Discussion What method did you attempt and why it failed? How will you address your mistake next time you ctb?

[Dying Opportunity]

First attempt: drowning
failed because I was a dumb elementary schooler and tried to do it in a busy pool with lifeguards. Yes I'm serious.

Second attempt: fatal stab wounds
SI kicked in before I could even make a nick

My next available method is hanging. I will stay around longer than I'd want to go because I both need to ensure that I follow protocol properly, to ensure that no one can interfere, and to train myself to ignore my SI and guilt about leaving my family behind.

 

[CumbriaCTB]

Method: Alcohol Poisoning (lmao)

What Went Right:

• Good research - I found that, at my height and weight, I would need to consume at least ~600ml of pure ethanol (I chose 2L of 40% vodka, ~800ml of pure ethanol, for good measure).
• I chose to CTB inside my house (I live alone) so that I would not be interrupted by a member of the public.
• The equipment (the vodka bottles and a 250ml tumbler) was stored in an easily accessible location.

What Went Wrong:

• I overestimated my ability to consume the vodka quick enough (I have a strong gag reflex) and became so intoxicated after 750ml of vodka that I forgot that I was trying to CTB.
• I told somebody what I was doing, the Police were called, and I drunkenly unlocked the door and started laughing at the officers' shoes???
• I didn't prepare a grab-bag of useful kit for paramedics to bring - I ended up having to walk home from the hospital in my pyjamas with no phone and no cash.

Correcting My Mistakes:

• Switched to a method that isn't completely stupid (full suspension hanging).
• Deleted social media so that I don't tell anybody who knows me IRL that I'm about to CTB.
• I plan to remove the SIM card from my phone and hide them both in separate locations so I can't quickly dial 999 if I go into panic mode.

 

[QuincyME]

Ive had way to many attempts to count , i dont remember all of them but this is what i do.My first attempt I jumped off the roof of my great grandmother's house as a child , ended up with a bunch of bruises and a twisted leg but nothing serious. I should've known 3 stories wasn't enough.
My second attempt I tried cutting open my wrist, didn't realize you had to cut incredibly deep and how painful it can be if you aren't ready.
Third attempt my first big attempt. I overdosed ibuprofen and ended up having to get my stomach pumped.
Never again.....
After that I don't remember all of the remember of my attempts.
But here are the bigs ones I remember
I overdosed on 3000mg of Benadryl and flatlined in the ambulance on the way to the hospital. I had what I was told a total of over 30 seizures that day and way lucky to have survived.
I had a Benadryl addiction for a few years and it's understandable why I went so far to try and end my suffering. It just was never a good way to end myself and never will be.
Overdosed on heroin, I was given narcan but I don't remember much about it .

In another attempt I used a knife to cut open my wrist again this time succeeding in cutting veins throughout my arm and bleeding out in my room. Police showed up to me holding a knife and having to take it away from me before I lost consciousness. I really wish I want caught because this one could have been the one.

I hung myself and was saved before any significant damage was done to my brain .

I've overdosed on all my prescriptions at one , so antidepressants, anti psycotics, anti anxiety pills .... I had to get my stomach pumped again.

And I took like 7000mg of thc , got black out drunk had multiple seizures and my heart stopped at one point. Kinda a dumb one but it happened.

Did you cut veins or arteries? If it was veins, which veins did you cut? Would you have died if it wasn't for 5-0.