What makes you wake up tomorrow?

[SeekingSerenity]

Hey everyone,

I'm curious, what's the thing that makes you wake up in the morning? What's the one bit of life you enjoy? What's the thing that gets you through the day? What's keeping you from CTB?

 

[everydayiloveyou]

My family. I need to keep working so I can buy life insurance for them before i ctb. I also want to finish my degree so that my family can go to my graduation and feel proud of me. Maybe by then I'll feel better, and if not then at least I'll go having done my duty as a daughter.

 

[Sprite_Geist]

The daily chores of life.

 

[s3gfault]

Biology / my brain.

 

[Raminiki]

I'm not in a situation people would consider valid for ending myself, and I also need to be alone at home to have the peace and sanctuary I need to prepare.

I've also sacrificed far too much to save money and I should get the chance to spend it, not whoever would inherit it. Should make the last chapter enjoyable, right? It might just alleviate my misery if I start spending on myself instead of saving for others.

 

[Final Escape]

I'm not sure to be honest. Everything is making me want to be dead. I have to leave town soon. Lots of stress. Swinging back and forth in suicidal ideation. I don't even know what I'm doing but if I stay put I'll end up dead. Which is kinda what I want much of the time but then I snap out of it again. I wish this would stop.

 

[EGR92]

Nothing. i dont get up. i stay in bed all day every day. The only thing stopping me from ctb is the fact my N hasn't arrived yet

 

[GonnaGoBye]

Work. Haha every weekend I try to

 

[Marine]

I shamelessly really want to find lasting mutual love... It's always been my reason for living (and why I came close to dying ironically because I thought I could only get a chance in another life).

I want to believe that I haven't been brought back to end the same way or worse than at the time of my last suicide attempt.

As misunderstood as it may get, it's also essential for me to get skinny, authentic, healthy and finally love myself.

I want to fully reclaim my life if that's possible.

I've always loved life, especially after coming so close to dying, but I need a way to live, and that can't happen alone, since no human being can live alone.

Finding people to create sustainable bonds with shouldn't be so difficult yet it is for me...

 

[HappyMstake]

The fact that I'm never alone but that will change for a whole week next month. I'm excited but nervous as that will be my only chance to do it and if I back out I'm screwed.

 

[Bruces]

No other choice! But there's nothing I enjoy

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

I wake up when I sleep a lot. I considered sleeping a waste of time but now I like sleeping more because I don't like my reality. The more I'm disconnected from reality, the better.

 

[wonderworld]

got therapy tomorrow... i don't like letting people down

 

[SeekingSerenity]

got therapy tomorrow... i don't like letting people down

How was therapy? Did it help?

 

[TAW122]

I'm just biding my time until my inevitable end. I have already decided that I won't be living until old age. Sure, there may be things that could postpone my CTB (like many times in the past), but now I'm certain that is highly unlikely to happen and life just goes downhill from this point on. Of course, I still maintain appearance as to not alarm the people around me IRL.

 

[Elbarado]

birds and cars that make sounds and also pain from my body or shortness of breath

 

[AnniesHideaway]

She will not stop pestering me until I get out of bed.

 

[Lorntroubles]

I will wake up tomorrow because I didn't ctb today. Getting my ducks in a row, first. This Death March needs to be as perfect as possible for me.

 

[AnxietyAttack44]

My dogs.. Thats it. Just to take care of them

 

[Notmadeforthislife]

I don't have anything I look forward to. I get up because I have duties as a husband and father. Fear keeps me alive. I'm afraid of what would happen to my family if I were to ctb. I'm also afraid of the unknown as far as the afterlife is concerned. What if I ctb and hell is waiting for me on the other side? If I didn't have these fears I would have ctb months ago. I have the means, but so far I don't have the will. I wish I could change that and find peace on the other side.

 

[No_more]

My cat. He's the only thing I live for.

 

[socrates]

IDK I just hate spending time in bed. I do have things to do and I figure if I'm in bed I can't plan my CTB.

 

[Deleted member 17949]

It's just a routine, if I hadn't been made to do it for years I'd stay in bed all the time.

 

[wonderworld]

How was therapy? Did it help?

to be honest I don't really remember what I talked about, my brain like to block out anything mildly painful we're trying to work through it atm

 

[kittie]

She will not stop pestering me until I get out of bed.
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My floofy kittie died 7/7/20. She was my reason to get up. Now sorting things to ctb too.

 

[Sinai Silence]

Life responsibilities and seeing my pets get excited to see me when I get up.

 

[Polly]

My drugs wear off so I can't sleep. There is no joy in waking up.

 

[Meditation guide]

What's the one bit of life you enjoy?

All I have is the internet and watch youtube videos to pass the time. I can't say I enjoy it but it takes my mind off my insolvable intolerable problems for a few hours a day. It is literally all I have.

 

[Exhausted1705]

Hope sometimes. Agh but oxygen is the reason I an here

 

[Nymph]

My bunny, I got him and wanna provide him the best life. If I'm gone no ones gonna take care of him