each passing day

You've come so far
Don't throw it away
...

Souls in the wind
Must learn how to bend

Seek out a star
Hold on 'till the end
...'

Kind of saccharin maybe but, I still find it beautiful.
 
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Sometimes, out of the blue, one particular song pops up in my head if I am sad or particularly depressed. I sing it to myself in my head sarcastically because the song is about a happy life. But when I try to recall this song any other time then my memory draws a blank: no lyrics, no tune, no song. It's as if my mind suppresses the memory of this song, letting me access it only if I am in a particular depressive mood. And when I try to remember it nonetheless, inevitable, I fall back on other songs like I Am So Happy Today and Leaves From The Vine, knowing it's not the right song.

The former fallback song I sing sarcastically. And knowing that I lie to myself, I become sadder.

Today I am so happy,
So happy, so happy
I am quite happy,
I was never this happy!​

One time I wrote down the title of the song so I could force myself to remember it, but I still couldn't for some reason.

Sometimes I wonder which comes first: the sadness or the song—the chicken or the egg. Do I remember the song because I'm sad, or do I become sad because I remember the song?
 
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Pretty Girl, Sickness killed her…
Jun 28, 2025
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Would you love me if I changed?
Am I lost or am I too late?
Soon I'm dead I cannot wait!
Please don't love me it's a waste!

From Let me die by lhls

When I heard that song for the first time I honestly had been touched so deeply and so razor sharp by how much I related to what that man said. I really am just a waste and I dont deserve any love I have. I could Maybe be loved if i changed, but I really am too late, or maybe I've just lost myself and I need to find my way back. But really that doesn't matter, soon my ctb date will be here, and that's all I look forward too.

Nothing deep really just a straight up explanation about why those lyrics stay with me <3
 
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Sometimes, out of the blue, one particular song pops up in my head if I am sad or particularly depressed. [...] But when I try to recall this song any other time then my memory draws a blank: no lyrics, no tune, no song. It's as if my mind suppresses the memory of this song, letting me access it only if I am in a particular depressive mood.
The song surfaced again, the first time since I wrote my post 3 weeks ago. Back then I planned on posting again the moment I remember the song, and that is now. I had forgotten about this thread but suddenly singing the song reminded me of it.

As said, I sing the lyrics softly to myself with sarcasm. I don't know what triggers me, but I'm often sad when it happens. Maybe it's to console myself? Something similar to self-soothing behavior that people do without thinking about it. Things like pacing back and forth, rocking gently, hugging yourself (crossing arms), or humming softly. You realize you're doing it only after you started doing it.

Dirty Dancing – The Time Of My Life
I… have… the time of my life
And I've never felt like this before
And I swear… it's the truth
And I owe it all to you…
Do others sing songs to themselves when they're in a particular mood too?
 
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Hi :)
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"I was dressed for success / But success it never comes" - Stephen Malkmus 1992. terse but still brilliant!
 
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