What is the reason you are suicidal?

[beyondcitadel]

I'm ugly as fuck. My genes fucked me over and i just don't see the point of continuing to play in a losing game

 

[Lost Magic]

I hate the vast majority of humans. They are a failed species that have accelerated my desire to be gone from their destructive ways.

 

[extremelyugly]

I'm very ugly and unwanted, and I have no resources to fix that; tried to hide from that fact as much as possible or cope, but cannot do it anymore. There is nothing for me in this planet anymore, or even better, there never was.

 

[difficvltmachineryy]

I have nothing ahead of me. I have suffered from depressive episodes and suicidal ideation for years, but it has never gotten this bad. Academically i am a failure, i don't have any goals or passions in life, my family is the only reason to live for, but they will die one day and i dont want to witness that, so why not go now?

 

[Lostthefaith]

I am a 59 year old man. I came out 2 years ago. I moved to a place I didn't like to help family.

Today I find myself with no friends
Living for 10 years somewhere i hate
I paid for bills, my family abandoned or didn't care and I alone ended up with an eviction, now at 59
I have many medical issues that can nit be cured. Only managed with pills. 1 of which is ED
I have never dated. My entire life. No one has been interested or made me aware
I have no partner.
I want nothing to do with family, yet i have to live with those who caused eviction. And pay the rent
I am fat. I've been fat from day one
I'm not attractive. Never have been
Only ever had 3 or 4 friends
I won 2 separate cruises. All paid. I couldn't find anyone to go with me…. For free- all paid

I just can't keep going. I literally will leave this planet with no mark. Like I was never here
I look everywhere and people are with friends or have partners. Not me
I found out last year that my dad was not my father. At 58. Mother told me it has nothing to do with me and i didn't need to know

Who wants a fat old ugly gay man who has no money some medical issues and has ED

The psychiatrist says keep going. Things will change. I've waited 59 years. When will it happen.

Imagine never feeling like you belong or not being loved for 59 years

I should be dead

 

[Merocero]

I am never enough, always hated and outcast, not good enough at anything to be liked, and not able to work, so im forced to be alone and stuck with nothing to my name. Its scary how after a while you can get used to just... living on nothing, with no one around, no one caring... And with all of that, im forced to look at my younger brother getting treatment for all the issues i also had at school, hes taken seriously and im just blamed for being lazy, it hurts so much

 

[starsshinebright]

im autistic. i cannot function and do the same things a non autistic person is able to do
i cant work, i cant pick up on what people are trying to tell me, im terrible at doing things without very specific instructions. the basics of being autistic tbh

ive always been out of the loop because of this and i suck at social interactions. if i werent autistic i believe i wouldnt be suicidal because i wouldve experienced a normal childhood and most of my problems stem from that

 

[Lycan]

OCD, Lyme Disease, and Pandas, which is an autoimmune disease. I'm in SOOO much pain, but what goes on in my head is far worse.