Discussion What keeps you going?

[flyintothemoonagain]

I know most people on here are only stopped from CTB because they're having trouble finding the correct method but what about the people that aren't? What stops you? Do you like that it stops you or is it an obstacle surrounding what you actually desire?

 

[sugarh1gh]

I used to withdraw from ctb because of people who were on my side. At this point I have realized that they aren't always on your side and nor that I care about their feelings after I ctb.

One of the main reason was my dog who was with me since I was 7 years old, and she has passed last year. Since then, I have no obligated feeling that I shouldn't ctb. I don't really have any obstacles left other than getting the supply

 

[SadTitan]

really its my SI, prepared myself many times only to backout, really dissapointed in myself but trying to do some training to overcome it.

 

[DeIetedUser4739]

There's nothing keeping me going per say, it's more just a few things I can still manage to do like walking to the shops and buying food for example that gets me through the day.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Laziness, selfishness, and false positivity.

 

[SchizoPolyGymnast]

I know most people on here are only stopped from CTB because they're having trouble finding the correct method but what about the people that aren't? What stops you? Do you like that it stops you or is it an obstacle surrounding what you actually desire?

My cats keep me going. Plus I sponsor a family in Senegal.

 

[Nsch]

Not having access to Fentanyl

 

[Ambivalent1]

Inertia

 

[lovedread]

My aspirations, like writing a book one day or a famous study. My hope that one day people will care about how cruel they are to me and will apologize and everything can be OK again. My want to be loved one day.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Currently my life isn't too bad - everything is on a pretty low level. I'm not happy with my situation but it's not enough to CTB either.

 

[sisyphean-nightmare]

Right now, a friend who's been there for me more than she should.

 

[Hollowman]

My mom.

 

[SchizoPolyGymnast]

Kitty kitties!

 

[lkjhgfdsa1]

Fear of being (even) worse off

 

[Ambivalent1]

Fear of being (even) worse off

In the afterlife, if it exists?

 

[lkjhgfdsa1]

In the afterlife, if it exists?

no unfortunately in this life

 

[enough of this]

That's the biggest mystery of my life. I've had so many close brushes with death, my health is in rapid decline, medical injuries have taken their toll. I can't imagine how I've managed to live so long. I find absolutely no purpose in being here, and yet, I'm still alive. WHY???

 

[Ambivalent1]

That's the biggest mystery of my life. I've had so many close brushes with death, my health is in rapid decline, medical injuries have taken their toll. I can't imagine how I've managed to live so long. I find absolutely no purpose in being here, and yet, I'm still alive. WHY???

Schopenhauer said you are the personification of the "will to live."

 

[Oathkeeper]

Fear

 

[Maormer]

I know most people on here are only stopped from CTB because they're having trouble finding the correct method but what about the people that aren't? What stops you? Do you like that it stops you or is it an obstacle surrounding what you actually desire?

I'm alive because I haven't died yet. I really really do not want to live much longer. Nothing keeps me living so much as things prevent me from stopping. I'm so paranoid about what I leave behind. I keep running scenarios through my head of what would be the least traumatic for whoever finds my body, how to minimize harm to family, how do I make sure my body looks ok for the funeral? do I want people to find my body? Do I want people to even know I'm dead and not just missing? I've tried before and I know it messed with people who knew me. I don't want to hurt anyone but at the same time I can't stand the idea of sticking around for the rest of my expected life span. 70 years is such a long life, I can't make it that far

 

[theboy]

I only live for those who love me

 

[Manfrotto99]

Survival instinct and a fear of the unknown (afterlife). This life is a given - nothing but misery and failure, but there's hope that I can escape by dying, but what if I die and there is still misery and failure and no escape!

 

[FallFromGrace]

Video games and the joy of walking and listening to podcasts, I guess, though those aren't actually stopping me from CTB. The thing that's really keeping me going is our family dog of ~15 years. She's going to be euthanized soon, and I want to be with her for it. After that I'll be ready to pass.

 

[SlyEden]

I know most people on here are only stopped from CTB because they're having trouble finding the correct method but what about the people that aren't? What stops you? Do you like that it stops you or is it an obstacle surrounding what you actually desire?

Just my cats. Only them. I believe they are the only things in my life that have given me unconditional love and had been there for me during hard moments. The thing that stops me is not knowing what will happen to them when im gone. I want to find somewhere safe and happy for them

 

[fleetingnight]

Right now, needing to break up with my partner first, so they won't have the trauma of losing a partner to suicide. Hopefully I can give it plenty of time for them to get less attached to me, but the way tonight's been going, I don't know lol

Generally speaking, lose ends to tie up before I go, at leaast

 

[m1ll1pede]

I enjoy my cats and music.. I'm hoping to have ctb by the end of the summer

 

[rokonie]

My sister, she's going to have to take on the whole burden of financially supporting our aging parents if i wasn't around. I have a dog and a cat, too. I want to work on my Steam backlog first. Finally, I want to pump out more art and inspire someone to draw maybe. I think the last bit is just me selfishly wanting to be remembered in any way, not counting family members.

 

[pinkblur]

i started writing an album and need to see it to completion. it fucking sucks because i really don't want to deal with the suffering anymore, but i've gotten so much of it done that i can't let myself move on without finishing it and releasing it to the world first

 

[screaming rain]

Throwing responsiblities on my shoulders to give me a purpose. Also I fear that I would become even more of a disappointment if I was to kms.

 

[callofthevoid_]

Fear. I'm very afraid of the process of dying although i know its inevitable