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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
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Seems like this phrase has different connotations. Some negative- as in for example- you can't get something nasty someone said to you out your head. I think I prefer the positive angle though. That something you really enjoy or resonate with often is on your mind.

Answer however you wish- positive or negative or, both if you like.

Of the positive things, the story of Jane Eyre is often on my mind. Some dumb arse romantic illusion that two people can save one another. I often have lines from films or TV series pop into my mind. From the TV series, Jonathan Creek, an insult that often springs to mind when I'm feeling old: A description of one of the characters said he was all seized up with arthritis- 'like walking rigor mortis.' I sometimes feel like that.

Of the negative stuff, it tends to be memories from childhood I'd much rather forget.

What about you? Any positive or negative obsessions?
 
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wormbrained

wormbrained

šŸœŽ
Sep 15, 2024
81
I think about playing the drums pretty often, although I've never even touched one.
 
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absolutelyyou

absolutelyyou

peaceful
Jul 26, 2023
168
Honestly? Way too many fuckin memes. I think its the autism that cases me to like and hold onto funny small bits but honestly its kind of annoying. How is one ever supposed to feel like an adult with their shit together if when I sit there chopping food for dinner my brain just says "they did surgery on a grape". Please brain. Let me have one normal thought.
 
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astr4

astr4

memento mori
Mar 27, 2019
692
Of the negative stuff, it tends to be memories from childhood I'd much rather forget.
yuup

the past lives rent free in my head

embarrassing moments i wish i forgot? somehow entitled to free rent as well.
 
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Nolvalis94

Nolvalis94

Depressed Patrician
Feb 19, 2024
7
Mostly negatively: Open Individualism and (to a lesser extent) Empty Individualism.
 
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amnesia999

amnesia999

Lie, lie, lie - Life is a lie
Jun 30, 2024
252
I hate that saying, "lives rent-free in your head". Obviously everything in your head lives there rent-free, seeing as thoughts can't exactly saw their way through your skull and hand you money. So it makes no sense. People usually use that phrase to mean that you just can't stop obsessively thinking about something, and they're making fun of you for not being able to let it go.

One thing that really bugs me is people who support donald trump, when it's clear, at least to me, that the country will be much worse off if he's re-elected. That trump is bad news is so easy to see, but people turn a blind eye to all the red flags and decide to vote for him anyway.
 
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JustAnx

Student
Oct 12, 2024
132
My low self steem and my pride. They are roomates and they don't really get along.
 
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thatsall

thatsall

carys
Mar 18, 2024
9
songs. in my mind's eye, every moment i experience has a song attached to it. i see my life as if it's one prolonged, whirlwind movie; it's all cinematic in a twisted way.
 
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untothedepths

untothedepths

this user is a giant puss
Mar 20, 2023
648
negative - thoughts of "everyone hates you secretly' 'go self harm right now' 'your a piece of shit, die'

positive - im drawing and writing again but its all souless, forcing myself 2.
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,795
Suicide and the desire to be dead
 
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vadim

vadim

Disqualified From Being Human
Aug 10, 2023
127
Rat Park
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rat_Park

I know it was flawed and that you shouldn't project human emotions onto animals, but I can never stop thinking about the fact that the group that consumed the most morphine was the one made up of rats who'd grown up in rat park and were then transferred to solitary cages. If I were to project human emotions onto rats, I'd say that those who felt happiness at one point have a greater capacity for feeling pain than those who'd never known happiness at all.
 
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nir

nir

27/F/Canada
Aug 18, 2024
308
I think the desire for love/companionship constantly takes up space in my mind, especially when I'm trying to fall asleep.
I think about playing the drums pretty often, although I've never even touched one.
I hope you get to play them some day, if you want to :)
 
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Quietist

Quietist

Lost Cause
Sep 6, 2024
292
I think about playing the drums pretty often, although I've never even touched one.
Omg, start off getting one of those electronic drum pad things, like the Pyle Pro PTED06 and go to town.

It's not ergonomically correct like a more expensive electronic kit, but it's good starter for someone interested in learning or just playing around.
 
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noname223

Archangel
Aug 18, 2020
6,940
A physics professor who might is among the smartest people on this planet who did not consider me smart.
 
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notwhereIbelong

notwhereIbelong

I'm so tired
Feb 12, 2023
124
Food, calories, weight. Loneliness.
 
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yabujin

yabujin

Member
Oct 21, 2024
89
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amnesia999

amnesia999

Lie, lie, lie - Life is a lie
Jun 30, 2024
252
Urban Dictionary sez...

Foid
Yet another slur used by incels to describe females/women because they can't get laid.
(See also: femoid)
...
foid
shorthand for femoid, a pejorative used by incels to degrade women
 
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FujoshiNeet

FujoshiNeet

āœŒļø you are mentally ill āœŒļø
Jan 21, 2024
108
Urban Dictionary sez...

Foid
Yet another slur used by incels to describe females/women because they can't get laid.
(See also: femoid)
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foid
shorthand for femoid, a pejorative used by incels to degrade women
can you translate every time this gerbil posts?
 
amnesia999

amnesia999

Lie, lie, lie - Life is a lie
Jun 30, 2024
252
can you translate every time this gerbil posts?
What I want to know is, what the fuck is it that draws so many incel types to troll post in this forum. There's something I don't want living rent-free in my head.
 
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yabujin

yabujin

Member
Oct 21, 2024
89
What I want to know is, what the fuck is it that draws so many incel types to troll post in this forum. There's something I don't want living rent-free in my head.
Smh not a troll post
 
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pyx

Wizard
Jun 5, 2024
617
there's a particularly leathery spot on my inner thigh, it's been there for weeks
 
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yabujin

yabujin

Member
Oct 21, 2024
89
can you translate every time this gerbil posts?
I use that slang almost on autopilot +I hate her and the way she talks about cels on gram it made me type out like this
But I was actually gonna say a lot of aspects in her are perfect desirable fit for me
 
EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
5,158
School, wanting to kill myself, psychedelics, and The Garden/Enjoy
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,409
Too many things. It's getting crowded in here.
 
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Manletmachine1

Manletmachine1

Member
Oct 7, 2024
35
My oneitis
 
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_Gollum_

_Gollum_

Formerly Alexei_Kirillov
Mar 9, 2024
1,677
An author who was a prostitute in her early twenties and who killed herself at 36 after writing several successful books. She had been suicidal since she was 15, and seems to have been one of those people, like many of us on the forum, who are just empty inside. Who don't wish for a good life, but just prefer nonexistence. So many of her quotes just constantly pass through my head...
 
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LostLily

LostLily

Why do I exist?
Nov 18, 2024
755
Fear of the futures and all my failures.
 
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ScottPilgram

ScottPilgram

slime guy, xe/xem it/its
Feb 2, 2019
157
positives? THIS FUCKING VIDEO
PICKLE? PICKLE NO GOOD!
negatives?
every unresolved fight i've EVER had
 

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deletednumber

Enlightened
Apr 29, 2021
1,603
Sadly suicidal thoughts
 
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