What keeps you going?

[rora]

I feel like nothing has a point anymore but I still can't seem to completely give up on my life, I don't know what I'm experiencing. Life seems meaningless but I can't bring myself to just put an end to it. I just can't jump. It's so frustrating to be in this place.
Do you guys look forward to anything at all? If not, what keeps you going, surviving every day?

 

[Meteora]

There s nothing I look forward to atm. I m glad to survive the days without major intrusions, flashbacks, self-hatred etc.

What keeps me going: Stupidity and cowardice

 

[rora]

Stupidity and cowardice

I absolutely relate, ig it's just the SI kicking in

 

[ForgottenAgain]

For me it's my hamsters, they are very therapeutic for me. I was able to save one of them from a terrible fate where she was overweight and depressed. She is now in a good weight, loves food and exercising. I wish I could have the same improvement.

 

[Meteora]

I absolutely relate, ig it's just the SI kicking in

Probably yes. One day we will overcome that b*tch. Guess we have to trick our brains.

 

[Darkover]

we have nothing to look forward too who'd want to enslaved in any of these shitty horrible machines

 

[rora]

For me it's my hamsters, they are very therapeutic for me. I was able to save one of them from a terrible fate where she was overweight and depressed. She is now in a good weight, loves food and exercising. I wish I could have the same improvement.

that's so adorable! i'm glad you have your hamsters, this makes me consider getting a pet or something

 

[FuneralCry]

Sadly if one doesn't manage to find a way to permanently free themselves from this existence there's simply no choice but to continue suffering, I'm only still here as I was burdened with the ability to exist in this hellish world where there is the absence of peaceful, guaranteed ways to die for all. As well as suicide being inaccessible what I'd fear is trying to die going wrong and leading to way worse torment as a result.

 

[rora]

Sadly if one doesn't manage to find a way to permanently free themselves from this existence there's simply no choice but to continue suffering, I'm only still here as I was burdened with the ability to exist in this hellish world where there is the absence of peaceful, guaranteed ways to die for all. As well as suicide being inaccessible what I'd fear is trying to die going wrong and leading to way worse torment as a result.

same here. the fear of surviving and being tortured in a psych ward absorbs me. i absolutely can't afford to take that chance, pretty sure i'll be ruined emotionally

 

[SVEN]

Caring for my loving life partner & old dog.

 

[hibikikyuxx]

Nothing. Only reason I"m still here is because of the corrupt and cruel government which restricts the right to die. No one chooses to be born yet people think you should not be able to choose suicide. Fucking disgusting.

 

[pebpebpebpeb]

my older brothers and the things i want to experience before i die. i'm a hermit, but i want to experience parties and have fun with friends.

i write down a bullet list of things i wish to achieve. this can be as simple as reading a specific book, or having a lover. i want to experience life to its fullest before i CTB. i cross off and add to the list, and whenever i run out of points i'll know that it's my time.

whenever i get close to killing myself, i self harm instead to feel the adrenaline. it's harm reduction i suppose, and it works for now.

 

[hadenough58]

I constantly find things I want to achieve and places I want to visit, they do not have to be big things or exotic locations but just things to occupy my conscious mind and stop me thinking it is all so pointless

 

[rora]

False hope, SI because of no quick, easy, painless methods available, and fear of reincarnation in to something worse

#blessed

fear of reincarnation is so scary

 

[Chronosphere]

Inertia.

 

[rora]

Nothing. Only reason I"m still here is because of the corrupt and cruel government which restricts the right to die. No one chooses to be born yet people think you should not be able to choose suicide. Fucking disgusting.

People who say stuff like "you didn't create your own life so you don't have the right to take it" I did not create all these problems either, so why should I endure them?

my older brothers and the things i want to experience before i die. i'm a hermit, but i want to experience parties and have fun with friends.

i write down a bullet list of things i wish to achieve. this can be as simple as reading a specific book, or having a lover. i want to experience life to its fullest before i CTB. i cross off and add to the list, and whenever i run out of points i'll know that it's my time.

whenever i get close to killing myself, i self harm instead to feel the adrenaline. it's harm reduction i suppose, and it works for now.

I'm happy you have things you want to do, all of them sound so refreshing, I hope you get to experience them all!

I constantly find things I want to achieve and places I want to visit, they do not have to be big things or exotic locations but just things to occupy my conscious mind and stop me thinking it is all so pointless

Ngl travel is something I'd consider this year, wanna go to a far off place away from home

Inertia.

could you elaborate on how that relates to daily life

Inertia.

do you just not try to do anything to get by, something like just barely surviving?

 

[sserafim]

The thought of eternal peace and bliss paradoxically keeps me alive. One day I will find it, and I will find it soon. I'll be at peace forever. Also fear of reincarnating into an even worse scenario, but hopefully I won't be tricked by the light when I die

 

[rora]

The thought of eternal peace and bliss paradoxically keeps me alive. One day I will find it, and I will find it soon. I'll be at peace forever. Also fear of reincarnating into an even worse scenario, but hopefully I won't be tricked by the light when I die

i hope there's nothing after death. i don't want anything, no bliss but no pain either. just no more consciousness. as a fellow person who's terrified of reincarnation, what do you you think of NDE cases? i was looking into some of them the other day and don't know what to believe or think.

 

[Chronosphere]

could you elaborate on how that relates to daily life

do you just not try to do anything to get by, something like just barely surviving?

I meant that I just do what I always did. Every day, every week, every month, every year. Work, sleep, repeat. It's easier to keep going than to radically change something. Cbt is a big change and it requires a lot of energy. My body is just on autopilot, I barely notice how time passes. So, like, I just move forward due to inertia created by previous years of life and I need to apply force to actually stop myself.

 

[sserafim]

i hope there's nothing after death. i don't want anything, no bliss but no pain either. just no more consciousness. as a fellow person who's terrified of reincarnation, what do you you think of NDE cases? i was looking into some of them the other day and don't know what to believe or think.

I think that nobody knows for sure what happens after death, but reincarnation is likely in my opinion. I'm trying to find ways to escape the cycle. So far I've heard some conflicting information, so I'm not sure exactly what to believe. Some say that you shouldn't go to the white light at all (prison planet theory believers), other say that the first white light is your mind and if you recognize it as such then you'll be freed (Tibetan Book of the Dead readers).

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I'm here because the current suicide methods that are available for me are risky, ineffective and terrifying. If I could kill myself, I'd be long gone by now

 

[ringo99]

Just waiting to be fired from work or just until conditions become unbearable enough for me to quit which should happen this year. Once that happens there's nothing to hold me back

 

[gantaigarashi]

Blowing my money from wageslaving on hookers. I think I'll do this for some time, hopefully sex motivates me to work harder being a wagie, get good increments and save up some money for my family before CTB

 

[Endofit]

Inertia and fear of the process of ctb'ing

 

[AresCohere]

Morbid curiosity on how bad the world is gonna get and, at some points, shear pity will to those who have gone against me wrong.

 

[BlendedHeart]

Fear of failing and aversion to physical pain.

 

[ctvunny]

Besides thinking of my parents health, I only have my cat right now as a mean to keep going. Just waiting on her to warm up to others so I can leave her in their care.

 

[Pluto00]

Blowing my money from wageslaving on hookers. I think I'll do this for some time, hopefully sex motivates me to work harder being a wagie, get good increments and save up some money for my family before CTB

Fuck that's depressing. For all parties involved. What a world. Hopefully you didn't have kids.....

 

[Homo erectus]

cowardice.

 

[gantaigarashi]

Fuck that's depressing. For all parties involved. What a world. Hopefully you didn't have kids.....

Why would I have kids? And who will marry a depressed piece of shit like me. Now all I want is to save up some money for my parents and partially fund my brother's education before I CTB.

I just hope sex can help me hold on to this world a bit longer till I achieve my goals. It's harder to live day by day