• UK users: Due to a formal investigation into this site by Ofcom under the UK Online Safety Act 2023, we strongly recommend using a trusted, no-logs VPN. This will help protect your privacy, bypass censorship, and maintain secure access to the site. Read the full VPN guide here.

  • Hey Guest,

    Today, OFCOM launched an official investigation into Sanctioned Suicide under the UK’s Online Safety Act. This has already made headlines across the UK.

    This is a clear and unprecedented overreach by a foreign regulator against a U.S.-based platform. We reject this interference and will be defending the site’s existence and mission.

    In addition to our public response, we are currently seeking legal representation to ensure the best possible defense in this matter. If you are a lawyer or know of one who may be able to assist, please contact us at [email protected].

    Read our statement here:

    Donate via cryptocurrency:

    Bitcoin (BTC): 34HyDHTvEhXfPfb716EeEkEHXzqhwtow1L
    Ethereum (ETH): 0xd799aF8E2e5cEd14cdb344e6D6A9f18011B79BE9
    Monero (XMR): 49tuJbzxwVPUhhDjzz6H222Kh8baKe6rDEsXgE617DVSDD8UKNaXvKNU8dEVRTAFH9Av8gKkn4jDzVGF25snJgNfUfKKNC8
jimmy7754

jimmy7754

I just want to be myself again
Dec 15, 2021
508
What is your relationship with death?
 
  • Informative
  • Like
Reactions: Glowarm and thedaywillcome
Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
I don't have one yet
 
  • Like
  • Wow
Reactions: Maaizr and thedaywillcome
PrincessInWhite

PrincessInWhite

I just want to sell out my funeral
Feb 21, 2019
641
this is an excellent question!! I have such a complex relationship to it that I'm looking to untangle. On one hand I'm not afraid because the suffering can't be worse than this, and on the other hand I feel "Stuck" in survival instinct and hoping things will improve even when I know they won't. I keep going through the motions of everything that used to make me happy, like a ghost, and nothing happens. It's like going back to a ghost town and trying to celebrate a party with people who aren't there in a town that doesn't exist anymore. I'm crying as I write this. The worst part for me is knowing I'll be saying goodbye to the five people left in my life. I know I will be dead and won't bee conscious so I can't actually miss them when I'm gone, but I still know I'll miss them when I'm alive if that makes sense? And that when I take that final step, it's over. My relationship with them as I knew it has ended. Whew. Thanks for the chance to get this off my chest!
 
  • Hugs
  • Like
Reactions: Lostandlooking, Seafoam, Al Cappella and 1 other person
thedaywillcome

thedaywillcome

I will leave soon
Apr 2, 2022
358
It means freedom of this life.
 
  • Like
Reactions: Pisceslilith
S

Symbiote

Illuminated
Oct 12, 2020
3,099
Oh you know, we have had a rocky relationship, lots of ups and downs. She just can't make up her mind whether to accept me as I am but lo and behold she'll zero on a bunch of plane crash victims in China and welcome them in her loving embrace. Makes me jealous. She can be a real bitch at times too.
 
  • Like
Reactions: Maaizr and jimmy7754
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,301
The thought of death comforts me and it is all that I want and look forward to. I see it as being the end of my suffering. Death is inevitable for us all anyway and I believe that our only true purpose as humans is to die, life is just waiting around for death, life is just one big distraction from death. I just wish that it is easier to get there, that is all. I am trapped in this world as ctb is so difficult. When I think of death, it makes life seem so meaningless and temporary in comparison. I guess in a way it is impossible to have any relationship with death as I will no longer exist at that point, there will be no more me.
 
  • Like
Reactions: thedaywillcome
Hans Voralberg

Hans Voralberg

Experienced
Nov 6, 2021
229
Is it normal to treat death as your gf? I really like corpse bride by Tim Burton analogy in relation with death at first you are afraid but later on you accept it We are like old marriage at this point but jokes aside. I think it will comfy me. After pain of agony there will be peace in the warm darkness whithout counsciusness it will be like a sleep. Like a someone you love hugging you after you endure hell on Earth.
 
Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
this is an excellent question!! I have such a complex relationship to it that I'm looking to untangle. On one hand I'm not afraid because the suffering can't be worse than this, and on the other hand I feel "Stuck" in survival instinct and hoping things will improve even when I know they won't. I keep going through the motions of everything that used to make me happy, like a ghost, and nothing happens. It's like going back to a ghost town and trying to celebrate a party with people who aren't there in a town that doesn't exist anymore. I'm crying as I write this. The worst part for me is knowing I'll be saying goodbye to the five people left in my life. I know I will be dead and won't bee conscious so I can't actually miss them when I'm gone, but I still know I'll miss them when I'm alive if that makes sense? And that when I take that final step, it's over. My relationship with them as I knew it has ended. Whew. Thanks for the chance to get this off my chest!
The ghost town analogy is right on. It's all the same people and places but we're just wandering through remembering what it was like before - when there was color and life and feeling… before we died … and people now realize viscerally that you're dead and so they drift away and lose contact … and eventually you're alone the way you're meant to be… you can't sustain a relationship with a ghost … there is no there there …
 
  • Like
Reactions: Shu
Hans Voralberg

Hans Voralberg

Experienced
Nov 6, 2021
229
Yeah I feel dissociated from life too from reality. Part of me is on the other side now. I thinking how people will react after my death. Making a scenarios of their reactions. I asking myself questions am i get them the right clousure. Who will suffer and how minimize it. It is difficult.
 
Last edited:
  • Like
Reactions: Shu
°Celsuis_Caesar

°Celsuis_Caesar

Sanctioned Suicide is well worth a mass
Jan 10, 2022
187
I'm cheating on death with life, sigh.
 
  • Like
Reactions: jimmy7754 and Seafoam
H

Hurt

Paragon
Nov 13, 2020
905
I want to meet death and give it a hug. So it could take me out of this awful world.
 
F

Flying Away

A listening ear is better than suffering in silenc
Nov 20, 2021
393
Not close enough. Keeps running away. Hopefully catch him this weekend.
 
Life interrupted

Life interrupted

Trapped in life
Mar 18, 2022
139
Love/ hate
 
  • Like
Reactions: Seafoam
Al Cappella

Al Cappella

Are we there yet?
Feb 2, 2022
888
Well, Death keeps wanting to fist me while breathing its hairy whisky breath in my ear, but I'm insisting on dinner first. We shall see how it goes…
 
DerTod

DerTod

No alarms and no surprises
Apr 17, 2022
136
All i fear is being punished with another life.But then again when i'm in a plane and the plane is shaking...heck i get intense fear. Maybe it's because of pain...and not death itself. I don't know...
 
Shu

Shu

As above, So Below.
Jan 21, 2022
2,487
The ghost town analogy is right on. It's all the same people and places but we're just wandering through remembering what it was like before - when there was color and life and feeling… before we died … and people now realize viscerally that you're dead and so they drift away and lose contact … and eventually you're alone the way you're meant to be… you can't sustain a relationship with a ghost … there is no there there …
I knew I was dead already. I've been knowing this for a while now.
 
Seafoam

Seafoam

Student
Jun 26, 2020
103
To me death is an enigma.
 
  • Like
Reactions: locked*n*loaded
jimmy7754

jimmy7754

I just want to be myself again
Dec 15, 2021
508
To me death is an enigma.
After working in healthcare for years.. I feel this way.. I see how much people hold onto life.. we pretty much suffer and in the end I believe there is nothing..
 
Message In A Bottle

Message In A Bottle

I don’t need light. Please give me water
Apr 1, 2022
382
We're close
 
  • Like
Reactions: Pisceslilith
locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
8,867
I hope death is like some deep abyss, devoid of consciousness of any sort (even the type we may not know exists; unknown unknowns) and awareness. No one knows no matter what they tell you. And I don't want any do-overs. Nor do I want to come back here as anything else. It's really all a gamble of some sort. Birth was a gamble you had absolutely no control over. Death, on the other hand, is supposed to be a gamble that you have absolutely no control over. Who knows what happens when the natural order of the way things are supposed to be gets thwarted?
 
G

Glowarm

F*ck everyone and everything
Apr 8, 2022
673
We're old friends and actually well acquainted with each other. We met each other once before and we will again some day.
Imo, death isn't something to fear. It's just another stage of being.
 
Ashu

Ashu

novelist, sanskritist, Canadian living in India
Nov 13, 2021
785
Longing and terror.
 

Similar threads

DivineSpark
Replies
15
Views
352
Offtopic
starboy2k
starboy2k
kmycluisfe
Replies
1
Views
125
Offtopic
Skallagrim
Skallagrim
starboy2k
Replies
3
Views
146
Suicide Discussion
elpurp
elpurp
L
Replies
5
Views
181
Suicide Discussion
pthnrdnojvsc
pthnrdnojvsc
imjustamtfgirl
Replies
20
Views
733
Suicide Discussion
Meowmeownextweek
Meowmeownextweek