I've ruled out:
- trains/vehicles, bc SI is a bitch
- drowning, really scary imo
- hanging (all types), idk it just puts me off a lot
- OD on random pills, doesn't work
- cutting, unreliable
- dehydration, i don't think i can get away from home long enough for that
- guns, can't get one
- N, very hard to obtain
I came pretty close to jumping in the past, the only place suitable for it was a hotel where i had booked a room on the top floor but the day i got there they told me they were doing some renovations up there and gave me a room on the second floor instead.....laughed at the irony. I'm also seriously considering H2S, i would definitely go for it if i had a car but i don't though i know exactly what to buy to do it and how seal a room airtight. Rn i'm working on SN (waiting to receive it, hope i don't get scammed)
Edit: i've also been thinking i could take a little vacation in sweden or any northern country in winter and find a place to curl up in the snow at night and go to sleep (with a few pills and drinks), i haven't done the science part for this one yet but it could come to this