Praying 4 a Miracle

Praying 4 a Miracle

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Sep 22, 2024
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Free will is one of the most powerful forces that we possess, and making decisions one of the most important jobs. If things go well in this area then everything is just peachy, but when things don't go well, our decisions can obviously cause catastrophic results.

This is when our regret kicks in big time, and it's not a fun emotion. Personally, I've been struggling with this a lot lately. For almost six decades I felt like I was doing pretty good with my decision-making duties in life, but the last couple years, not so much.

It can be hell on Earth when we spend major amounts of time punishing ourselves with regret over bad decisions which we all make. There's going to be some, there is no way of avoiding it completely. But obsessive regret can be brutal, and we need to be kinder to ourselves. There is no one on Earth who doesn't make mistakes, and that's just the way it is.

Sometimes we just need to let go of it, and stop punishing ourselves. Personally, I really struggle with this. I tend to beat myself up pretty badly when I make serious mistakes. Even when these mistakes cause catastrophic suffering, which I've experienced for the last couple of years, it's still not healthy to hang onto massive amounts of regret.

A small amount can be good in fact, because it forces us to intensely analyze our mistakes, which will help to prevent us from making future mistakes that may be similar. But generally, we tend to go way overboard on this.

So we just need to be kinder to ourselves, and try to let it go when we screw up. I know how hard it can be to do this, because I struggle with this probably more than the average person.

Regret causes us to experience huge amounts of extra anxiety and stress, which greatly affects our sleep quality. There's nothing good that comes from experiencing huge amounts of it, only bad. Although it's difficult, for the sake of our health, we should really kick as much of it to the curb, as is humanly possible.

If we all had a time machine, then we could go back and try again, which would solve these problems entirely. The next best thing to this, is to just try and move forward and forgive ourselves for our mistakes.

My biggest regret was allowing my stress level to get too high, which has caused huge health problems. Every day I wish that I could go back and run through that time period again, and prevent that from happening, but sadly time only goes in one direction. So I just have to let it go, which is a lot easier said than done.

The entire idea that time only goes in one direction, to me seems brutal, but regret only makes things much, much worse. So I'm making every effort to keep the car in drive, and avoid trying to shift the transmission into reverse while I'm driving down the road. If anybody ever does come across a time machine though, please let me know lol!
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
4,380
I don't have any regrets as I never wanted to do anything in life or be alive in the first place. I can't really regret not being born or not killing myself earlier as I never had the power to kill myself and I most likely never will
 
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SVEN

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Apr 3, 2023
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Being born at all.
 
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WhiteRabbit

WhiteRabbit

I'm late, i'm late. For a very important date.
Feb 12, 2019
1,438
I regret listening to my doctors and taking a medication that gave me really bad permanent side effects. I also regret putting things like traveling off in my twenties because I was working and trying to establish a career. Now at almost 40 I'm too sick to really do much.
 
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affirmatice

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Aug 31, 2024
35
regret is the main thing which has fueled my depression and subsequent suicidal thoughts
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
37,468
I regret existing at all, more than anything I wish I never suffered in this cruel, torturous existence, to me personally existence itself will always be the most terrible tragedy, I'd never wish for the suffering this existence causes, I'll always find it a burden to exist and it's one that only death can bring me peace from, I find existing to be deeply undesirable in every way.
 
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suffering_mo_7

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May 8, 2024
329
I would avoid all pharmaceuticals except life saving antibiotics.
 
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KillingPain267

Enlightened
Apr 15, 2024
1,078
My biggest regret is that I didn't do partial hanging with my umbilical cord as soon as I was born. There is absolutely no point in me being born at all even if I've had a wonderful childhood.
 
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SixNeufUn

SixNeufUn

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Oct 8, 2024
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This is something I never asked myself tbh, Hmmm nothing come in mind. Not something from the past rather for the future.

The only thing I think I will regret is to not being able to have a family. I have always wanted my own family since I met my first girlfriend and it never leave my brain since thenšŸ§Œ. I guess a part of me want to give them all the things I have never gotten
 
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deadstillwalking

deadstillwalking

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Apr 23, 2024
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I believe in determinism, so I don't think that you had any kind of choice. Please, don't make your life worse by thinking about things you had no control of.
 
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divinemistress36

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Jan 1, 2024
2,913
Meeting the drunk guy who is a doctor by trade who snapped my neck causing a stroke and getting ECT
 
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NegevChina

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Sep 5, 2024
92
Many big regrets:
1. Not dyeing when I was 4 yo and been pushed by a stupid friend to fall from 2.5m on my head and fracturing my collar bone. I've since then lived 53 years and rn it seems its more difficult to leave every one behind.
2. Taking the prescription medicine for anxiety from my doctors 7 years ago instead of reducing stress at work. I'm still addicted to that medication.
3. Not CTB as soon as my latest health problem occurred by jumping. I'll probably jump soon but a lot of damage to relations with every one I know and love has occurred since then.

BIGEST REGRET:
Going on a ketogenic diet that destroyed my health and caused me irreversible damage to my digestion system but is hard to diagnose and the doctors dismiss it as if it does not exist. It destroyed what was left from my life and I must now CTB.
 
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Lost Magic

Illuminated
May 5, 2020
3,086
Not ending it sooner knowing that I am only going to suffer more in the future (if I am still here).
 
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Hunter2005

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Apr 15, 2023
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Free will is one of the most powerful forces that we possess, and making decisions one of the most important jobs. If things go well in this area then everything is just peachy, but when things don't go well, our decisions can obviously cause catastrophic results.

This is when our regret kicks in big time, and it's not a fun emotion. Personally, I've been struggling with this a lot lately. For almost six decades I felt like I was doing pretty good with my decision-making duties in life, but the last couple years, not so much.

It can be hell on Earth when we spend major amounts of time punishing ourselves with regret over bad decisions which we all make. There's going to be some, there is no way of avoiding it completely. But obsessive regret can be brutal, and we need to be kinder to ourselves. There is no one on Earth who doesn't make mistakes, and that's just the way it is.

Sometimes we just need to let go of it, and stop punishing ourselves. Personally, I really struggle with this. I tend to beat myself up pretty badly when I make serious mistakes. Even when these mistakes cause catastrophic suffering, which I've experienced for the last couple of years, it's still not healthy to hang onto massive amounts of regret.

A small amount can be good in fact, because it forces us to intensely analyze our mistakes, which will help to prevent us from making future mistakes that may be similar. But generally, we tend to go way overboard on this.

So we just need to be kinder to ourselves, and try to let it go when we screw up. I know how hard it can be to do this, because I struggle with this probably more than the average person.

Regret causes us to experience huge amounts of extra anxiety and stress, which greatly affects our sleep quality. There's nothing good that comes from experiencing huge amounts of it, only bad. Although it's difficult, for the sake of our health, we should really kick as much of it to the curb, as is humanly possible.

If we all had a time machine, then we could go back and try again, which would solve these problems entirely. The next best thing to this, is to just try and move forward and forgive ourselves for our mistakes.

My biggest regret was allowing my stress level to get too high, which has caused huge health problems. Every day I wish that I could go back and run through that time period again, and prevent that from happening, but sadly time only goes in one direction. So I just have to let it go, which is a lot easier said than done.

The entire idea that time only goes in one direction, to me seems brutal, but regret only makes things much, much worse. So I'm making every effort to keep the car in drive, and avoid trying to shift the transmission into reverse while I'm driving down the road. If anybody ever does come across a time machine though, please let me know lol!
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sancta-simplicitas

Arcanist
Dec 14, 2023
437
Asking for help from psychiatry.
 
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AllTheseQuestions

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Sep 19, 2024
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I've never related to a post so much.

I spend lots of time ruminating how I could have done things differently. Since I was 18, I've made countless bad decisions and hurt plenty of people. I'm not really sure how I square that with myself. I've hurt innocent, good people. Most recently this year.

If I had a Time Machine I'd make sure I never met the people I hurt, because I do not trust myself in the long term not to hurt them. I guess, extrapolating that, I do wish I was never born then I couldn't hurt my family either.

I don't know, I'm just so sad.
 
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sevennn

Arcanist
Sep 11, 2024
427
i don't blame myself for anything anymore. i let go of that. my biggest regret in life is how life is. i could've been born on a heavenly planet. that is just and fair and kind. etc etc. but i wasn't, i was born on earth. i'm trying to say that my biggest regret in life is life being the way that it is. and it has been before me and it will continue to be this way after me. i'm disappointed. it could've been so much better for all of us. if all those awful things didn't exist. you'd never know. all of those things that seem to make up life. and seem to be it's core parts. we could've lived somewhere amazing. reality could've been anything. and you'd never know. you'd never say it's unrealistic. you'd just never know that realistic is a synonym for awful. the word realistic could've meant - good, fair, just, kind. so on and on. that's my biggest regret. that it isn't so.
 
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NegevChina

NegevChina

Member
Sep 5, 2024
92
how did a ketogenic diet destroy you? humans can live off of raw meat indefinetely, all by itself, what did u consume?
I eat vegetables in olive oil, 2 eggs a day, lots of butter on a keto bread, 85%dark chocolate, almond spread, chicken, mayonnaise, hamburgers. It caused a rare condition called pancreatitis that caused my pancreas to attack itself. Its very rare that a keto diet cause this. There are very little known cases of this. Most people can do keto for ever and be ok.
 
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NegevChina

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Sep 5, 2024
92
thats very interesting, not so sure how a lack of carbohydrates would trigger it, have you treated it well since then? what do you eat now?
I'm on a low fat diet now and its hell because it includes carbs. Gained back some weight. I'm treating it with enzymes that i have to take every meal i eat that replace the missing enzymes from my pancreas. My digestion system is in constant stress.
 
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Unspoken7612

Experienced
Jul 14, 2024
202
Hmm. There's a few candidates.

Choosing to go to the good local school rather than a great selective school - don't really regret this as it allowed me to spend a lot of time with my Grandma, who had dementia.

Selection of A-Levels/not doing better at A-Level to get into Oxbridge - some mild regret that I chose Maths over English Lit, but I understand why I did it. Results out of my control, and no guarantee I'd have got in anyway.

Not leaving home for university - again not really under my control, the thought of leaving home was causing me so much worry. I did need the extra time to grow up.

Not taking the largest possible student loan - OK this was a big fuck-up lol, in the UK a student loan is basically free money because it's almost impossible to pay it off before it gets wiped. Cost me >Ā£20,000 which would have grown quickly. Don't really regret this though.

Leaving home for work - was necessary, both pragmatically and because I needed to get away from my parents, but it did also cause them to make incorrect assumptions about me that in the long run had a serious deleterious effect upon my mental health.

Not making more of a move on E when she moved to London - I was suicidally ill and knew if I made another unsuccessful move it would end our friendship. No real regrets.

Telling E about my feelings for the second time - yeah this is clearly the winner, I lost my best friend and by far the person I most enjoyed spending time with. I think it was the right thing to do ethically, but it had a serious negative impact upon my mental health which I still haven't recovered from all these months later.
 
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sexual-sinning

sexual-sinning

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Jun 8, 2024
16
thinking i would ctb if i got kicked out the military

obviously I'm still here and my life is shit again, gotta work my way from the ground up and i simply don't care about life enough to put in the effort to get a better one. an easy life is why i joined in the first place, despite whatever mental health problems arise from that lifestyle, economically and socially speaking, its easier than being a civilian, but i don't have that option anymore because i was so gung ho about ctb.
 
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losingsteam3141

Grad Student USA
Aug 30, 2024
52
Not getting my health issues in check which started in high school. I just am not the same person. I couldn't focus in school and severely affected my social life. Honestly changes my entire trajectory.
 
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AliceTheGoon

Specialist
Jul 1, 2022
391
My biggest regret was allowing my stress level to get too high, which has caused huge health problems.
Was it just stress? I had several things converge at the same time, one of which was stress. It was kind of a perfect storm and under the circumstances I don't think I could have avoided any of it.
 
MatrixPrisoner

MatrixPrisoner

Enlightened
Jul 8, 2023
1,436
Not using my umbilical cord as a noose when I had the chance.
 
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Ashu

novelist, sanskritist, Canadian living in India
Nov 13, 2021
711
I've never related to a post so much.

I spend lots of time ruminating how I could have done things differently. Since I was 18, I've made countless bad decisions and hurt plenty of people. I'm not really sure how I square that with myself. I've hurt innocent, good people. Most recently this year.

If I had a Time Machine I'd make sure I never met the people I hurt, because I do not trust myself in the long term not to hurt them. I guess, extrapolating that, I do wish I was never born then I couldn't hurt my family either.

I don't know, I'm just so sad.
Totally relate.
 
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