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Nymph

he/him
Jul 15, 2020
2,564
Easier for me to answer is what methods I would still do cause I don't want to do most of the methods. The methods I was thinking about is hanging, drowning, drug overdose, gun, N and SN. I'm doing SN because it's the most peaceful from all of them and seems reliable and easy to get. The rest of them are either hard to get or painful
 
PJFord

PJFord

Student
Jul 27, 2020
143
I haven't ruled out SN and hanging per se, but...

SN: I've read and researched a lot and have all the items...but I just have a difficult time understanding that such a seemingly innocuous substance can actually end my life. I know the majority of attempts are successful, but still.

Hanging: I've tried and can't find the sweet spot and temporarily pass out. I wish I had some assurance. if I chose this method, maybe adding my full body weight to the equation will mean it really doesn't matter about the sweet spot.
 
GrumpyFrog

GrumpyFrog

Exhausted
Aug 23, 2020
1,913
Apologies if I'm coming off too forward or prying, but what permanent injuries did you suffer?

Again, I'm sorry if I'm being too personal or violating your boundaries, I just want to get an accurate assessment of the consequences of failure using this method
No problem! I understand why it would be important for you to know.

Technically, it is mostly one permanent injury - brain damage from the lack of oxygen in the brain. I also have a bad case of a herniated disk in my neck now, that's generally fixable, but with a quite expensive surgery that I don't think I can afford.
I was lucky not to end up in a wheelchair (although I use a cane now due to balance issues), and not to permanently lose any of my senses (although my hearing is affected and I get periods of nearly complete vision loss). But I have memory and cognitive issues similar to the early stages of dementia, and I get frequent migraine headaches with nausea, dizziness and occasional fainting, that become near constant unless I control my intracranial pressure with medication. And also my mental health is apparently affected, but I find it hard to tell what mental issues were before the brain damage and what came after.
So my general review of poorly planned/executed hanging would be 0/10, do not recommend.
 
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YellowSneakers

Member
Aug 2, 2020
39
No problem! I understand why it would be important for you to know.

Technically, it is mostly one permanent injury - brain damage from the lack of oxygen in the brain. I also have a bad case of a herniated disk in my neck now, that's generally fixable, but with a quite expensive surgery that I don't think I can afford.
I was lucky not to end up in a wheelchair (although I use a cane now due to balance issues), and not to permanently lose any of my senses (although my hearing is affected and I get periods of nearly complete vision loss). But I have memory and cognitive issues similar to the early stages of dementia, and I get frequent migraine headaches with nausea, dizziness and occasional fainting, that become near constant unless I control my intracranial pressure with medication. And also my mental health is apparently affected, but I find it hard to tell what mental issues were before the brain damage and what came after.
So my general review of poorly planned/executed hanging would be 0/10, do not recommend.
Thank you for answering my question. I genuinely appreciate you opening up about your experience.
 
W3akCr3atur3

W3akCr3atur3

Empty and hollow
Aug 3, 2020
363
I always thought about cutting veins in the bath, but this is too unreliable. Probably hanging is my way to go.
 
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WFJ74

Student
Aug 18, 2020
150
I failed with CO from car exhaust when I was 19. I was found and saved though i wish I hadn't been. But it's still my preferred method and I'm preparing to try again.
 
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lasttether

Member
Oct 6, 2020
7
I always thought about cutting veins in the bath, but this is too unreliable. Probably hanging is my way to go.
Yes really unreliable! This was my first attempt aged 17. Been living with the keloid scars for 10 years.
 
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TooConscious

Enlightened
Sep 16, 2020
1,151
I have a tear In my eye reading this thread. The brutality of our deaths simply because the elite feed off our suffering ad we allow it.
I remember first seeing the suicide prevention nets in the forced labor camps in China and this thread just hits home how our western countries are the same.
We are pets for evil, cruel owners and few people want to admit it.
 
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Abir_london

Abir_london

Experienced
Jun 15, 2020
208
I'm seriously thinking of combining CO and hypothermia. Get small tent (or do it in car), go middle of nowhere when it's freezing. Burn charcoal, put in tent or car, get in and go to sleep, and if that doesn't get me the cold will hopefully finish me off while I'm unconscious.

So even if get CO a bit wrong and it doesn't finish me off, lying naked outdoors for a few hours should seal the deal.
I'm intrigued can someone explain CO to me? I live by myself so should be easy
 
Lily (Osako)

Lily (Osako)

Everything all at once
Jul 30, 2022
381
With me it's a combination of availability and the fear of consequences.

Gun: afraid I will miss and mutilate my brain but remain alive. And hard to get guns in my country.

Hanging: afraid I will just break my neck or paralyze myself. Also don't fully understand placement of noose and am really bad at assembling shit.

Gonna go with SN. I want to die whilst unconscious. I understand that if I'm found in a certain window there's a chance I can be "revived" with brain damage but being found should not be a problem for me.
Ditto.
I'm still holding out hope for N.
But I'll most likely OD on benzos, H, alcohol, with a shot of SN to ensure success.
Might be overkill, but I'm more afraid of survival than I am of taking too much of anything.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,511
The thought of failing hanging scares me so much. It's just so unfair how people have to resort to these risky methods. I just fear failing ctb in general. I would never have the courage for jumping in the first place. Such a horrible world we live in.
 
AnxietyHangover

AnxietyHangover

Global Moderator
Aug 20, 2022
243
SN - my stomach is weak, I tried meto before in a different circumstance and it didn't do jack shit, I still threw up. I am afraid I will only hurt myself... Shame, because I already have a source and it could get past customs easily here
Hanging - my neck is quite girthy so there is a good chance I'll end up a legume
Jumping - no place to do it without being noticed and appearing on TV
Gun - virtually no gun access in this country without being affiliated to a gang or something
N - can't get it locally, at least I didn't hear about it being available here, if I was to import it, it wouldn't go past the customs
H/M/F - that's actually a possibility, and a consideration, but pretty hard to acquire when you don't know the people who handle this stuff
Drowning - regular drowning would get my SI levels through the roof, shallow water drowning with the hyperventilation method is a consideration
CO - no car and no garage...

So far, my best bet is to find a fatal dose of H/M/F, which could be acquired here in eastern europe, but it's still pretty hard to find... Dying is so difficult.
 
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Eternal_Darkness

Member
Sep 9, 2022
7
Partial because I fear my SI
 
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MidnightDream

MidnightDream

Warlock
Sep 5, 2022
737
Cutting and pills for sure. Hanging, I know I would fuck it up. Jumping, and honestly anything that would require extensive prep such as gasses, bags, etc. I'm not smart enough :pfff:
 
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Zhendou

Alive
Sep 17, 2022
107
Cutting and pills for sure. Hanging, I know I would fuck it up. Jumping, and honestly anything that would require extensive prep such as gasses, bags, etc. I'm not smart enough :pfff:
Haha but for me it's mostly because I can't access them without setting off alarm bells from my helicopter parents.
 
Tired_again

Tired_again

Member
Sep 16, 2022
12
I was looking at SA but then read about burning sensation. Always had a fear of burning. Still trying to figure out what an SN failure would cause. I'm terrified of surviving but suffering brain damage. Shotgun right now seems like the best shot (pun not intended or maybe intended). But what are method(s) you've outright ruled out because of what a failed attempt might leave you with?
If you have family that you are concerned about after passing, a shotgun can make the embalming process more difficult for an open casket funeral.
 
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clockface

Member
Jan 28, 2022
12
I have discovered that a form of chloroform can be made by mixing bleach and vinegar. SN, sounds unpleasant with vomiting, racing heart, headache etc. Would using chloroform shortly after ingesting SN alleviate the unpleasant side effects because you would be unconscious? I'm 70 years old, and although in good physical condition, no major medical problems, I'm just worn out and tired. I feel empty with nothing left to give and the only interest ever expressed in me was when I had something to offer (I was a teacher). I feel as if I've earned the right to a peaceful, sure exit. What is the time frame for SN to make sure that it is effective?
 
brokensea

brokensea

Arcanist
Aug 4, 2022
405
I don't think I could figure out the gas method right with the regulator and air pressure etc but it sounds peaceful.

No way I'd shoot myself could miss and have brain damage and even if it's over in a few seconds with a shotgun it seems unpleasant. Same with a train.

I don't think I could deal with the pain of hanging or worry I'd get it wrong.

Jumping I think I could do. To have a few moments of freedom before death. Cyanide is supposed to be painful I've read. Really SN or for sure overdose on something I'd pass out from is how I would rather go. I don't like pain so I want it to be as painless as possible.
 
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HerculePoirot

(Frozen account)
Sep 25, 2022
751
Hanging, because of how difficult it is to effectively obstruct my carotide without knowing precisely where it is.
 
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lionetta12

Just a random person
Aug 5, 2022
1,233
I've ruled out every possible method there is, except for long drop hanging, CO, jumping and SN at this point.
I was looking at SA but then read about burning sensation. Always had a fear of burning. Still trying to figure out what an SN failure would cause. I'm terrified of surviving but suffering brain damage. Shotgun right now seems like the best shot (pun not intended or maybe intended). But what are method(s) you've outright ruled out because of what a failed attempt might leave you with?
 
Hollowillow

Hollowillow

The only place that allows negative feelings.
Aug 7, 2022
1,515
Drowning is horrible & I'd lose my glasses. Too scared to jump.

Failed to find the courage to cut my wrists at 11.

I don't have a car to CO. Tried with bags, felt horrible, like drowning in my own breath's sweat... Not smart enough to build & find gas

I wish I could get fentanil but no clues to find dealers not even for harmless stuff

Tried partial. Chickened out 2 times, failed to pass out during the 3rd. Still tempted but scared of paralyzis. I don't do full hanging for that. Neck hurts after being hit by a car maybe I should try else but nothing else...

Looking into sn. Site 1 Was too expensive, 2nd looked like a scam... Help? In canada... I wish someone could send the whole kit of drugs

I want N so bad. Why is it thousands if veterinarians get it for cheap?

The cops said that i deserved to be assaulted. Then finish me off jerks!
 

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