What keeps you going?

[Parnate]

for me , its my being stuck in a limbo. Neither normal not completely suicidal.
At times I do feel an extreme push but almost every time I just ride it instead of doing something.

 

[Macedonian1987]

My parents are still alive. They are providing almost no support for my depression, and whenever i feel very sad, they never comfort me, but I keep going because my death will put them in an early grave (they are elders 77 and 75)
I postpone my suicide as long as I can, but when my chronic pain gets really bad, I will still do it eventually - with SN.

 

[no1absolfan]

im honestly not sure

 

[tunnelV]

Oh, of course it's my 2 little precious dogs. Not life, not my husband, not my job.

 

[kuroshimi]

Not sure. Maybe the desire to experience things, because after your death you will cease to feel and life around will go on. It's frightening.
And family and friends, of course.

 

[jane_doa]

for me I guess it's the thought at the back of my mind that cbt is always an option when things go south
kind of ironic to keep on living knowing I can be gone whenever I choose, but that at least puts me at ease

 

[FuneralCry]

The fact that I'm so cruelly denied the option to cease existing in peace that is guaranteed with no more pain and no more suffering, I just always suffer so much from being trapped in this torturous existence I just always saw as a mistake, it truly is the most horrific world where suicide is seen as a crime with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what, all I want is to be gone, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the abomination of existence that just causes harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured.

 

[Parnate]

My parents are still alive. They are providing almost no support for my depression, and whenever i feel very sad, they never comfort me, but I keep going because my death will put them in an early grave (they are elders 77 and 75)
I postpone my suicide as long as I can, but when my chronic pain gets really bad, I will still do it eventually - with SN.

I felt that ways before, but now I just don't care anymore. Growing up my mother was extremely abusive and father was neglectful and unable to provide enough so I don't really feel that I need to live for them.